“Li Shan! … Li Shan! …” I shouted helplessly.
The bus shot ahead like an arrow — I watched it careen off the highway, float in the air for a second, and plummet into the deep valley below. A loud explosion followed and birds flew into the air in every direction.
I was horror-struck.
An empty feeling washed over me; blinding sunlight reflected off the surface of the road.
It was only after a long, long while that I heard the birds chirping and the wind rustling the trees.
I stumbled to the cliff and saw only the deep valley below, covered in vegetation. There was no trace of the bus, no trace of the passengers. There was nothing. .
Those sixteen passengers certainly didn’t deserve to die. I decided to find out why Li Shan was late. All I could learn was that his wife had upset him. It wasn’t one or two things, but an accumulation of many things. Nobody could clarify further — only Li Shan himself knew what had happened.
Quiet Afternoon Tea
before i moved here, no young person had set foot in this house for a very long time. Since my arrival, my aunt, the sister of my father, has been warning me that I should choose my social circle with discretion. I have no problems with that, even if this isn’t a convent. Eventually, I’ll return to the world of the young, and the house will become part of the world of the young.
Visitors in general are rare, and the old couple doesn’t go out much. From what I can tell, those who once frequently called on friends cannot be bothered to do so when they are old, and even avoid such visits to conserve energy.
I believe my aunt and uncle weren’t so withdrawn in their youth. When the occasional visitor drops by, I overhear them speak about who has moved, who has been successful, who is suffering from a strange illness, who is still doing what before death. . details, distinctly remembered, mingle in the cross sections of the distant past. It is said that the older one grows the further one’s memory reaches into the deep past. I’ve also noticed a common mistake the visitors, men or women, invariably make: all of them compliment the host, remarking how he doesn’t look his age and how he retains his youthful appearance, while they really should offer this sort of bouquet to the hostess. Or they should say something like, “Neither of you looks your age” or “Both of you have retained your youthful appearance.”
Aunt is thus jealous of her husband, often casting a cold glance at him as if sizing up a stranger, as if she were calculating how much substance the compliment contained and how much was meant to flatter.
Uncle is quite content with himself. Those compliments have convinced him that refusing to look old is his natural obligation. He is so meticulously neat and tidy that he will not relax his appearance even at home. He has fine taste in ties, and he wears sock garters. But his greatest advantage is that he doesn’t gain weight anymore. Though he wears a belt, his old clothes still fit. In my eyes, however, he’s still a conservative old gentleman who shows many signs of decay. Those visitors his age are crotchety ancients, mocking themselves, admitting they’ve seen better days. Mere children during World War II, they are serious about everything, much more serious than our generation.
Although Aunt supposedly started dieting five years ago, her weight hasn’t changed. She seems to be suspended in her rotund state, and it is unlikely she will ever be slim. But as her shape is more or less fixed, she continues the ritual of afternoon tea and biscuits once or twice a month.
“I suppose someone is coming for a visit today?” Aunt asks.
“I doubt anyone is,” says Uncle.
“Are you not going out?”
“Where to? I am going nowhere,” he says. “Would you like to go somewhere for fun?”
“The weather isn’t so good. . But I wouldn’t want to even if the weather were good.”
“We haven’t done anything outdoors for a long time,” he says, trying to improve her reasoning.
“I always feel depressed when we return,” she sighs.
“So do I,” he echoes.
“That is a nice tie. Is it new?”
“The narrower type is in fashion. I don’t know when I bought this one. Too wide. It’s better not to wear it often. It doesn’t match my shirt.”
“Wasn’t the narrow type in fashion some time ago?”
“Toward the end of the ’50s, yes.” With his thumb and index finger he draws the shape of a narrow tie on his chest.
Aunt is just as devoted to her appearance. Sometimes she asks me, “What is the latest fashion, Alice? I don’t have time to go shopping. Can’t you help me find a few things from my closet that bears some resemblance to current trends?”
I admire her thinking, for fashion is nothing but a cycle of renewing the old. Advertisers and designers are quite shrewd. Every time they create a new trend, they make a few additions and deletions so the old, in its new form, seems unfamiliar. That’s why I feel sorry for Aunt. Luckily, she only tries to catch up with the latest fashion at home, which spares her public embarrassment. So I always choose a few things that look similar to new designs. This pleases her. She looks at herself in the mirror and smiles, saying, “Are you certain this is popular again? It was fashionable a long time ago, when I was in my forties.”
She is flattered by her own foresight and by the fact that she can still fit, albeit with some difficulty, into her old clothes. Evidently, she has been quite plump for much of her life.
Aunt continues to sit in the living room, her back straight. Her fashionable clothes enhance her energy. She still waits for her husband to acknowledge the hint in her words. “A narrower tie makes one feel more sprightly than the wider type, doesn’t it?”
“Perhaps you’re right.”
“And if you simply do without a tie?”
Uncle feels the sting of her words and says in his own defense, “I’m accustomed to it and wouldn’t feel as comfortable with the collar loose.”
She accepts his compromise. “That’s true. Take sleeves. I don’t like when people roll up the long sleeves of their shirt. Why not simply wear short sleeves then? It doesn’t look nice with long sleeves rolled up.”
“That’s indeed more proper. Such people have no sense of. . grammar.”
So Uncle will continue to wear his ties and be grammatical.
Aunt turns to me. “How long has it been since we last had tea?”
“About ten days.”
“How about today, then?”
“Sure, I’ll see to it. What do you think, Uncle?”
“Fine with me.”
The occasional afternoon tea doesn’t require much preparation. The whole ritual is essentially for looking at fine china and silverware adorned with a little sugar, a few biscuits, a little jam, and milk. It isn’t the preparation that makes me feel dread. It’s the anticipation that I’ll again be subjected to Aunt’s well-rehearsed story.
According to custom, I do not arrange the tea set on the table before I invite the masters of the house to take their seats. They must be seated face to face at the table in expectation for me to bring out the tea set on a tray and place each item not only in the right spot but in the right sequence. When tea is served, I have to ask, with fake innocence, “Would anyone care for some butter?”
Aunt then shakes her head and Uncle is silent.
“What about a tiny bit of cheese?”
“No, thank you. But I wouldn’t mind if you have some.”
This is sufficient indication that Aunt is in a good mood. She usually desires nothing more than the sound of “butter” and “cheese.” In this way she is able to express slight mourning so that her mild sadness can be a lot sweeter. Although I will inherit their house in the future, my present role is that of servant and companion. Before, after I just moved in, I was in a constant state of anxiety. As time passed, things became easier to deal with, though neither of them has made a will yet.