Pulling his hand back with a small purple flower trapped between his fingers, he looked down at her. Their faces hadn’t been this close in a hundred years, their breaths colliding into one another as lips parted to make passage for oxygen.
His green eyes dove into hers and her heart started to pound.
No, she thought. Don’t look at me like that. Don’t love me with your eyes. Don’t search me like I’m something you’ve lost but desperately need. Don’t love me like that. It’s not fair and it hurts.
Tristan tilted his head and for a moment, for a crazy, wonderful moment, Scarlet though he was going to kiss her and the pounding in her chest became more demanding. But then his eyes, which had fallen soft and hazy, sharpened and he stepped back, clearing is throat.
“The game is over here.” He led her into his living room, where he shuffled through a cabinet.
“I like your house,” Scarlet said, desperate to cool the heat in the air as she moved into the hallway.
“Thanks.” Finding the game, Tristan held it out to her as they started walking back for the front door. Her eyes caught on a room to her left—the contents inside making her jaw drop in appreciation.
Weapons were everywhere. Lining the walls, covering a desk, piled on the floor. Old weapons, new weapons, shiny ones, tarnished ones. Scarlet instinctively smiled at the idea of Tristan still wielding daggers.
“Look at all these,” she murmured, stepping into the room to admire the weapons on the wall. She glanced back at him. “Can I touch them?”
Was that a glint of happiness in his eyes?
He nodded, but stayed in the doorway.
Smiling, Scarlet carefully lifted a bow from the wall, examining it with a look of wonder. “This is incredible. How does it work?” she asked, running a fingertip along the bowstring.
“It’s called a compound bow. It gives you more control. That one is my personal favorite,” he said. And then he smiled—dimples and everything—and Scarlet’s heart jumped.
She placed the bow back on the wall and walked past a desk covered in weapons. An assortment of arrows was strewn about the desktop. A silver arrow, a blue-tipped arrow, an arrow with a dramatic fletch, an arrow made of bamboo. They were spilling out of a long, rectangular cardboard box.
“What’s with the sample arrows?” Scarlet asked.
He hesitated. “I’m looking for a specific kind of arrow.”
“What for?”
Certainly not to hunt.
“For my collection.” He stretched his arms over his head in a nervous act of impatience and the hem of his T-shirt came up, showing off the patch of skin where his tattoo was inked.
Scarlet’s heart stopped.
The tattoo was darker. Much darker.
Following her gaze, Tristan dropped his arms. “You should probably get back home.”
Scarlet marched up to Tristan and yanked his shirt up—curse be damned. Ripped abs, tan skin, and the dark lines of a familiar tattoo met her eyes.
He shoved his shirt down, stepping away from her with a hard expression.
“You darkened your tattoo,” she looked up at him. “The last time I saw your tattoo, it was faded. How did it get darker?” Scarlet already knew the answer.
He jutted his jaw. “You need to go.”
She meant to yell at him, but instead her voice came out in a near-whisper, “You had it redone.”
He pursed his lips.
“My design was fading, so you had it redone,” she said and the space between them became electric.
He stepped back, but it was too late. Scarlet had already seen the truth in his eyes and her heart caught fire.
He loved her. He missed her. She was still a part of him. The centuries that pushed them apart had not changed anything. She covered her mouth, trying to hide her face, though it was useless because everything within her burned with love and desire and hope for Tristan.
And he felt every single sensation.
“Stop it, Scar,” he said hoarsely.
She shook her head. “I can’t stop.”
“Please stop,” he begged.
“Don’t tell me to stop. I’m not an emotionless robot, Tristan. If you don’t like how I feel, then stop feeling me.”
He rubbed a hand over his head. “I can’t turn it off and you know it.”
“Then deal with it.”
He shook his head and muttered, “You have no idea how burdensome it is to feel you.”
“Burdensome?” All her warm feelings of love and hope turned to ice.
“Yes, Scar. Burdensome. I can never relax around you. I can never turn you off. You’re always right there, inside me, and I’m always one breath away from killing you. I have to be careful every single second of every single day. So yeah. It’s burdensome.”
Scarlet’s whole being resonated with hurt and anger and grief. She gave him a hard look. “Well, allow me to alleviate some of that miserable weight for you.”
She walked out of Tristan’s house and drove away, but she didn’t head home. She just drove and drove until the sun set.
And then she realized Tristan had done it again. He had pushed her away, and she had left.
And wasn’t that the cycle of sadness in her life?
He didn’t push her away because he didn’t want her. He pushed her away because he didn’t want to be careful.
She turned the car around and headed back to Tristan’s house.
He had been careful long enough.
Tristan felt Scarlet before he saw her. Half of him was excited. The other half was terrified. Story of his life.
He walked into the front room where Scarlet had let herself in and was standing with resolution in her soul—the most dangerous of all her emotions.
He leaned his shirtless body against the doorjamb of his bedroom and their eyes met. Love and want coursed through her, echoed in him, and made him feel like a caged animal. Pacing behind bars. Waiting.
He tried not to look at her lips. “What are you doing here?”
She moved forward, her heart pulsing against his, until she stood right in front of him. So close, if he inhaled deeply their chests would rub together.
Her eyes traveled along his face, his jaw, his throat, until they landed on the skin above his heart and, soon, her heart began to beat in time with his.
“Scar,” he said, his voice dry and graveled. “What are you doing?”
And then a wave of all the emotions he didn’t know how to ignore blew into him.
Love, want, passion, need, hope, faith, desire, love, want, want, want…
The caged animal continued to pace.
“You are so careful.” She tilted her head. “You have always been so careful. But what if I don’t want you to be careful?”