“He summoned it. And when he did, it changed shape, becoming a diamond that looked like, well…a star.”
“How did he summon it?” Attes asked, coming to our side.
“He spoke in Primal, I think.” I wiped my damp palms on my gown. “Do you think The Star could hold Sotoria’s soul?”
Attes rubbed his jaw as he eyed the cluster of diamonds. “I don’t see why not when it can hold embers.”
“I feel as if I’m missing vital information,” Ash remarked.
“You are.” Quickly as possible, I filled him in on the part about Sotoria’s soul. “Kolis said something like…like vene ta meyaah but not.”
Ash repeated what I said back, his brows furrowing. “Do you mean vena ta mayah? It translates into come to me.”
“Yes!” The translation made sense. “Do you think it will work if someone else says it?”
“It’s like some kind of ward,” Ash said, his gaze dropping to the bed. His chest rose. “If so, neither Attes nor I will be able to summon it.” He met my gaze. “But you could.”
“Because of the embers,” I surmised.
He nodded. “But I don’t want you to do that.”
Attes stiffened. “We need to get Sotoria’s soul out of Sera before anything else happens.”
“You may need that,” Ash corrected, eyes flashing a vivid silver. “But what I need, what Seraphena needs, is to not use those embers.”
My stomach twisted at what Ash wasn’t saying. That using the embers would push me over the edge, completing my Ascension.
“You don’t understand,” Attes argued. “We may not be able to kill Kolis yet, but one day, we might, and only Sotoria will be able to do it.”
“I don’t give two shits about one day,” growled Ash. “I care about right now, and what using those embers will do.”
“It’s not just that.” Eather laced Attes’s eyes. “Sotoria’s soul will be trapped here when—”
“Don’t”—a storm of fury blew off Ash—“even think of finishing that sentence.”
Attes stepped back, thrusting a hand through his hair. “I’m sorry—”
“Don’t finish that sentence either.” Shadows bled beneath Ash’s flesh.
Neither sentence needed to be finished. We all knew what wasn’t being said. Sotoria’s soul would be trapped here if I Ascended, which wouldn’t happen. Or if I died, which was happening. That was the strangeness I felt in my body, the hollowness in my chest. Because the embers were no longer there.
They were everywhere now, becoming a soft hum in my blood and a faint vibration in my bones.
Whatever the ceeren had sacrificed for me had either run its course, or what I’d done to put Kolis out of commission and free Ash had used it all up. Attes knew I was dying. That was what he was apologizing for. And Ash…
Ash knew, too.
But Sotoria wasn’t the only reason I needed that diamond. Taking a deep breath, I stepped into the cage.
“Sera,” Ash snapped, suddenly beside me. “I don’t want you in this cage ever again.” Eather streaked his cheeks as he clasped mine. “Not for one second.”
Gods, I loved him.
“You need to conserve your energy,” he said, tension gathering in his body. “And we need to leave. Now.”
Sensing that he was about to pick me up and shadowstep to the gods only knew where, I wished there was another way to share what I’d discovered with him. “It’s not just about Sotoria.” I spoke past the emotion clogging my throat. “It’s about your father. His soul is in The Star.”
CHAPTER THIRTY-THREE
Ash stared down at me, his lips parting. “What?” he rasped.
“Are you sure?” Attes demanded, his voice nearly as rough as Ash’s.
I nodded. “I’m positive. When I touched it earlier, I…I knew his soul was in there.”
Ash’s entire body jerked. He stepped back, almost as if out of reflex.
I didn’t take my eyes off Ash’s. His were so bright I could barely see his pupils. “I need to get The Star for him, too.”
His throat worked on a swallow as his gaze flickered to the ceiling. “My father…” He shook his head as his gaze returned to mine. Tension bracketed his mouth, and his voice lowered as he said, “I don’t want you using the embers.”
“Ash—”
“Not for him. Not even for me. I will not have you risking your health and—” His voice…gods, it cracked. And so did my heart. Eather whipped through his irises. “I will not risk you.”
Shock rippled through me. “It’s your father’s soul, Ash.”
“I know. Fates, I know.” A tremor ran through him. “But I will not risk you.”
My chest swelled even as that fissure in my heart widened. Because how could Ash not be capable of love? His desire, his need to keep me safe, felt like something one would do when they loved another.
It was what I would do for him.
Which was why I had to do this.
“I’m okay.” Like the Great Conspirator, I was a good liar when I needed to be.
“Sera—”
“I’m okay,” I repeated. “I feel like I did before. I can do this.” I stretched up, guided his head down to mine, then kissed him softly. “I’m going to do this.”
Kissing him once more, I settled on my feet and then turned. Luckily, I didn’t stumble or sway. I lifted my hand as Kolis had done, concentrating on the embers. “Vena ta mayah.”
The essence thrummed weakly throughout my entire body, but it was enough. My temples throbbed, and the cluster of diamonds vibrated, making that high-pitched whirring sound.
Ash cursed from behind me. “Will you ever listen to me?”
“I’m sorry.” My heart skipped, and not in a pleasant way. It caused my breath to hitch. A faint tremor ran through me as I breathed through a rush of dizziness.
“No, you’re not.” Ash came up behind me, circling an arm around my waist.
There was a grounding, soothing quality to the feeling of him touching me that I’d missed so terribly. And it…it wasn’t fair that I experienced it again only now.
The glittering cluster morphed as it neared my palm, forming one diamond shaped like a star.
“I’ve got it,” I said, just in case either he or Attes thought to reach for it.
I didn’t know if they would see what I did, but I didn’t want anyone else witnessing it. Especially not Ash—not without any warning.
The diamond landed in my hand, sending a charge of energy up my arm. There were no sudden flashes of images this time, but that milky light—the soul—pulsed.
“That’s it?” Ash peered over me, clearing his throat. “The light? I can’t feel or sense anything.”
“I think so.” I knew we didn’t have much time, but there were some things I needed to know. “How…how do you think we can put Sotoria’s soul in this?”
“I can’t answer that,” Attes said.