Lindsay couldn’t take it in. She just sat there, her hands folded in her lap, looking at the painting of her grandfather over the fireplace. Her grandmother had appeared to love this painting. Lindsay could remember her standing here just looking at it, not moving, staring and staring. She’d always wondered what her grandmother was thinking.
“Do you understand?” Delmartin asked, his voice gentle.
“Yes, but it makes no sense.” She turned and gave him a grave smile. “It really makes no difference, though, does it? To anything. My father has always disliked me. I just didn’t realize how much he hated me, how much contempt he felt for me until today. Even if Grandmother had left me a million dollars like everyone else, even if she had left him the bulk of everything, he still would have yelled and screamed at me and hated me.”
“Probably,” Grayson said, his voice cool and matter-of-fact. “I have heard from financial rumblings that your father needs a sturdy influx of money. It seems he doesn’t have your grandmother’s cunning.”
“But one million—”
“One million dollars is nothing more than a finger in the dam, so I hear. Now, this notion of giving all your inheritance to him—I advise you strongly against it. As you said, what would it change? You think to buy his love? It wouldn’t, you know, and I think you’re smart enough to realize that. Nor would it buy his respect. It would buy exactly nothing. I think you should return to New York, Lindsay, and do some thinking. Your grandmother has laid a heavy burden on your shoulders. Here is my card with my private number at home. I will be here for you.
“I shouldn’t say this, but I must. Don’t let your father intimidate you. Don’t let him make you feel guilty. Don’t let him destroy you with that old scandal in Paris. I know it was all twisted from the truth. Your grandmother told me that. Will you promise me?”
She gave him a look of naked pain.
“Promise me,” he repeated.
“All right. I promise.”
“Good. When are you going back to New York?”
“Now.”
“Er, what about the house?”
She stared at him blankly.
“This house, the Foxe mansion. You own it. It’s all yours, free and clear. Your father and his wife live here. What do you want to do?”
She waved a vague hand. “I don’t know. As you say, they live here. Let them stay. I can’t quite imagine going in the library now and informing them to be out by three o’clock.”
Grayson Delmartin thought evicting Judge Foxe would provide him the most satisfaction he’d had in a good ten years. “Do you wish me to instruct Mrs. Foxe that no changes are to be made without your express permission in writing?”
She looked up again at her grandfather’s painting. Would Holly send it to the trash bin if she had her way? “Whatever you believe appropriate, Mr. Delmartin. No, I don’t want any changes, at least not yet. Yes, in writing. That makes it very official.”
“Good, good.” He rose and offered Lindsay his hand. “I will wait here until you’re packed. Then I will drive you to the airport.”
She smiled. “Ah, my protector from the ravening wolves.”
“Yes, exactly.” Telling Mrs. Foxe she couldn’t lay a fat finger on the house would also give him some satisfaction. At least enough for now.
As he drove the very wealthy Miss Foxe to the San Francisco airport, Grayson Delmartin hoped that she had a protector in New York. She needed one, at least until she got herself on an even keel. He’d forgotten the scandal about the prince and his rape of an eighteen-year-old Lindsay. He shook his head. Jesus, a father calling his daughter a slut. It defied any logic he knew of and it defied any understanding Grayson could bring to bear on Judge Royce Foxe’s dislike of his younger daughter.
The man, he thought dispassionately, was a shit.
It was on the way to the airport that Lindsay realized exactly what it was her grandmother had done for her: she’d given her power, ultimate power, the only kind of power Gates Foxe had understood, and she’d given it free and clear with no strings. Power. Lindsay smiled. Immense power, but now she had no need of it. She wished she could tell it to her grandmother now, but it was too late. Power wasn’t to Lindsay what it was to Gates Foxe. To her it was understanding and acceptance of things she couldn’t change. It was overcoming fear, putting the pain of her father’s words behind that curtain she’d seen so clearly in the dining room the night before. Power was not letting the past obstruct the future. Power was knowledge of oneself, of what one was, of what one could become. Power was seeing her family as they really were, namely, jerks, and accepting that they’d never change. And it wasn’t her fault. She didn’t have to play their endless destructive games. She was free of them. She drew a deep, clean breath. Delmartin looked sharply at her, but when she just shook her head, he remained quiet.
To her utter surprise, Lindsay slept most of the way back to New York. She didn’t dream. She didn’t cry anymore. She felt numb, then she slept. The last half-hour of the flight, she was in that vague semiawake state, and all her thoughts were focused on Taylor.
She wanted to see him. She wanted to be close to him. She wanted to touch him, breathe in his scent. She wanted to know that she wasn’t alone. Always alone, she thought. God, she wanted Taylor.
It was just after midnight when she came through the gate tunnel. She knew she was hurrying, she couldn’t help it. She wanted Taylor, and even a second longer to wait was too long. She nearly tripped once and felt a man’s hand grab her arm, to straighten her back up. She smiled her thanks, her eyes darting beyond him, and kept hurrying.
He was there, leaning against one of the concrete posts, his arms crossed, his expression intent.
She paused, looking directly at him. For the first time since she’d met him, she really saw him, saw to the bone and marrow of him, to the toughness and kindness of him, to the essence of him, and she felt something wild and heavy beat steady within her.
She took a step forward, still staring at him, not understanding really, but wanting him more than anything. He’d said nothing, hadn’t moved. His head was cocked now to one side as he watched her.
She dropped her bag and simply ran to him. He was a man of quick reaction time and he lifted her up against him, squeezing her so tightly she gasped for breath. When he lowered her, he felt the warmth and softness of her body and he felt something else. He felt urgency in her, and power and a frenzy, a wildness that had brought her to the edge. She didn’t lose her hold around his neck. Then she was kissing him all over his face, and he felt the heat of her mouth, the heat of her body.
Sweet Jesus, he thought, his mouth opening to her urging. He allowed himself for the first time since he’d known her to let go, to react as he wanted to, to show her how much he wanted her, to forget control, to forget scaring her. He wanted her with all the pent-up madness in him, and—
He moaned in her mouth, his hands now frantic on her back. He became aware of a laugh, and slowly, hating to be parted from her, Taylor raised his head. It took him an instant to focus his mind and his eyes. They were in the middle of Kennedy airport and any minute now he imagined he could very easily pull her pants down, open his, and slam into her.
He drew a deep breath, took her face between his palms and kissed her lightly—her nose, chin, cheeks—smoothed her eyebrows with his thumbs.