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“Says who,” Slava said.

“Down the hallway,” he said. “They said you were coming.”

Slava cursed the Dolins under his breath. When it came to their own secrets, a crowbar wouldn’t do it, but in other situations, they were guileless as schoolchildren.

“What is this, a bribe?” Slava said. “You don’t have proof.” He tried to manufacture a sneer but didn’t believe himself. One didn’t need proof to at least call the Claims Conference.

“A bribe?” the boy said, worried. “What for?”

“It doesn’t matter,” Slava said quickly.

The boy looked around and reached into the back pocket of his jeans. Slava stiffened, which only increased the boy’s nervousness. He strode toward Slava and thrust a stapled printout, folded in half, into his free hand.

Oleg Smeshko, the title page said. Slava flipped through the rest — twenty pages or so. The font was large and baroque. Slava saw a sentence he did not like: “His brain thought it would explode.” Then something with more promise: “The smoke curled from his cigarette like silver panty hose.”

“Can you read it?” Oleg said, studying the pavement.

“You wrote this?” Slava said.

Oleg nodded.

“Why didn’t you just knock on the door when I was there?” Slava said.

“They would tell my parents,” Oleg said. He rubbed a sleeve under his nose.

Slava looked again at the story. The bags in his other hand were a stone, though they produced a not unpleasant scent: rolls, chicken, pickles. It would all go in the trash. “You’re not hungry, are you?” Slava said.

“Hungry?” Oleg said, blinking. “I can eat at home.”

“Let’s sit down,” Slava said.

Oleg looked around. “Where?”

“On the curb.” Slava pointed. “Are they going to wonder where you are?”

“No, they think I went to my friend’s.”

“Have you called the friend and told him to cover for you?”

Oleg frowned and shook his head.

“Here,” Slava extended his cell phone.

While Oleg dialed, Slava sat down on the edge of the pavement and looked at the story. “Expensive Trips Nowhere” was the title; that could stay. Slava wrenched a scallion roll from one of his bags, a pickle from a plastic container, then a shred of chicken, stuffed it all together, and handed it to Oleg when he got off the phone.

“You’re not eating?” Oleg said.

“Not for several days,” Slava said. “They kill your body with this food. I was five pounds less before I started — you know.”

“Is it hard?” Oleg said, biting cautiously.

Slava looked over at him. “The letters? It’s hard to figure out what to write. But the writing makes up for it.”

“Do you get paid?” Oleg said, chewing.

“Paid?” Slava said. “No.”

“Then why do you do it?”

Slava laughed and said nothing. They sat watching the street, the occasional car blazing by, leaving the echo of Russian songs in the air. Two elderly men in house slippers shuffled past, arm in arm, evening walk. “They’ll freeze off their balls sitting on the pavement like that,” one said to the other as they passed.

“What’s the story about?” Slava said. He pointed at the bags. Oleg nodded, and Slava started making another roll.

“It’s this chip that goes in your head,” Oleg said. His large black eyes became larger. “It’s a trip you can take wherever you want. Another country, another planet. In your mind, I mean — it’s like you’re really there, and when you get back, you have the memory of being there. Without your body ever going there, you understand?” Slava nodded. “Do you understand?” Oleg repeated.

“I understand, I understand,” Slava said.

“But this guy gets stuck,” Oleg went on. “And it’s about him trying to get back to earth.”

“Like Odysseus,” Slava observed. This drew no recognition from Oleg. “And what happens? He gets home?”

Oleg gave Slava a wolfish grin, bit into his new roll, and said, “You have to read it!”

Slava nodded admiringly. He liked sitting there — the day had lost some of its heat; he was not expected anywhere; he was briefly invisible.

Oleg stopped chewing. “Can I read one?” he said. “A letter.”

Slava looked over. “Sure. You just have to keep it between us.”

“I promise,” Oleg said, his eyes full of seriousness, then stuck out his hand, and Slava took it. The skin was moist, a newborn’s.

“If you get good grades,” Slava said, “your parents won’t bother you about your stories.”

Oleg nodded gloomily.

“You’ll go to college, won’t you?” Slava said.

“I’m just going to Brooklyn College.”

“Go farther.”

“With what money?”

Slava tossed into the roadway a fleck of pavement he had been working loose with his nail. “Write a letter,” he said. “That’ll be enough for a semester somewhere. You can figure out the rest.”

“My grandparents don’t qualify,” Oleg said. “We’re not even Jews.”

The Dolins had conveniently neglected to share that they were having theirs made up, at least that.

“In this letter, you can be whatever you want,” Slava said cautiously.

Oleg, his face darkened with doubt, nodded. If Slava said to stop eating, return home immediately, and confess to his parents that the practical person they were grooming was cuckolding their plans, Oleg would have done it. So this was what it was like to have a younger brother.

Slava brought the papers to Oleg’s eyes. “You see this?” he said. “‘Curled from his cigarette like silver panty hose’? Change ‘panty hose’ to ‘stocking.’ Isn’t that better?”

Oleg nodded.

“You don’t have to agree because I said so,” Slava said. “Is it better?”

Oleg nodded again. “Why?”

“I don’t know,” Slava said. “It just is. Better yet: ‘A stocking of smoke curled from his cigarette.’ Okay, finish this sentence: ‘The heat hangs in the air like a—.’”

“Like a stocking,” Oleg said obediently.

“No, no, something new. Cigarette smoke curls like a stocking; heat doesn’t look like a stocking. It doesn’t look like anything. It’s invisible, but it won’t go away.”

“The heat hangs in the air like a bad thought,” Oleg said.

Slava clapped him on the back. “You see?”

The boy smiled diffidently.

During this period, Slava continued to finish his nights at 322 West Ninetieth Street. Arianna didn’t volunteer to spend the night at his apartment, and though he occasionally reminded her of the unfairness of this arrangement, in truth he had come to prefer her apartment, only that his refrigerator was full, as Slava had to economize on lunch, and hers was congenitally empty. She ate only takeout, Slava parting with more cash in a night together than on his own in a week, though he didn’t bring this up to Arianna, and she never seemed to think of it.

The rest of her apartment, however, was filled with irrefutable evidence of human habitation. None of it was plain — even the wooden lattice that the original builders had installed to give the studio the sense of a one-bedroom; Arianna had painted it white and carved the tops into the crown of a skyline. Then she dotted the panes with black marker all the way down to the floor — windows. “This is what I do when I veg,” she explained. “I like to think about what’s going on in the windows. What’s going on in this window?” Her nail tapped a black dot. “They’re arguing,” she answered herself.

She loved the city. It made her quiet — her words — an inconceivable idea to Slava because it was so incredibly noisy, though it was this comment by her that made him notice, returning late from Brooklyn one Sunday night, the stone prairie into which the Upper West Side turned at that hour, the bright vitrines gleaming madly for no one. New York gets weary, and New York does sleep. She returned to Brentwood twice a year: Passover and Rosh Hashanah. She couldn’t bear it any more frequently — its empty streets made her too lonely, refilled her with the uncomfortable noise of her childhood and youth. Even though she had lived in New York for seven years and knew the parts of it that she wanted to know — she rarely left Manhattan — she continued the introductory walks she had taken as a new arrival.