“They wouldn’t stay,” she said. “The dream of south is too strong.”
“Then let them go.”
She did not turn to me, and I almost lost her words as the first raw edge of dawn broke.
“I also dream.”
In a glittering rain of dust, she faded. Only the goose remained.
I expected the geese to fly at any moment, and I could see they expected it as well, but she kept them there. They circled the pond restlessly and wandered the meadow with their eyes glued skyward. My dad hid himself the full day, leaving only a brittle shell for me to watch over. His open eyes reflected nothing. When the sun bled into the horizon, the geese were still there. I hurried to the shore where my mother was waiting.
“You stayed,” I said, handing her the dress.
“Yes.” She pulled it on.
I clasped her hand, ignoring the deep itch shivering beneath my skin, and we walked together toward the shack. My chest was buoyant with giddiness. I could’ve flown right then.
“I’ll make you a warm place by Dad’s side tomorrow and make sure you’re well-fed and safe during the day. No fox will make it within a thousand feet.”
I glanced over, saw the shadows darkening in her eyes, and stopped.
“You’re not staying, are you?”
“The south still calls. You will understand. In the spring.”
She ran her free hand down my arm. I could almost feel the sickening pop of feathers bursting in her wake.
“No.” I pulled myself free and stepped back. “I will never understand.”
By dawn, I had settled at the pond’s edge, shotgun in hand. Mother appeared, shook her head at the gun, and removed her dress. She held it out for me to take, but I refused. Carefully, she set it in the grass.
“Spring,” she said. “Wait for me.”
Hadn’t I waited long enough already? I wanted to ask her, but the words wouldn’t come.
She slid into the water with ease and with the breaking of dawn became the goose again. Ripples fled across the pond, and her flock called out for reassurance against the tang of iron in the air.
“Stay,” I said, aiming at the nervous geese. For their lives, surely she would stay.
She circled a moment in silence, then honked, and all the geese but her burst into the air. I pulled the trigger, and lead shot sprayed the scattering flock. Three of them plummeted back into the water.
They were just geese, I told myself. Nothing less, nothing more. Even Mother, black and gray and full of spite like any common goose, was no different. I aimed the rifle at her.
“Stay.”
She glared; she hissed. She flapped her wings and hurtled toward the sky.
I fired.
Just geese, nothing more, I repeated again and again as her drifted in quiet circles. Between my shoulder blades, a deep itch fluttered and pressed for freedom.
I pictured the city until it passed.
MOONLIGHT AND BLEACH
by Sandra McDonald
My mother was the most beautiful werewolf in Brighton Beach. Four legs, sleek silver fur, and a mouth full of well-brushed teeth that could rip your throat out. My father was a Russian immigrant who started a janitorial company that at one time serviced every public school and city building on Coney Island. As their only kid, I inherited the worst of both worlds: my mother’s were-curse and my father’s ruthless passion for cleanliness. Every month I transform into a magical creature who slinks along the city streets carrying a bucket and a mop.
Yes. I’m a were-maid.
“Like that’s the worst thing in the world,” Mom used to say, her face beet-red as she scrubbed at pots with steel wool. Until she and my father retired, she did her own housework every day. “Sweetheart, you’ll see. A woman who cleans and cooks is a woman who will always have a husband.”
She’s from German stock, very traditional. She wanted me to be a wife; I wanted to be a career woman. She hoped that I would settle down in Park Slope with my boyfriend Jason after we both graduated from Fordham Law. Instead Jason announced he was dumping me for a public defender in Queens who didn’t sneak out of the apartment late at night and return smelling like furniture polish. I told him about the curse. He insisted I had some weird obsessive-compulsive disorder.
“He’s an idiot,” Mom said when heard the news. “His bathroom will never be as clean as it was with you.”
My parents’ sympathy is long distance these days. They spend most of each year in Germany, where Mom can run free through the Black Forest when her arthritis isn’t acting up. I’m their only child, and by day I’m an ambitious junior partner at the law firm of Sidoriv and Puginsky. I wear nice suits and expensive shoes. Under the full moon, whatever I’m wearing transforms into a black polyester dress, a white apron, and ugly black shoes. The yellow rubber gloves that coat my hands won’t come off until sunrise. My hair curls itself up into a bun, tight and impossible to dislodge.
Tonight’s one of those nights.
“Hey, baby!” A red car slows down and the driver leers out his window. It’s one of those hot summer nights that makes you glad for the miracle of air conditioning. “Going to a party? Want to clean me up?”
I ignore him. The perils of walking around in a maid uniform at night in New York can’t be underestimated, but I’ve got a bottle of industrial grade cleaner in my bucket and I’m not afraid to use it.
He makes some lewd suggestions about sponges and finally drives on. Ten minutes later I reach my destination and knock on the alley door.
“There you are,” grumbles my cousin, Alexi, after he opens it. “You’re late.”
“I had to get ready for a meeting with the D.A. tomorrow,” I say.
The smell of chlorine is heavy in the humid air, but the halls are dark and empty. This is one of the smallest, most exclusive Russian banyas in the borough. A banya is a bathhouse to you and me. The bathroom stalls, locker room floors, steam room benches are all prime breeding grounds for germs and grime. It’s good, hard work.
Alexi is top masseuse here. He’s a big beefy man, and when he has bad news he comes out and says it. “Look, Tania. The customers. The morning after you come, they say it’s too clean.”
I push my maid’s cap higher on my head. “Too clean? What does that mean?”
“Too much bleach. Makes them sneeze. Could you maybe try, I don’t know, vinegar?”
“It’s not as good.”
“I’m just saying.” Another shrug, a spread of hands. “Olga wants you to stay in the morning. She wants to meet you, talk it over.”
Olga is his boss. We’ve met before, at business functions, but never while I’m under my curse. “I can’t! She’ll recognize me!”
“Then you better take tomorrow night off. Find someplace else for a month or two.”
It’s not that New York lacks places that need cleaning. It lacks safe places that need cleaning. Without a haven like this, who knows where I’ll end up tomorrow, the last night of the full moon. In desperate times I’ve broken into hotels and apartments, infiltrated hotels and motels, even hung around bus terminals with a long coat over my uniform. Once I almost got arrested for trying to mop the Brooklyn Bridge.
Alexi holds up one finger. “Good news, though. I’ve got a guy for you. Needs help.”
I squint at him. “What kind of guy?”
“Nice guy,” he insists. “Widow. Not a pervert, okay? Just needs a little help.”
I trust Alexi with my secret and I’d trust him with my wallet, but you’ve got to be careful with a curse like mine. Some guys get off on having a woman in a maid’s uniform visit them late at night. Leering can lead to groping, and groping can lead to me hitting someone hitting over the head with a mop. I prefer to avoid personal injury lawsuits.