"That's the way it looks, Balit."
"But stars live forever, Viktor," the boy said drowsily.
"Not forever. For a long time—" Viktor stopped, remembering a joke. He laughed as he got ready to tell it. "There used to be a story about that, Balit. A student is asking his astronomy teacher a question: 'Pardon me, professor, but when did you say the sun would turn into a red giant and burn us all up?'
"The professor says, 'In about five billion years.'
"So the student says, 'Oh, thank God! I thought you said five million.'"
But Balit didn't laugh. He was sleeping. And as Viktor carried the boy to his bed, he wasn't laughing, either.
Viktor sought out the one of Balit's parents at home. He found Frit painting something on a large screen. "I'm sorry I kept him so late. We got to talking about why all these things had happened—"
"Where you go wrong, Viktor," Frit told him serenely, "is in always asking why. There doesn't have to be a why. You don't have to understand things; it's enough to feel."
Viktor looked uncomprehendingly at the designs Frit was painting on the screen. The screen, he saw, was flimsy, it would be transferred to the wall of the room that would some day be Ginga's. It was a wall poem. He laughed. "So I shouldn't try to understand why you're doing that? When Ginga isn't even born, and won't be able to read for years yet?"
"No, Viktor, that is very easy to understand," Frit said indulgently. "When Ginga learns to read I want her first words to come from her father. No," he went on, brushing in another character in a chartreuse flourish and looking critically at the result, "it is this obsession of yours for understanding the sky that worries me. It upsets Balit, I'm afraid. What's the use of it? The sky is the sky, Viktor. It has nothing to do with our lives."
"But you've written poems about the sky!"
"Ah, but that is art. I write poems about what people feel about the sky. No one can experience the sky, Viktor; one can only look at it and see it as an object of art." He shook his wooly head in reproof. "All these things you tell to Balit—hydrogen atoms fusing into helium, suns exploding and dying—there's no feeling there. They're just horrid mechanical things."
In spite of himself, Viktor was amused. "Aren't you even curious?"
"About stars? Not at all! About the human heart, of course."
"But science—" Viktor stopped, shaking his head. "I don't see how you can talk that way, Frit. Don't you want to know things? Don't you want to have Balit understand science?" He waved an arm around the future nursery. "If it weren't for science, how could you and Forta have had a child?"
"Ah, but that's useful science, Viktor! That's worth knowing about—not like your worrying about whose lines are where in which spectra. It's good because it makes our lives better. But I'm not at all curious about why stars shine and what makes them hot—and least of all about where they've all gone—because there's nothing anyone can do about it anyway. Is there?"
By the time word came that Pelly was back in the habitats Viktor was beginning to feel as though he had seriously out-stayed his welcome on Moon Mary. Balit was still loyal. Frit was unfailingly polite. Forta, at least, had a use for their guest; he borrowed Viktor for an hour or so almost every day to dance with him. Forta appreciated it, and for Viktor it seemed good exercise for his nearly healed leg, though Frit did not seem to approve. Viktor heard them talking, not quite out of earshot, and Frit was being reasonable. "Folk dancing? Oh, yes, Forta dear, but what is folk dancing, after all? It's simply what primitive people used to do when they didn't have professionals to watch. But you are an artist!"
"And you," Forta told him good-humoredly, "are a little jealous, aren't you?"
"Of course not! On the other hand, dear …"
And the rest of the conversation Viktor could not hear, which was probably just as well.
Viktor was leading Forta through the familiar, sweet Misirlou when the package arrived from Pelly. Viktor opened it with excitement—something from Nebo for him to study, something more informative than the broken bits and pieces like Balit's keepsake?
It was not from Nebo. It was human-made and very old. Pelly's message said, "This appears to have come from one of your old ships, Viktor. I thought you'd like to listen to it."
The last time Viktor had seen that object was on old Ark, just before the fatal attempt at landing a team of investigators. It was, in fact, Ark's own black-box recording log.
It even still worked—more or less; someone had been repairing it, somewhere along the line, and much of the material was erased, much more so deteriorated in sound quality that Viktor could hardly make it out. But there was one tiny section that was loud and clear—and the voice that was speaking on the log was one Viktor knew well.
Jake Lundy. It was the voice of Viktor's rival speaking from the grave.
When Balit came in, an hour later, he found Viktor sitting over the log, listening once again to the voice of his long-dead rival. "… have now been in this ship for fifty-seven days," it was saying, the voice weak and cracking. "I can't hold out much longer. The others are dead, and I guess—"
That was all that was still intelligible.
Balit put his arm around Viktor in compassion. He listened to the tape with Viktor, then listened again. "I know how you feel, Viktor," he declared. "It must be awful, hearing your friend's voice when he's been dead for thousands of years."
Viktor looked at him without expression.
"Jake Lundy wasn't a friend," he said.
"Then why—"
But Viktor could not answer, because he couldn't find words to tell the boy how the voice of Reesa's long-dead lover had suddenly started a hopeless longing for the long-dead Reesa herself.
That night, dancing Misirlou again with Forta, Viktor found himself near to weeping.
"Is something wrong?" Forta asked worriedly. Viktor just shook his head and went on with the dance. When Frit came in, looking faintly jealous at the sight of Viktor holding Forta, he said, "Listen, something's come up. I've been talking to Nrina. She thinks we should come to visit her—look at the sketches and talk to her about Ginga."
The principal thought in Viktor's mind was that he was not, just then, ready to resume his affair with the woman who had brought him back to life.
When they reached Nrina's habitat she was there to greet them, proudly exclaiming over Balit's now blemishless forehead. "No brand! Oh, and you'll be making love first chance you get now, won't you?"
"Of course," Balit said sedately. Then Nrina whisked them off to her laboratory—all but Viktor. Viktor was not involved in the planning of the new baby. He was given the freedom of her quarters to wait for her pleasure instead.
It was a long wait. Then, when she did arrive, her words were not of love. For the first time in Viktor's experience of her, Nrina looked angry. "Do you know how much it cost Frit and Forta to dig up all those old records for you?"
He was taken aback. "They didn't say anything about the cost," he protested.
"Of course not. You were their guest."
Viktor said doggedly, "I'm really sorry, Nrina, but how was I to know it cost so much money? Nobody ever said anything to me."
"Said what it cost? Oh, Viktor! Did you really think that two sensitive, artistic, decent people like Frit and Forta would say anything so vulgar?"
"I'm sorry," he grumbled. And then, defensively, he said, "What does it matter? You people are closing your eyes to what's really important—what's happening to the universe."