A hush fell over them.
Then someone brought out, "Don't give us another lie."
Nan replied calmly, "The first principle of fascism is to exalt country and race above the individual. If you don't believe me, look it up in Merriam-Webster's Collegiate Dictionary, the tenth edition. If we don't stop this nonsense of China 's pride, we may end up ruining our own lives here."
"You never cease to amaze me." Mei Hong stood up. "A madman is what you are. Let me tell you, you're also a banana!" She jabbed her finger at Nan. "You always despise China and our language. That's why you've been writing in English and dreaming of becoming another Conrad or Nabokov. Let me tell you, you're just making a buffoon of yourself! Get real-stop fancying yourself a great poet!"
Flustered, Nan felt his throat congesting. But he scrambled to answer, "To write in English is my personal choice. Unlike you, I prefer to be a real individual."
"Yeah, to be a lone wolf," scoffed Mei Hong.
"Exactly!"
That somehow gagged her, and some people giggled. Nan said to the audience, "All I'm saying is that we ought to be decent human beings first, to be fair and upright to others and to ourselves."
The moderator rapped the table with her pen, but nobody took heed of her. "Stop bickering!" she begged, yet more people were jabbering now. The room was in a tumult. Many of the audience stood up, watching or whooping. The three panelists rose too, gathering their materials and about to leave. The scraping of chairs and shuffling of feet filled the room.
A few pairs of eyes were glowering at Nan, who pretended not to notice them. If only he had listened to Pingping and stayed at the restaurant. He shouldn't have come to this pandemonium to seek unhappiness. There was no way to reason with some people in this crowd, to which he felt he no longer belonged. Their ilk had the herd mentality that assumed the fulfillment of one's selfhood depended on the rise and growth of a tribe. Nan wondered whether he should go up to the old historian on the panel and talk with him for a while, but he decided not to. He preferred to stand alone.
22
WHILE Nan was at the meeting, Pingping and Niyan were diligently preparing for the evening. It was Saturday, so they'd be busy after three o'clock. Nan had promised to come back before three-thirty. Pingping took out of the freezer the beef and chicken Nan had cut the previous night and let them thaw. She planned to wrap some egg rolls after putting a new ribbon of paper into the cash register. She hadn't fully recovered from the abortion yet, and though most of her diabetic symptoms were gone, a numbing pain still tightened her lower back from time to time. In the dining room Niyan was chasing a fly with a long plastic swatter. She had been placing silverware and paper napkins on the tables.
As they were working, a shaggy man in a maroon windbreaker came in with a half-empty bottle under his arm. He lurched directly to the counter, plunked beside the cash register the stout amber bottle printed with "Wild Turkey," pulled out a snub-nosed revolver, and hissed at Pingping, "Give me all the dough you have here."
For a moment she was too transfixed to respond. The man said again, "Empty your drawer and give me all the cash!" His reddish beard, so thick that his mouth was invisible, quivered as he spoke, blowing hot, alcoholic fumes on Pingping's face.
Silently she unlocked the register and took out the tray that contained about a dozen singles, four fives, two tens, and some coins. Inside the machine, under the tray, was a sheaf of twenties, more than two hundred dollars, which she always kept in there for emergency use, but she didn't touch it. With trembling hands she placed the tray before the man and said, "We haven't star' yet." Through the corner of her vision she saw Niyan scurrying out the front door. The thought that she was left alone to face the robber petrified her, and she broke into sniffling sobs.
Her crying seemed to startle the man, who grabbed the money and thrust all banknotes into the pocket of his windbreaker but left the coins untouched. "What lousy luck!" he grumbled, his boozy eyes flickering.
"Please go away!" begged Pingping.
"Nope. I'm hungry and want some food."
"We not open yet."
"Don't tell me that!"
"I don't know how to cook."
"Sure you do. I've been here before and saw you cookin' in there." "What do you want?"
"Let's see." He flipped open a menu on the counter. "Mongolian Beef, this one, spicy."
"My husband is chef. Me can't make Mongolian Beef." She was really unsure how to cook his order, because the dish wasn't supposed to be spicy.
"Don't lie to me. I'm not a fool. Let me have some spicy Mongolian
Beef."
"I don't know how to cook that."
"D'you want me to come in and help you?" He slitted his eyes, leering at her.
"Okay, okay, I will see what I can do." She retreated into the kitchen.
As she was about to make for the back door, a piercing siren shrilled, rising louder and louder. The man was frightened. He spun around and rushed away to the front door. Before he could get out, three policemen came in and pointed their pistols at him. "Hold it there!" one of them ordered.
With a groan the man slumped to the floor. He wailed hoarsely, "I'm sorry! I'm really down and out. I need money to buy a birthday gift for my kid."
The police fell on him, pressed him on the floor, and handcuffed him. Then they pulled him up. Niyan came in and spat at the man's face, saying, "Shame on you! The bank is right across the street. Why don't you go there? We're poor too." She raised her hand and pulled off his marled hat, woven of black and orange wool and still bearing a Wal-Mart tag marked with the price-$3.75.
"Hey, hey, don't touch him!" said the short policeman with a beer belly, flipping the cylinder of the small revolver to remove the bullets. His colleagues were inspecting the crime scene, one in the kitchen.
"Can't make it anymore," the man mumbled to Niyan.
"Stop lying!" she snapped. "You still have money for a new hat."
"It's a gift from my girlfriend," he grunted.
Niyan turned to Pingping. "Good heavens, hear this? He keeps a woman while he's totally broke." She thrust the hat into his left pocket.
Pingping said to him, "You should feel shame yourself."
"I'm sorry, ma'am," the man muttered, and hung his head, showing a whitish spot on his crown.
Pingping inserted his half bottle of whiskey under his arm. "Take your stuff." She then pulled all the cash out of his right pocket while explaining to the officers, "He grab all money from our machine."
"All right, let's go." The short policeman slapped the criminal on the back, then steered him toward the door.
An older officer began asking Pingping and Niyan questions. The waitress boasted that she could have grabbed the gun left by the man on the counter and shot him, but she phoned the police instead. "He's stupid, you know," she said, one palm on her hip.
"Never take the law into your own hands. You did the right thing," said the stalwart officer in a nasal voice, writing on a clipboard.
Pingping thanked him again and again for coming to their rescue.
When Nan came back, his wife, still beside herself, shouted at him, "I thought you had forgotten this place. Why are you here?"
He was taken aback by her tear-stained face and didn't respond. She was trembling a little as she spoke. After hearing about what had happened, he apologized and promised he wouldn't go to any of those meetings again.
Pingping went on, "If Niyan hadn't called the police, that robber would have rushed into the kitchen and killed me in there. I was so scared! My legs still can't stop shaking."
Niyan tittered. Nan threw an arm around his wife and told her, "We're poor too. I never thought someone would rob us. Don't cry, Pingping. I won't leave this place to you alone again. That man must have been really destitute."