“But… didn’t you ever wonder if somebody from the Ark might come here?”
“I wondered, yes.” I don’t add that I was afraid someone from the Ark might come here, that I preferred my profound loneliness to their company.
But perhaps age had mellowed me by the time these survivors of the Ark arrived. And things had changed there. These people had endured grief and despair that had forcibly opened their minds to some degree. At least, most of them.
Stephen asks, “Weren’t you surprised to see us down on the beach that day?”
I have to laugh at that. “Surprised? That’s putting it mildly. Do you remember that?”
“No, not really. Except I think I remember seeing all the cats and dogs in the house. I liked that.”
“They certainly weren’t allowed in the households at the Ark.” I open the diary, turn a few pages. “Well, you arrived on the second of February. That was about two months short of the twentieth anniversary of Luke’s arrival at Amarna. I remember it was around noon, and I was in the house, when I heard the dogs barking. I came out to the deck and saw all those animals and people on the beach. And I hadn’t seen another human being for nineteen years. Yes, Stephen, I was a bit surprised.”
He laughs. “I wish I’d been old enough then to remember.”
“It must’ve been quite a journey. Jerry told me it took you eight days to travel from the Ark to Amarna. I can understand that, with the animals to herd along. There were goats, sheep, hogs, cows, a couple of bulls, a small flock of chickens in a wooden cage, and five horses carrying loaded packs. Enid even brought her loom, dismantled into a Chinese puzzle. Anyway, I got out my binoculars, and I knew you were from the Ark by your clothing. I even recognized Bernadette and Enid, in spite of the changes inevitable in nineteen years.”
And in a way, I recognized Miriam. It was her red hair, so exactly the color of Luke’s. And I recognized—no, I simply saw something else: her imperious posture, her forceful manner with the other women and the children. But I had no premonitions about her. I wonder if it would have changed anything if I had. Probably not. Because of the children.
It was the children—Stephen, three years old; Jonathan, four years old; and Isaac, only a baby—who made me decide even at that point that I would have to take these people in at Amarna.
“Mary?”
Stephen is looking at me inquiringly, and I’m sure he’s been talking to me, and I haven’t heard him. “Yes, Stephen?”
“I was saying Jeremiah told us that you knew who he was before he said a word.”
No doubt Jerry considered that amazing and probably a sign of maternal recognition. “It was only an informed guess, Stephen. I knew he came from the Ark, and when he reached the top of the path, I thought I was hallucinating. It might as well have been Luke coming toward me, except for the color of his hair. He had to be Luke’s son, and his age made it likely that he was the boy I’d last seen at the Ark. Of course, Luke might’ve had other sons only a few years younger, and this might’ve been one of them. But I guessed Jeremiah, and I was right.”
Stephen laughs, then: “Why did you decide to let us stay here?”
“Well, one reason was Jeremiah’s responses to my questions.”
“What did you ask him?”
“I asked if he thought the nuclear holocaust was the Armageddon Saint John imagined, and if the second coming of Jesus was at hand.”
Stephen’s lips part. He pauses before he asks, “What did he say?”
“He said that Luke had preached that the true Armageddon hadn’t yet occurred, and that Jesus wouldn’t take so long to find the righteous if he had in fact come again to Earth.”
Stephen nods almost imperceptibly, then, “What else did you ask?”
“I asked if he believed the universe was created in seven ordinary days.”
“How did he answer that?”
“He said, ‘I don’t know.’ Profound words, Stephen. When you can say ‘I don’t know,’ you’ve freed yourself to find the answer.”
“That’s why you decided to let us stay here?”
“Yes. And you—the children. I struck a bargain with Jeremiah then. His band of refugees could make their home at Amarna, if I would be allowed to teach their children.”
Stephen doesn’t respond to that, and perhaps he’s thinking about the present dissension in this family that seems to be the ultimate result of that bargain. And I’m aware, as I wasn’t when the bargain was struck—and my failure to recognize it was hubris—that it wasn’t so much a bargain as a concession on Jerry’s part. I couldn’t have stopped him and his entourage from living here, although if I hadn’t wanted them, they’d have had to take Amarna over my dead body. I doubt that was considered an option. Not then.
Stephen says, “There was a letter, wasn’t there? From Brother Luke?” And when I frown absently at him, he adds: “Jeremiah told me about it. I asked him if I could read Brother Luke’s journal—”
“Oh, yes. Is he going to let you read it?”
“Well, he said I could, but that was before…” His shoulders rise in an uneasy shrug. “Anyway, while we were talking about that, Jeremiah said you had something else Brother Luke had written. He said he carried a letter from the Ark and gave it to you that first day.”
“So he did.” I’m a little surprised that Jerry mentioned the letter. At the time he gave it to me, he didn’t ask to read it, nor has he spoken of it in all these years. Perhaps it is in his mind sacrosanct. And I’ve never offered to let him read it. It was a very private communication, and I wasn’t sure Luke would want anyone else to see it.
But perhaps the time has come for Luke’s last words to be heard.
Time for his son to hear them.
“I’ll read the letter, Stephen, but not today. I want Jeremiah to hear it, too. Tomorrow. I’ll talk to him about it later.”
“And will that be the end of the Chronicle?”
“Yes. I suppose it will be a fitting epilogue.” I study him, trying to read behind his dark eyes. “What do you think of the story, Stephen?”
He clasps his long hands in his lap, staring at them, then looks up at me. “I’m glad you told me the story. I don’t know if I understand everything about it yet, but… maybe I will. Someday.”
That’s all I asked and hoped for. Then I lean forward, push myself to my feet. “We’ve both had lessons enough for today. Let’s go down to the beach. I need a little time with the sea.”
And do I need the protection of his company?
Damn her. She’s closed me in an invisible cage, and I despise it.
Just before supper I go out to the breezeway to get wood to fill the wood boxes in the house. The wind funnels through the narrow space, carrying the smell of rain. I balance my load—only five small pieces; I can’t carry more at a time—on one arm, but pause when I hear voices. Jonathan and Stephen are running toward the backdoor. They’ve been helping Jerry cut trees again; both of them are carrying axes.
“I think we should blow up the big stump,” Jonathan says.
Stephen scoffs. “Sure. What’re you going to blow it up with?”
“Dynamite. There’s still some left. I remember when Jeremiah blew out the pond in the north pasture. Bet you don’t remember. You were too little.”
I don’t hear Stephen’s response. They pile into the house, slamming the door behind them, and the wood falls from my suddenly lifeless arm and thuds on the concrete.
Dynamite.
The image springs whole out of memory: a fountain of black earth, a billowing cloud of dust. And what an incredible thing the human mind is. The mind leaps chasms, plunges into nothingness, and comes up with a trapeze.