Dr. Neruda’s Cure for Evil
by
Rafael Yglesias
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Susan Bolotin, Ben Cheever, A. J. Mayer, and Paula Weinstein
SEALED
This manuscript has been sealed at the request of the author, Rafael Guillermo Neruda, M.D., until fifty (50) years after his death. Authorization from the Director is required for handling. All examination, including for the purpose of preservation or cataloguing, is forbidden
Joshua Black
Director, Prager Memorial Library
Date
A Note on the Organization of the Text
This study is divided into three parts. Part One is an account, in memoir form, of my own psychological history. Part Two is a case history, covering fifteen years, of one of my patients, Gene Kenny. Part Three is a record of my investigation into the cause of the catastrophic failure of his therapy, the results of that investigation, and my radical alternative treatment.
PART ONE
Psychological History
of the
Therapist
CHAPTER ONE
Magic Thoughts
I AM GOING TO PRESENT THESE TWO CASE HISTORIES IN LAYMEN’S TERMS. Perhaps that will render them useless to psychiatrists and psychologists. It shouldn’t. If I have learned anything from the ghastly tragedy I must explain, it’s that life is lived in laymen’s terms.
The dirty secret of analysis is that for the collaboration to succeed the doctor has to be gifted. Not only with the ability to decode a patient’s unconscious. Not only to have an illuminating and healing insight specific to that patient’s experience of psychological trauma, thus inspiring civil disobedience against his illness. The above are certainly necessary — yet they are insufficient. The therapist must also supply insight at the right moment; when, as it were, the security police are asleep. A talking cure succeeds only partly because it aids self-awareness; most of the work is accomplished through a sensitive and precise management of the healing relationship. What the analyst feels is as crucial as the analysand’s sorrows. Thus it follows that there is a fatal flaw in all scientifically presented case histories because they are solely concerned with the patient’s life and character. To understand why the treatment proceeded the way it did one must also know about the doctor — his brilliancies, his mistakes, and his own psychology. The true story of a therapeutic exchange begins not with the patient’s present problem but with the healer’s past.
I, Rafael Guillermo Neruda, was born in New York in 1952. My mother, Ruth, was Jewish; my father, Francisco, what sociologists now call Hispanic. For the first eight years of my life we lived in Washington Heights, a working-class neighborhood at the northern extreme of Manhattan. In those days the Heights were predominantly Jewish. So much so, my father had to show the landlord Ruth’s birth certificate to prove she was Jewish before he was allowed to rent our modest apartment. Although I was accepted by my mother’s family, my Jewish friends and their families, they were quick to remind me that I was half alien to them.
I spent summers with my father’s parents in Tampa, Florida. My father’s people were the children of Spanish and Cuban immigrants who moved there in the 1880s to earn their living as cigar-makers. Although my grandparents were American born, they had been raised in an insulated Spanish-speaking ghetto of Tampa called Ybor City (pronounced E-BORE). They spoke English with heavy accents and were distrustful of the white and black Americans who surrounded them. My grandparents were too timid and superstitious to travel to New York, thus I had to be sent down to Ybor City during summer vacation for them to admire and display me to a seemingly endless parade of cousins, aunts and uncles. While summering — baking would be more accurate — with the Latins of Florida, I was accepted as a beloved object of pride; yet there were frequent reminders that I was half alien to them.
Interestingly, neither the Jews nor the Latins made an overt play for my loyalty. I stress overt. There was one notable exception. Samuel Rabinowitz was seventy-five years old when I was born. My mother was his youngest daughter. She gave birth to me at the age of thirty-six, late in life for a woman of the 1950s. I have a single vivid memory of Papa Sam, an encounter at my Uncle Bernie’s on the first night of Passover in 1960, in which he claimed me as a Jew and defined my fate. I imbued this event with the magical thinking of a child, a magic that after all became real, because it called into being the ambition of my life.
That morning my mother and I took the train out to Uncle Bernie’s Great Neck estate to attend the Rabinowitz family Seder. Bernie was Papa Sam’s oldest son. He was a multimillionaire thanks to real estate ventures that had taken advantage of the postwar boom in New York City for low- and middle-income housing. Bernie possessed the capital for these investments thanks to the profits he made from selling powdered eggs to the government to distribute to our troops during World War II. My uncle was able to make a huge profit because the eggs he powdered for our boys were the rotten throwaways of upstate farmers and thus Bernie’s only cost was the processing.
By 1960 Uncle Bernie was worth nearly one hundred million dollars. His great wealth was regarded with awe by my mother’s side of the family and indeed the world — with the exception of my mother. The rest of the Rabinowitzes did not agree with my mother’s analysis of her brother’s moneymaking, namely that Bernie had lived through the best two decades to be in business in American history, that anyone who entered the war years with substantial capital trebled it, that the riskier and more foolish the investment made then, the greater the return. Even if they had shared my mother’s interpretation of economic history, my uncle’s staggering accumulation of wealth beyond the status of mere millionairehood would have convinced them his success was due to more than just good timing. But the abundance did not persuade my strong-willed mother of her brother’s genius. Quite the contrary. To her it was a proof of his lack of character. Among many explanations for her attitude I should note that she was a member of the Communist Party. (My training analyst once noted in an ironic mumble, “Your family history is a little complicated.” Here’s another taste of its strange flavor: my father hadn’t come with us to the 1960 Seder because he was living in Fidel’s Cuba, doing research for a book sympathetic to the brand-new revolution. He hoped to help forestall an economic boycott by the U.S., which he believed would soon prove fatal.)
Uncle Bernie was also admired for his generosity and philanthropy. And with good reason. From the age of eighteen on he supported his parents, two brothers and four sisters with direct gifts as well as jobs for them or their spouses. He contributed millions to Israel, Brandeis, two major hospitals, and the Metropolitan Museum of Art. He virtually paid singlehandedly to build a new temple near his mansion in Great Neck. In 1960 and ’61, for example, Bernie gave away more than ten million to various charities and causes. All praised him; all believed he was great; except, as noted, for Ruth, my artistic mother, the youngest sibling, and also the only one who did not live off Bernie’s largess. She refused her brother’s offers to employ her freelance husband, just as she had refused years before when Uncle Bernie offered to support her if only she would give up her intention to marry my Latin father.