In the center of the hall, so far away from the circular wall that the statues and columns could barely be seen through the blue haze, no more imposing than a forest on the horizon, there was a crystal tomb whose lid was pushed to one side. The pallbearers lowered their burden, people gathered in a circle, and the priest began to swing the censer and sing. Everyone crossed himself exaggeratedly and responded from time to time with an “amen.” Strange echoes returned from all sides, minutes later, creating a rose of sonic interference that seemed almost visible in the air of the hall. The pupa, wet with gelatinous secretions, was placed in the crystal house, and the lid, covered with a minute and illegible inscription, was placed over it and sealed. The crystal was so clear and transparent that without the rainbow lightening of the quartz prisms, it would have looked as if the larva floated over the floor. Maria was lost in contemplation of the slow, twisted, peristaltic movements under the skin of the chrysalis, which looked like an eyeball twitching under a sleeper’s eyelid …
When Maria finally pulled her eyes from the enormous cocoon, she found herself alone. The bereaved relatives, the hooded gypsies, the musicians and the priest had perished — they seemed to have dissolved into that corrosive air. It would take days to reach the nearest exit. Had they been reabsorbed into the light of the endless mosaic on the ground? Had they descended even deeper through a hidden trap door? Maria neither understood nor wanted to. You cannot think under vaults that are wider than the bones of your skull. Frozen in the center of the dream, alongside the tomb dug out of crystal, she suddenly felt her entire being collapse, as though she were rotting completely in a few seconds, just before her mind would die. Terror ran over her like a frozen sweat. She knew, in that precise moment, that she would never tear herself away from the fascination and the unreality of the cavern-mausoleum, that she would stay there forever, like a paralyzed grub, living prey for the monster that thumped beside her in its egg. She made the effort of her life to move away, slowly, from the grave and then to run, screaming without hearing her screams, across the multicolored tiles.
She ran at random, for hours and hours, stopping occasionally to breathe, but the walls did not seem to come any closer, or it was happening so slowly that the columns and deformed statues seemed like icebergs on the edge of the universe. Little by little, however, they emerged from the blue haze of distance, and soon she realized that she was approaching a monstrous acromegalic, his thorax surrounded by clouds, his feet so large that between the toes there were vaulted entrances to galleries that dwindled to a point in the distance. Maria entered the arched tunnel between the statue’s right little toe and the next, and she found herself inside a phantasmal brick viaduct. On the spiderweb-covered walls, here and there, hung the yellow horns of the hunting trophies. Paintings in heavy frames, bronze with floral patterns, were so blackened with time you could no longer tell what they were supposed to be. Marble hearths, with cold bronze screens and shovels, alternated with spittoons of the same slippery metal. The gallery was lighted by torches in black metal stands, high along the walls thick with spiders and moths. The silence rang louder and the light seemed to dim as Maria, who suddenly remembered she had left little Mircea alone in the house for the first time, moved forward ever more quickly between lines that united in the distance. Maria began to run again, terrified that she would never escape the phantasmal catacomb. She broke a heel and ran on, limping, until her body more than she herself perceived a gradual change. The air turned pinker, and almost imperceptibly, the gallery seemed to turn meter by meter into that same painful, crepuscular rose. Just as gently, the floor became elastic, and the tiles that had been as clearly defined as a chessboard began to spread their colors into each other, their borders dissolving, and the pictures, hearths, and trophies on the walls also slowly lost their forms, leaning into the reabsorbing pearl rose of the walls, turning flatter and more monotonous. Soon, Maria was walking through a proboscis of wet flesh that, at the edge of her sight, curved into a widening spiral. The walls were running with a yellow liquid and teeming with gelatinous creatures. They vibrated continually, snorting magical, velvet sounds into the air, braided with voices and clanging, louder and louder, until she felt like she was walking through solidified noise. She felt the dizzying spin in her liver, even though the large curves, the ninth or tenth emanating from the center, could be no smaller than Bucharest. After she had passed through the entire snail, walking crookedly across a floor as viscous as the walls, she found herself in front of a sculpture or a colossal mechanism, occupying a bony, irregular cave, on a scale to match the monstrous edifice. It consisted of three pieces, which hung above the crown of Maria’s head like summer clouds oddly knotted together in the sky. Joined by gelatinous pieces of cartilage, the bone pieces vibrated in a continuous roar, like the mechanical looms, she remembered with horror. The first and the last — strangely reminiscent of stirrups — supported the ends of two enormous, round windows, hidden by a transparent, trembling membrane, while the middle one arched between them, like the entrance to a temple, giving the whole a depth and grandeur. Maria, crushed by the inhuman dimensions of the limestone building, approached the window at the other end of the room, climbed the chalky protrusions and excrescences, and crushed the amoebic creatures underfoot, until she reached the thick, moon-colored membrane, with shining lights and fluttering shadows behind it that seemed to be from another world. She pressed her brow against the warm tendon, she pressed her palms against the temples, which were also membranes, or screens, and she tried to see something through the cloudy, hyaline substance. The howl of the exterior world became excruciating, as unbearable as a waterfall. When an indescribable form emerged suddenly from the abyss, rising all at once, green and yellow and gray, moving its — what? face? cephalothorax? tail stinger? — toward the window of flesh, Maria began to scream and ran back without hearing her own scream, just feeling the pain in her throat, losing both of her shoes — back through the hall of enigmatic sculptures, back through the wet snail and back through the viaduct, which after several hours had regained its sweet coral tiles, its brick walls, its fireplaces and its brass spittoons, its hunting trophies and its blackened paintings, finally opening again into the huge, foggy hall of statues. She crossed it again end-for-end, stopping often to sleep through the night on the polished floor. After passing the quartz tomb in the center, where the larva had already wrapped itself in a cocoon of multicolored fibers, she spotted the countless steps that led to the exit. When she saw daylight again through the melancholy cypresses in the Bellu Cemetery, Maria crossed herself. In the tram, she had to brave the crowd staring at her bare feet. She changed trams at Buzesti and took the 24 to the Circus. She passed the florist and reached the entryway of the block with the furniture store, where she had lived for over a year. Already from the entryway she could hear little Mircea screaming. At the door to apartment five, she found her neighbors gathered, trying to calm the boy who was crying as loud as he could behind the door, “My-my-mom-eee! What will I do without my-my-mom-ee!” She dashed over, unlocked the door and took the boy in her arms. He laughed while he cried, drenched in sweat and flushed with the strain.
13
MARIA left the U-shaped courtyard and walked into autumn. Above the yard, the sky was an intense azure with milky clouds frozen in curls. The green and pink oleanders painted their blue shadows on the whitewashed wall of the left-hand house, and further away, the semi-gypsy population sweated in the smell of roux, like fleshy growths on a coral reef. Once the courtyard gate closed, however, all of it stopped — the boiling, the smells, even the sounds — and Maria found herself on Silistra, walking through dead leaves and puddles that reflected the stormy sky. A wet, cold wind blew, seeming to blur the houses and passersby. But she was not cold. She continued walking in her summer dress among people with umbrellas and raincoats. An old woman with an empty bag over her head and shoulders (since cruel, ice-cold drops had begun to drizzle on the pavement) glanced at her strangely and went into a nearby courtyard. A glazier stopped at another gate, setting down his green burden, which reflected the sadness and desolation of the day.