Tir sat still, racked with a slight, constant shiver. Hethya was arguing with Loses His Way. "And I suppose all those double and triple and umpty-upple warriors of Vair's are just going to turn their wee faces to the wall and fall asleep?"
"Pah! Insects. The boy must be fed. Us, too. Else we will be unable to flee, unable to help ourselves or anyone else."
Loses His Way's face was frightful, a swollen mass of purpling flesh that gaped in six or eight places where the whip had opened the skin. Blood caked his beard and his braids, and the few teeth he had left in his mouth were ragged chips.
"Should we leave this room we'll be walking into places where Bektis can see us, does he care to look into that crystal of his. That he's been busy about this and that is all that's saved us, but every time's another risk."
"So ask this Ancestor that dwells in your head, this Ancestor that guided you into alliance with the Father of All Traitors, to tell you where safe places can be found! She knew this place."
Hethya straightened her back, her face altering to the cold, haughty countenance of Oale Niu, and she opened her mouth to reply.
Then she thought again, and her shoulders slumped; her red lips closed. "Would I could," she said softly.
"There is no Ancestor. Your lanky pal figured it. He'll tell you the whole of it when he finally comes back, if he comes back."
She sighed, all fight gone, and turned her face. She still wore the clone's overcoat and wrappings and would easily have passed for one of Vair's warriors in the dark. Her mouth tightened hard, not to give anything of herself away, but Loses His Way saw, and the anger went out of his face.
"There," he said gently, and stepped to her, putting a comforting arm like a bear's great forepaw around her shoulders. "There, Little Ancestor, there's no need to weep."
She shook her head violently. "It's tired I am, that's all," she said, tears creeping down her cheeks.
"I know."
"I just... I did try."
The broken, toothless mouth moved into what had once been a smile. "I know. And you did well. As well as any warrior."
"I'm sorry, sweeting." She looked down at Tir, defeated. "You've met His Nastiness. It was join with him or... well, have happen to me what I'd rather not have happen."
"It's all right." Tir's voice was tiny in the gloom. "I knew you made it up." He stepped close to her on her other side, put his arm around her waist as he did with his mother, and leaned his head against her hip.
"Way back at Bison Knoll I knew."
Hethya laughed a little, wept a little, returned the pressure of his embrace, and with her other hand patted the big, knotted hand of Loses His Way.
"I did what I could."
Loses His Way smiled, and even through the blood there was a warmth to it, like the sun's ki in whom the Icefalcon's people did not believe. "We all do what we can, Little Ancestor. You kept the boy alive.
No small thing in dealing with that carrion eater from the South. You did well."
Tir went on, "And I don't know if... if Bektis will be able to see us, even if we leave this room, or if they'll be able to find us even if he does see us. The old man might not let him."
"What old man, sweeting?"
The Icefalcon had come close and had tried already, vainly, to enter the body lying cold and still in its nest of furs. Pain throbbed and cramped him, worse and growing worse still, agonizing, nauseating, flesh shredded, teeth marks showing on the exposed bones.
Was this why he couldn't return to his own flesh?
Had he destroyed his ability to do so when he'd taken on the form-for seconds only-of Prinyippos in order to command the clone? Or had he simply been away from his body too long?
You think you can escape? the old man had screamed after him with peals of mocking laughter.
And the voice of the clone shouting dumb echoes of voices in his head: I will eat you all.
Despair closed over him, the knowledge that he would die here in the darkness. The knowledge that it was over.
"The old man in the Keep," whispered Tir, and his words brought the Icefalcon back to awareness of his surroundings, of these three people beside him, with whom his life was entwined. "The old man with the tattoos all over his hands and the big long fingernails..." Tir's little pink fingers described the obscene curves of the overgrown claws, and the Icefalcon thought, He's seen him, too.
"He lives in the Keep."
"You mean a ghost?" asked Loses His Way doubtfully. Besides being a White Raider, his swollen, bloodied face was something from a nightmare, but Tir seemed to have taken his horrible appearance in stride. Loses His Way and Tir drew Hethya back to the little fire, and the chieftain selected a couple more fragments of wood to feed the blaze.
The boy shook his head. "He's alive," he said. "That's what the whole thing was about. He's been alive..."
He broke off, groping for words, struggling to make them understand, to understand himself.
Loses His Way and Hethya traded a look of incomprehension, then looked back at the child. "You mean he was living here before we burrowed through the ice?" Hethya asked gently. "How did he get here, sweeting? What did he eat? Not those filthy plants, to be sure."
"I can't." Tir buried his face in his arms. "I can't say."
She stroked his black hair. "There, there, it's all right," she murmured. "You don't have to say."
She looked up at Loses His Way again. "Your lanky pal's a sort of ghost, though he says he's alive, too.
He comes to us in dreams."
"Shadow-walking," agreed Loses His Way, nodding.
"Here," Hethya said, and looked around her suddenly. "What am I thinking?" She pulled a rag from her pocket; wet it from her water bottle. "Let me at least clean you up and make a civilized man of you."
The chieftain grinned a little as she daubed water on the rag and very gently began to wash the cuts on his face, and he said, "Ah, never will you make a civilized man of me, Little Ancestor."
"Civilized man-now there's a contradiction in terms."
And both laughed a little, the sparkle of their eyes meeting on the outer edge of pain and death and dark.
"Now, I may not be some reborn mage of the Times Before," she said when she had finished, "but me mother taught me a bit of meditation. It always pays, she said, to know how to calm your mind. Lord knows I'm not going to sleep in any hurry, but meditation may serve for him to speak to us at least."
Loses His Way nodded. "Our shamans do the same if a shadow-walker becomes lost. It is not something my people do often, you understand,-shadow-walk, that is-for it is very dangerous." He nodded down at the Icefalcon's body. "As we see."
"He'll be all right," whispered Tir anxiously, "won't he?"
Hethya's glance crossed the warchief's; it was Loses His Way who replied. "That we do not know, Little King. It may be that he will not. But if anyone can return after this long, it is the Icefalcon."
He grinned with his broken teeth and puffed lips, blackened blue eyes dancing in the flittering light. "He would not have it said of him that he permitted even death to get the better of him, so of course he must return."
Tir giggled.
And what is wrong, demanded the Icefalcon, with striving to be perfect in survival? For there are times when only the perfect survive.
But he was glad that Tir had lost some of his look of fear.
"It would help if we had smoke," said Loses His Way, "or some of those herbs that the Wise Ones burn to dissociate the mind from the flesh."
"You're telling me, laddy-o." Hethya sighed, and closed her eyes. "You're telling me."
"The Wise Ones taught me this..." Loses His Way gravely touched her face and temples, her hands and arms, at the points of relaxation, the nexus of the body's energies. The tension in Hethya's shoulders eased, and some of the grimness left her face.