“Guess I am.” He sure hadn’t felt lucky when she died, but he was grateful for the years they had shared. Telling Avery about Juliette had been a calculated risk, but the payoff could be worth it if she were willing to take that plunge with him. He dipped his head to force her to look at him. “For a long time I felt hopeless, like I’d never recapture that magic with anyone else. Lately, though, I’ve been more optimistic.”
She didn’t blink. Her lips parted slightly, her chest rose and fell with each breath. Time slowed. Kiss her. But this time he wanted to do it right. His heart thumped hard as his hand reached across the bench toward her and he slowly leaned in, but then she flushed and shifted away.
“Thank you for sharing Juliette’s memory with me. Obviously she must’ve been quite special to have won your heart so completely.” Avery’s forehead wrinkled as she looked away. “What woman could compete with that history?”
Someone completely different from Juliette but equally compelling, just like you.
“Avery—” he began, sensing from her quick rise off the bench that his past was scaring her away instead of pulling her close.
“I’m sorry,” she stammered. “I’ve got to run, Grey.” She jumped up and started walking backward. “Call me if you have any questions about those exercises.”
And then she was gone.
Chapter Thirteen
“What’s got you whistling?” Avery tossed her keys on the counter and grabbed an iced tea from the refrigerator, wishing for ten minutes of privacy—like, ever. Just ten minutes alone to think about why she abandoned Grey on that bench.
“Started working at Emma’s today. Feels good to have something else to think about besides the lawsuits.” Andy joined her in the kitchen and dug his hand into the M&M’S jar on the counter. “And Emma’s such a softie. Nicest boss I’ve ever had.”
Avery poked his chest, latching onto a welcome distraction. “Don’t you dare take advantage of her.”
He slapped her hand away, looking appalled. “I’d never do that. I can’t believe you’d even say something like that.”
“Sorry.” Avery stroked his arm. “I was half teasing.”
Andy nodded and tossed back his fistful of chocolates. The whispers and gossip had taken a toll on her already-sensitive brother’s self-esteem. Maybe now that he had a purpose and some ability to contribute to household expenses again, he’d start feeling better.
“What do you want to do for dinner? Eat in, order takeout?” She scanned the refrigerator again, looking for something resembling food. Milk, OJ, iced tea, blueberries, lettuce, eggs, and a big hunk of Manchego cheese. Not a lot of options.
“Chinese takeout? I’ll share some sesame chicken and spring rolls,” he said after scooping a second handful of candy and closing the lid. “By the way, brace yourself. Mom and Dad are coming to visit again soon.”
“Oh.” Avery sighed at the thought of spending more time under the same roof with her dad. “When?”
“Not sure. I think Mom’s trying to squeeze in a ‘nice’ trip before the criminal trial.”
Criminal trial. The words still sliced through her heart like a Chinese star. She shouldn’t be wasting her time whining about her future happiness when Andy’s was in jeopardy.
Avery hugged her brother, fiercely proud of him for having the courage to take responsibility, to get a job, and to joke with her when he must be terrified. “I still think your lawyers will work out some kind of last-minute plea bargain.”
“We’ll see.” He patted her back and then eased away. “I’m going to shower. Got a little sweaty from moving furniture and sanding crown moldings. Whoever painted the place last time just layered paint over old caked stuff. Awful job. Can’t believe she paid for such crappy work.” He shook his head as he meandered toward his room.
Avery sank into the sofa and ordered their dinner, then turned on the television. Anything to keep from thinking about her family’s troubles or Grey’s tragic love story.
A loss like that—and the way it happened—well, no wonder he’s always touching that tattoo. Although she’d been curious to learn more, she’d been too overwhelmed and afraid to pry. Juliette. Such a pretty name. Was the girl as pretty? Grey hadn’t mentioned anything about her appearance other than noting she’d been cute when they’d first met.
Would he really have gotten married so young, to the only girl he’d ever dated? It seemed incredible, but she’d known of other people marrying their childhood sweethearts. Especially in small towns like Sterling Canyon and Truckee.
Grey’s eyes had taken on a dreamy quality when he’d talked about Juliette.
Kind and gentle and everything good.
Avery considered herself a decent person, but doubted anyone would ever use such words to describe her. For better or worse, she took more after her dad with his can-do approach, controlled emotions, and lack of romanticism. God, that unwelcome realization stung.
She closed her eyes, trying to envision a thirteen-year-old version of Grey—scrawny and bullied because of a learning disability—and the sweet girl whose compassion had captured his heart. Talk about a romantic. Grey might rival Kelsey in that department.
Any woman who got involved with him now would be competing against a ghost—a saintly ghost, if Grey’s tone of voice conveyed how he thought of Juliette.
Although he wasn’t a cad like so many other skiers she knew, he remained equally unattainable. No way could she live up to his expectations of love. That kind of love only comes around once in a lifetime.
For her, maybe never.
Until today, that admission had never, ever caused an aching longing.
Andy reappeared and flicked the top of her head as he passed behind the sofa. “Dinner here yet?”
“No.”
She watched him set up plates and flatware at the island. Domestic, like their mom. Somehow that gene had passed her by, too. In fact, most of her mother’s genes, including her soft heart, went to Andy.
“Hey, I heard Jonah got fired today.” Andy’s expression turned grim as he folded napkins. “Add him to the list of people whose lives I’ve wrecked.”
Whether her hopelessness about Grey or her dawning recognition of similarities with her dad had worked her into a tizzy, she couldn’t say. But it didn’t matter, because Andy’s remark tipped her over the edge. Fueled the need to regain control of her life, and the lives of those she loved.
“Stop it.” Avery stood and approached the kitchen. “Jonah ignored the fact that you were all getting bombed. He lost his job because of what he did. You have more reason to be angry with him than the other way around. If he had done his job properly, maybe you wouldn’t have gotten in that accident. He could have called you a cab. Not to mention what could’ve happened to all the other really intoxicated people he let walk out the door that night.”
Andy shrugged. “Maybe. Guess we’ll never know. Bottom line, I was drunk and I tried to drive. I hurt someone, too. That’s all on me.”
“And you’re taking responsibility. Your license is suspended. You’re facing criminal prosecution. You don’t need to add feeling guilty about Jonah to the list, okay?” As usual, feistiness resuscitated her previously flagging mood.
“Okay, boss.” He grinned while filling two water glasses and setting them at the table. “So, what’s going on with you and Matt? You must be feeling grateful toward him, because Grey’s suit against the OS could mean we won’t lose this house.”