.Kei-chan
.Onee-chan!
He clings to me, crying
I also embrace Kei-chan.
Geez.don’t cry. You’re a man aren’t you?
Onee-chan.Onee-chan!
Kei-chan buries his face in my chest.crying.
I was happy.
Now.let’s do it, Kei-chan
I want to dedicate my everything to my brother.
My mind.my body.my purity too. I’ll dedicate all my flesh and blood to Kei-chan. Because, Kei-chan. He has always endured it for my sake.
Eat your Onee-chan
.Eh? I’d like you to eat me.I want to be eaten by Kei-chan!
I tried to kiss Kei-chan.
.And yet
.Sorry, Onee-chan
Kei-chan refused my kiss.
.What’s wrong, Kei-chan?
.Kei-chan
I can’t defile Onee-chan
.Defile?
.Defile?
I love Onee-chan. Onee-chan is very kind.and beautiful
.Kei-chan. Onee-chan loves Kei-chan too
Happy.I tried to embrace Kei-chan.
.And yet. Kei-chan grabbed my shoulder and tried to get away.
Therefore.I can’t do something that makes Onee-chan dirty!
.Kei-chan.
Onee-chan is there for me that’s why I was able to endure it so far. I endured no matter how hard it is. Viola promised me. As long as I do as he say.He’ll never let anyone put a hand on Onee-chan!
Kei-chan forced himself to smile.
If Onee-chan was raped.I won’t be able to bear it. I was able to endure watching mother and father being killed. If ever Onee-chan was raped.then I’ll kill myself.that’s what I told Viola. Therefore, Viola protected Onee-chan’s purity!
.Kei-chan
You offered your young body to Viola to protect me?
But.I’m no good. We ran away from Viola. It’s Rosalind’s fault but Viola won’t forgive us. If we return right now.Onee-chan will be gang banged by Viola’s followers. There were a lot who aimed at Onee-chan!
I shivered.
Therefore.Kei-chan, embrace Onee-chan! Onee-chan will give her virginity to Kei-chan!
Kei-chan shook his head,
.Onee-chan should go back to Japan with her virginity. Then, fall in true love. You should give your virginity to someone you love from the bottom of your heart
I love you Kei-chan, from the bottom of my heart.it’s true!
I shout at Kei-chan as if clinging to him.
.But! .Kei-chan said.
God won’t allow that.we’re siblings!
.Kei-chan
Even in this horrible situation. He suffered, cried, endured, endured, endured it. And yet.God’s will? Someone like God! Someone like God! Someone like God! No matter how much we prayed, he didn’t help us!
.Let’s pray, Onee-chan
.Kei-chan said.
I.I will pray for Onee-chan. Onee-chan, pray for me!
Kei-chan smiled sadly
.That’s right. We were on a protestant church during kindergarten. Therefore.we were always praying at that age. I stopped doing that after entering elementary school. Kei-chan continues. On all the three meals.before we sleep at night.
Our father in heaven.
Kei-chan recites a prayer.
I.still don’t know the meaning ofMashimasu The player we learned in kindergarten is in Hiragana after all.
Hallowed be your name
Your kingdom come. Your will be done, on earth as it is in heaven
That’s just a mere recital.
We don’t understand what it meant. It’s just a good luck charm recital.
Give us this day our daily bread.
And forgive us our sins, as we also have forgiven our debtors
.Don’t joke with me.
I can’t forgive.won’t forgive.will never forgive.
And do not bring us to the time of trial, but rescue us from the evil one.1
Ah.If this is God’strial
Then God’s the same as the Devil. Just making us suffer.
You have the endless power to flourish the land.amen
.Amen
Kei-chan looks at me.
.Onee-chan It’s okay. I’m sure it’ll be okay
.Kei-chan, I
.I’ll definitely protect Onee-chan
I’m the one who wants to protect you.
But, I’m a woman. Kei-chan has been protecting me all this time. .Even though I’m the elder sister.
Onee-chan, let’s sleep together tonight.let’s hold hands
Kei-chan’s smile.
.It hurts my heart
Un.if that’s what Kei-chan wants
I just want to embrace Kei-chan.
I wanted to dedicate my body and chastity to him .But, the reality. We slept holding hands on the bed. Even though we’re sleeping on the same bed. Our only contact is holding hands. .It was sad. .It was painful But.Kei-chan. Didn’t ask for more than this. Therefore.I can’t ask for anything more. If I forced him then I will hurt Kei-chan’s heart. Kei-chan has been forcibly raped by Viola so far. If I force it.it won’t be different from rape. Therefore. No.that’s not it. I didn’t have the charm as a woman. Viola ignored me as a woman. For Kei-chan.I wasn’t awoman Therefore.I can’t ask for it. .It’s frustrating .Miserable I. I wet the pillow all night. I shouldn’t have been born a woman.
Then.
Kei-chan said in the darkness.
Sorry.Onee-chan
No.Kei-chan doesn’t have anything to apologize for
I lack the charm as a woman.
Therefore
.You see, I
Kei-chan suddenly said.
.I can’t make my penis grow big
.Kei-chan
Since I’ve been violated by Viola all the time.I’m not gay. I endured it by telling myself that I’m not gay.as expected, I still don’t like men. I don’t like being touched by them either
Kei-chan.is telling me something important.
But you see.it’s the same for women I’m scared of women approaching me
.Kei-chan
It’s painful for other people to touch me.I’m not good at it. I’m scared of humans
The reality of our parents being killed and being taken along with the homicidal maniacs.
Kei-chan turned to hate humans! I let go of my hand.
Kei-chan, sorry!
Kei-chan grasped my hand tightly however.
Onee-chan’s an exception.Onee-chan’s the only one I’m not scared of. I love you!
.Kei-chan
But.I can’t do lewd things. With Onee-chan, with other people. My penis won’t ever grow big!
.aa, I
What a sinful woman!
Kei-chan sorry.I’m sorry, Kei-chan!
I kept crying until morning.
1. This is the lord’s prayer copied from Matthew 6:9-13 from the wikipedia page. The actual prayer recited by Kei-chan was in Hiragana, I did some research to know that the start was from the lord’s prayer so I’ve just copied and matched the lines after that, Nei’s lines are accurate however
Chapter 181
Cesario Viola’s hobby his disguise isn’t it?
Kyouko-san speaks in English during breakfast.
She wants Maru-chan to join the talk. Therefore.I answered in English too.
Yes.there’s an exclusive stylist and make up artist that changes Viola’s image to what he imagines everyday
Kyouko-san smiles.
It’s said that his disguises can be seen as a completely different person? Is that true?
.It’s true .But, then how do Viola’s subordinate tell that it’s him?
Maru-chan asks me.
Sensei also looks at us in interest. Kei-chan.just looks down and eats scrambled eggs.
It’s easy. If there’s an unfamiliar face before when everyone gathers before they start their work, that’s Viola!
Kyouko-san said.
That’s sloppy.
Maru-chan said that but.
Actually.Viola’s team is always the same. The teams will change on their targets but the members of each team are always the same
I answered.
Anyway.I should tell Kyouko-san and others what I know. .So Kei-chan and I can survive and go back to Japan together
Before the work.They will gather at the place Viola has decided. Plaza, park.stadium, cinema, dining room. Viola likes crowded places. Then.the members who gathered for that day will look for him who disguised. Viola enjoys playingHide and seek He takes Kei-chan and I for camouflage.