“What did you need, Dad?”
“I said never mind.”
“Come on, I can do it.”
“It’s all useless,” he said. “Look at me. I’ve been possessed.”
He held up the hand again. The trembling had resumed.
“Watch this,” he said.
His wrist suddenly collapsed, then righted itself.
“Keep watching,” he said.
Within a few moments, the wrist collapsed again, then instantly straightened. And before long, it was performing a strange, half-steady dance, plunging suddenly and then righting itself, like a chicken pecking at corn. After a time, he let it fall to the mattress, but even in the sheets it wouldn’t quite stop. Finally, with a grunt, he rolled over and stilled it with his weight. Then he reached behind the pillows and brought out the bottle again.
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MR. KIRPES DROVE us to Dayton. I sat in the front seat of the van with him, while, behind us, four seniors from advanced calculus lounged in their sandals. Mr. Kirpes bantered a little as he drove, mostly about the Bengals, who’d lost both games to the Browns that year. I knew nothing about sports, but you couldn’t live in southwest Ohio without acquiring at least a conversational knowledge of the Reds and the Bengals. Otherwise, the trip was silent. The boy behind me was practicing clarinet by looking at sheet music and playing it with his fingers, blowing through his embouchure and tapping his feet in rhythm, even though he had no clarinet with him. The drive took an hour. I’d made it several times before on our way to the art museum.
We arrived early at the University of Dayton. Mr. Kirpes bought us milkshakes at a drive-through, then dropped us off at the auditorium on the edge of campus. In the hallway outside the exam room, a crowd of kids milled about. I didn’t like being around other math whizzes. They were from all over the state, and they paced in the atrium or slouched on the floor by the entrance, flipping through flashcards and quizzing one another. I was at least five years younger than most of them, but I already knew that flashcards and quizzing would be of no help in what we were about to do. The kids who were studying for this kind of test had no chance.
When the bell rang and the auditorium doors finally opened, everyone pushed inside to get to the front-row desks. There must have been 150 people in there, every single one of them accustomed to being the smartest in the class. I made my way to the rear and took one of the last open chairs.
The test was ridiculously easy.
I’d figured it might be. There were a few questions on probability, a few on algebraic representation, and then a run of simple Euclidean figures. The first questions were truly elementary, and only after the middle section did they become even mildly involved. But whenever I looked up, I saw that plenty of the other kids were puzzled. The first part had been designed to encourage everyone, I realized, but this also had the effect of startling the weaker ones when the material picked up a notch. The last half-dozen problems at last grew tricky. By this point, several kids were looking off into the distance, only pretending to be thinking. One of them near me was in a jacket and tie, and he was putting on a show of loosening the tie so that he could see my answer sheet. On the second-to-last page, I figured out all four problems, then darkened all four answer boxes in one pass. Out of the corner of my eye, I saw him drop his head into his hands.
The thing was, I knew that there was a group of us in that room who were having a good time.
What I myself was enjoying most were the questions on number theory. In those days, I had particular affection for number theory because it seemed to have no practical application. Only a few cryptographers, a few pure mathematicians, and perhaps a few species of thirteen- and seventeen-year cicadas cared about things like prime numbers. And now I could add to this list the five or six other kids that I could sense around me in that auditorium radiating pleasure as we moved through the questions. There was a group of us, even in southern Ohio, who were in love with mathematics.
The last page contained a single problem:
Professor Gamble buys a lottery ticket, which requires that he pick six different integers from 1 through 46, inclusive. He chooses his numbers so that the sum of the base-ten logarithms of his six numbers is an integer. It so happens that the integers on the winning ticket have the same property — the sum of the base-ten logarithms is an integer. What is the probability that Professor Gamble holds the winning ticket?
(A) 1⁄5 (B) 1⁄4 (C) 1⁄3 (D)1⁄2 (E) 1
I thought about it. If the sum of the logs of the professor’s numbers was an integer, then their product had to be an integer power of 10; since the prime factors of 10 were 2 and 5, then the six lottery numbers also had to have only 2 and 5 as prime factors. This left only 1, 2, 4, 5, 8, 10, 16, 20, 25, 32, and 40. Since the product of the smallest six of these numbers was greater than 103, and since there were only six factors of 5 on the list, the product of the winning numbers had to be either 104, 105, or 106. The rest was simple. There were only four possible combinations that would produce one of these exact products. Professor Gamble had a 1 in 4 chance of winning. The answer was B.
Forty-five minutes remained, and I’d finished. When I looked up, I could see that every other kid in the room was still working, even the ones who loved math. The boy next to me in the tie was five pages back. I set down my pencil and lifted my arm. In front of me I held it out straight. Slowly, as I tensed it there, it grew heavy. Eventually, it began to shake. By concentrating, I turned the shaking into a tremor. Around the room, a few heads came up. When enough people were looking, I willed the tremor to increase, and somehow it did. For a minute or two, my hand shook as though an electric current were flowing into it. Abruptly, I stopped it. I lowered my hand, picked up my pencil, and darkened the oval next to the letter B. Then I stood, sauntered to the front of the room, and turned in my test.
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THE FOLLOWING AFTERNOON, I left school at lunchtime and walked by myself down to the Greenway Shopping Center, where I leaned against the telephone booth in front of Buckeye Spirits. Hardly a minute had passed before a rusted old Datsun pulled up at a slant and a coughing middle-aged woman struggled out from the driver’s door with a cigarette in her mouth. She left the engine running and moved toward the entrance in the kind of forward-leaning gait that I recognized. It was 12:35 in the afternoon.
I pulled my baseball cap down over my eyes. “I’ll pay for yours, ma’am,” I said, “if you’ll buy me mine.”
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THAT EVENING IN his room, Dad was skittish again. His eyes went from the curtains to the ceiling, from the ceiling to me, from me to the door. “How’d it go?” he said.
“How’d what go?”
His fingers worked the sheets. “The test, Hans. How was the state test? Mom told me you went to Dayton.”
“Oh, yeah. Fine. Some of the kids had flashcards.”
He smiled. “Flashcards?”
“Yeah.”
We both laughed.
My gift for him was still back in the closet of my room, hidden in a grocery bag behind a pile of shoes. I’d decided to present it to him in the morning, when his mood would be better. He always became agitated after dusk, but every morning he emerged from bed fresh and strangely buoyant. Now as I stood before him, he grew quiet. After a time, a cloud crossed his features. He looked, for some reason, terribly sad.