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the binding, pay the price, and dic badly. Except that by then, we'll

likely all have been slaughtered by the Galts."

"Well," Cehmai said and rubbed his hands together. "Are there any of

those raisins left?"

"A few," Maati said.

Nlaati could hear the joints in Cehmai's hack cracking as he stretched.

Maati leaned over and scooped up the fallen hook. It wasn't titled, nor

was the author named, but the grammar in the first page marked it as

Second Empire. Loyan Sho or Kodjan the Lesser. Nlaati let his gaze flow

down the page, seeing the words without taking in their meanings. Behind

him, Cehmai ate the raisins, lips smacking until he spoke.

""I'he second problem is solved if your technique works. It isn't

critical that we have all the histories if we can deflect the price of

failing. At worst, we'll have lost the time it took to compose the binding."

"Months," hlaati said.

"But not death," Cchmai went on. "So there's something to be said for that."

"And the first problem can be skirted by not starting wholly from scratch."

"You've been thinking about this, Nlaati-kvo."

Cehmai slowly walked back across the floor. His footsteps were soft and

deliberate. Outside, a pigeon cooed. Nlaati let the silence speak for

him. When Cehmai returned and sat again, his expression was abstracted

and his fingers picked idly at the cloth of his sleeves. hlaati knew

some part of what haunted the younger man: the danger faced by the city,

the likelihood of the Khai Machi retrieving the I)ai-kvo, the shapeless

and all-pervading fear of the Galtic army that had gathered in the South

and might now be almost anywhere. But there was another part to the

question, and that Maati could not guess. And so he asked.

"What is it like?"

Cehmai looked up as if he'd half-forgotten klaati was there. His hands

flowed into a pose that asked clarification.

"Stone-Made-Soft," Maati said. "What is it like with him gone?"

Cehmai shrugged and turned his head to look out the unshuttered windows.

The trees shifted their leaves and adjusted their branches like men in

conversation. The sun hung in the sky, gold in lapis.

"I'd forgotten what it was like to be myself," Cehmai said. His voice

was low and thoughtful and melancholy. "Just myself and not him as well.

I was so young when I took control of him. It's like having had someone

strapped to your back when you were a child and then suddenly lifting

off the burden. I feel alone. I feel freed. I'm shamed to have failed,

even though I know there was nothing I could have done to keep hold of

him. And I regret now all the years I could have stink Galt into ruins

that I didn't."

"But if you could have him back, would you?"

The pause that came before Cehmai's reply meant that no, he would have

chosen his freedom. It was the answer Maati had expected, but not the

one he was ready to accept.

"The Khai may be able to save the Dai-kvo," Cehmai said. "He may get

there before the Galts."

"But if he doesn't?"

"Then I would rather have Stone-Made-Soft back than decorate the end of

some Galtic spear," Cehmai said, a grim humor in his voice. "I have some

early work. Drafts from when I was first studying him. There are places

where the options ... branched. If we used those as starting points, it

would make the binding different from the one I took over, and we still

wouldn't have to begin from first principles."

"You have them here?"

"Yes. They're in that basket. There. You should take them back to the

library and look them over. If we keep them here I'm too likely to do

something unpleasant with them. I was half-tempted to burn them last night."

Maati took the pages-small, neat script on cheap, yellowing

parchment-and folded them into his sleeve. The weight of them seemed so

slight, and still Maati found himself uncomfortably aware of them and of

the return to a kind of walking prison that they meant for Cehmai.

"I'll look them over," Maati said. "Once I have an idea what would be

the best support for it, I'll put some reading together. And if things

go well, we can present it all to the Dai-kvo when he arrives.

Certainly, there's no call to do anything until we know where we stand."

"We can prepare for the worst," Cehmai said. "I'd rather be pleasantly

surprised than taken unaware."

The resignation in Cehmai's voice was hard to listen to. Maati coughed,

as if the suggestion he wished to make fought against being spoken.

"It might be better ... I haven't attempted a binding myself. If I were

the one ..."

Cehmai took a pose that was both gratitude and refusal. Maati felt a

warm relief at Cehmai's answer and also a twinge of regret.

"He's my burden," Cehmai said. "I gave my word to carry StoneMade-Soft

as long as I could, and I'll do that. I wouldn't want to disappoint the

Khai." Then he chuckled. "You know, there have been whole years when I

would have meant that as a sarcasm. Disappointing the Khaiem seems to be

about half of what we do as poets-no, I can't somehow use the andat to

help you win at tiles, or restore your prowess with your wives, or any

of the thousand stupid, petty things they ask of us. But these last

weeks, I really would do whatever I could, not to disappoint that man. I

don't know what's changed."

"Everything," Maati said. "Times like these remake men. They change what

we are. Otah's trying to become the man we need him to he."

"I suppose that's true," Cehmai said. "I just don't want this all to be

happening, so I forget, somehow, that it is. I keep thinking it's all a

sour dream and I'll wake out of it and stumble down to play a game of

stones against Stone-Made-Soft. That that will be the worst thing I have

to face. And not ..."

Cehmai gestured, his hands wide, including the house and the palaces and

the city and the world.

"And not the end of civilization?" Maati suggested.

"Something like that."

Nlaati sighed.

"You know," he said, "when we were young, the man who was Daikvo then

chose Otah to come train as a poet. He refused, but I think he would

have been good. He has it in him to do whatever needs doing."

Killing a man, taking a throne, marching an army to its death, Nlaati

thought but did not say. Whatever needs doing.