He retreated across the street, frustrated but also nervous that someone might be watching him. If anyone had successfully followed him, they would be very interested in Rick's behavior. Three more minutes, he told himself. He noticed that the window on 5A or 5B was all the way open and a towel rested on the ledge, something pink peeking over the side. Drying in the sun. Pink, maybe underwear. That could be Christina. She wouldn't be wasting her tip cash on dryers in a Laundromat if she could help it. But this was a front apartment, which did not conform to his speculations.
He crossed the street again and checked the name tag on 5A. It read M. Williams. 5B was marked H. Ramirez. He backed up onto the street. Now the underwear window opened. A woman's left foot stretched out, waggled in the air. Drying the nail polish. Christina? The foot disappeared. If he knew her, then the other foot would soon-there it was! Yes! Waggling, toes pointed! Her lovely little foot, size eight; he'd spent at least three thousand bucks on shoes for her over the years. She was in there doing her nails. Was that apartment 5A or 5B? He pushed 5B. No answer. He pushed again. Nothing. He darted out of the vestibule and looked up. The feet were still there. He returned to the vestibule and rang 5A. He jumped out of the vestibule and looked up. The feet were gone from the window.
"Yes?" came her irritated voice from the intercom.
Rick looked at the mailbox. "Mr. Ramirez?"
"That's 5B," Christina said.
"Okay."
"Try reading," she added.
Try not to be your old bitchy self, Rick thought triumphantly, even though I love it. But now he was stuck in the vestibule. If she looked out the window, she'd see him. He eased out the front door. The feet were back, both paddling the air softly. Let's go, Rick, you got what you needed. He slipped down the street a block, two, the sweat seeping through his shirt, then slowed. His plan was working. He had money, he'd pulled himself together, he'd found her. Now he wanted to think about the approach. You had to consider what kind of life she had now. Building her existence back up. He was standing there, with his hand in his pocket, playing with his dick. Stop thinking about the sex, Rick. What would Paul do? Paulie would say, If you have to approach her, if you really must do it, then do it with a clear head. Don't be thinking about sex or love or forgiveness. She'll see that right away. She'll know you're thinking about yourself and not her, and she'll tell you to get the hell out of her life. The thing is a long shot anyway, so why not play it right? He needed to make himself ready for her. If he was going to talk and to listen, then he couldn't be thinking about the other thing.
An hour later, standing in an apartment building on East Fifty-second Street, not so far from the UN, he peered into a security camera and announced his name.
"You have an appointment?" crackled a woman's voice through the intercom.
"Yes, I just called."
"Just a moment."
He'd found one of the advertisements and called from a pay phone. They told you to go to a certain corner, to another pay phone, and to call again for further instructions, which he had just done.
"What's the name again?"
"Rick."
The buzzer sounded and he pushed through the door and climbed three flights of stairs. Another door, another buzzer, and he stepped into a reception lounge. The bouncer sitting on a sofa across the room glanced up, didn't like the size of Rick, and stood.
"Hey," Rick said, "it's cool."
"May I ask your name?" asked a woman behind a window.
"Rick."
"We need a complete name and a major credit card."
He handed her the American Express card that Paul had given him.
"Okay."
"How does that appear on the bill?" he asked.
"It goes down as a travel agency."
"Good." Paul didn't need to know.
She nodded at the bouncer. He came over and patted Rick down. "He's okay."
"We have a lot of very nice girls."
He doubted that this was true, for if they were nice girls, then what were they doing here? He was buzzed through a second door into a larger room decorated in leather and chrome. Seven girls, each wearing a bathing suit and high heels, sat around in oversized chairs, reading the paper or watching the television. The room smelled like Chinese takeout.
"I need two," Rick told the woman, noticing the hallway that led to a series of rooms, each of which had a red door.
"Two? We can do that. Who do you-"
"You pick," Rick sighed. "I just need two."
She started to tell him that he had to pay her the house charge and each girl negotiated her own fee.
"Fine, fine." The whole tab came to nine hundred bucks. "Put it all on the card."
She looked him up and down. "I think I better give you LaMoyna. You don't mind a black girl?"
"It's fine."
"Some men don't want the black girls, they get intimidated."
"It's fine."
"The other girl's going to be Kirby," she said as if picking for him a kindergarten partner.
"Kirby?"
"It's one of those California girls' names."
THE BLACK GIRL had enormous breasts that had long ago proven the existence of gravity and a skin problem he didn't understand. The small blond girl's hair reached her waist. Tiny shoulders, tiny ass. Lips like boiled shrimp. He felt attracted to neither.
"What do you want, sweetie?" asked the black girl, leading him by the hand to the room, her blue robe open, its belt trailing along the floor. Her feet had heavy calluses, the skin dry and cracked.
"I want to switch off, back and forth," he answered.
The bed was large and clean, with sheets but no blanket.
"You want us to do the switching or you to do the switching?"
"I don't care."
"What's the other gal supposed to do when she not doing you?"
"I don't care." He wondered if maybe he should just leave. "Have fun," he answered. "Have fun with me, have fun with each other."
"Sort of just mix it up, like?"
"Yeah, fine." They asked him if he would put some drinks on his tab and he said fine and they made a call.
"You paid for two hours?" asked the black girl.
"Yeah."
"Why?"
He shrugged apologetically. "Seemed right."
"We gone wear you out sooner than that, guy."
A knock at the door. Another girl came in with a tray of drinks and a bottle.
"We ordered kind of a lot," giggled Kirby. "Okay?"
"That's fine."
The girl with the tray waited. He got up and handed her a ten.
"You don't talk much, do you?" Kirby teased.
"I can talk."
"Come here, I have to check you out."
He walked over to the black girl, and she turned on a lamp next to the bed and pulled him close to the light. She slipped a thumb under the elastic of his underwear and pulled it down.
"You're all folded up." She moved the light closer. "Like one of those accordions." She pulled at him until he began to fill a bit. He breathed in through his nose. "There, now we can see." She pointed to a raised circular scar, ran her thumb over it. "What's this?"
"Cigarette burn."
"Mmmn, what happened, baby?"
"A girl burned me there with her cigarette."
"She was mad at you?"
"Very mad."
She continued to work him, her fingers tight. She knew what she was doing and he closed his eyes. "Didn't want you sticking this in somebody else?"
"Right."
"Kirby, this going to be a problem?"
The blond girl came over, looked. "Yes." She smiled at Rick. "But I kind of like this guy."
"You play football?" LaMoyna asked. "You remind me of that guy, some guy who came in here, said he played for the New York Jets."
"I played in high school, that's all."
While the women finished their drinks, he went to the window and watched the traffic three stories below. The sky looked heavy, rain coming. On the sidewalk an old man consulted his watch, walked a few steps, glanced at his watch again. At the corner a woman in a yellow dress stood holding the hand of a small boy, waiting for the light to change.