‘I am here,’ she said. ‘I have always been here. Whether you were aware of me or not.’
‘I see. So, did you see the attack?’
She frowned prettily. ‘Attack?’
Queen give me strength! How can I put this? ‘Others came. Creatures different from us, and there was fighting. Many were hurt.’
She peered up at him with a directness of gaze that made him want to flee. ‘You are all alike to me.’
Murk felt the strength leaving his knees. Ye gods! Try another tack! ‘So, what have you been doing — if I may ask?’
‘There is another here. A different sort of entity. I have been trying to understand it.’
Ah. Ardata. ‘Yes?’
She shook her head with an awed expression oddly appropriate to a child’s face. ‘Its awareness exists on a level incalculably far beyond you or me.’
Murk flinched as if struck. What? Is this what we are facing?
He asked, his voice faint, ‘Any … progress?’
‘I am wary. I wonder — how might the process of becoming able to understand this awareness, this entity, cause a change in me? And do I wish to be changed?’ She peered up at him suddenly then, as if pleading, appearing so very vulnerable. ‘What would you do?’
If Murk had been terrified and appalled before, all was as nothing compared to what now overwhelmed him. Gods above and below! What to say? And will it be the right choice? Perhaps they had something here that could counter this goddess’s power … Use her? How could I even consider such a thing? Am I no better than what I’ve heard of these Thaumaturgs?
And yet … gods, the temptation! Imagine. The right word here or there and who knew how much power might be his …
He drew a shuddering dizzying breath. ‘I, too, would be wary. As you are.’ He swallowed to ease the tension banded about his chest. ‘I would wait. Watch. Until I knew more about — well, about everything.’
She’d been nodding solemnly with his words and brushing a hand through the grasses. ‘Yes. That was what I was thinking.’ She smiled shyly up at him. ‘Thank you. Your words are a relief.’ She waved her hands as if to encompass all their surroundings. ‘This is all so very new and strange.’
‘I’m sure it is.’
Still nodding distractedly, she wandered off, and Murk watched her go until the glow faded away into nothing and he knew she was gone. He rocked then, almost tottering as his knees wobbled. He doubled over, hands on thighs, and breathed deeply. K’rul guide me! Had that been the right choice? Had he let an unmatched opportunity slip through his fingers? Time would tell. Still weak-kneed, he went to find Yusen.
The captain was standing with Oroth-en. Both were silent, watching the woods. They seemed much alike these two, both guarded and stingy with their words.
‘They have fled far,’ Oroth-en told Murk and he nodded, having already surmised this. He addressed the elder. ‘What are they?’
‘They are the children of the Great Goddess. Queen of the Forest.’
‘Why did they attack?’
The man frowned his uncertainty. The lines and swirls tattooed in blue around his mouth exaggerated the expression. ‘I am not sure. You are foreigners, invaders. They are perhaps defending their lands.’
‘Do they attack you?’
‘They are a danger to anyone in the woods.’
‘But do they attack your villages?’
The suggestion surprised him. ‘Goddess, no. Why should they do that?’
Exactly, Murk thought. Something utterly outside your experience. Why should they? And we possess far more fighting men than you, my friend. He faced Yusen. ‘While it’s dark I want to try to contact one of them. Feel them out.’
The captain’s expressive brows shot up, but he nodded. ‘If you think you can handle it.’
‘Yes — well, I think so.’
‘All right.’
Oroth-en’s gaze had been moving between them, narrowed. ‘What is this?’
‘I’m going to go out for a chat.’
The elder jerked a curt negative. ‘I cannot countenance that. It would be very foolish. They are angry. Something has disturbed them.’
I think I know what that is. ‘Don’t worry. I can take care of myself. I am shaduwam, remember?’
The warlord was unconvinced. He shook his head, very worried. ‘Do you know the fate of all the shaduwam, your mages, Thaumaturg or otherwise, who dare enter Himatan?’
Murk knew he was about to find out — and that he wouldn’t like it.
‘The forest consumes all, foreigner.’ He raised his arms to the surroundings. ‘Everyone and everything is consumed. No matter how powerful they may think themselves. The only way to survive here is to accept this. As we have.’
Murk cocked an eyebrow, but that was all. He was too aware of the precariousness of their position to openly argue with the man. He knew his environment, after all. And they were his guests. ‘Well …’ he said, offering a considered nod. ‘I’ll keep it in mind.’ He saluted Yusen. ‘Cap’n …’
Yusen just waved him on.
Before he reached the jungle verge a spear haft suddenly snapped across his path and the broad bulk of Ursa blocked his way. ‘What is this I hear of you going alone to the children of the Great Queen?’ she rumbled.
‘I can speak to them.’
‘And they can eat you, lover.’
‘Do not forget I am a shaduwam. I will be safe.’
She shook her head stubbornly, refusing to move from his path. ‘No others have been. Not Thaumaturg or otherwise.’
Murk sighed. Just what I need — a protective mothering lover. Nothing else for it.
He raised his Warren and entered Meanas. To Ursa’s eyes it was as if he simply disappeared. ‘Great Mother!’ he heard her exclaim as he hurried on round her. He hadn’t really disappeared in truth, merely used a weaving of shadows to hide his presence. He no longer dared enter the Shadow realm of Emurlahn proper.
Enmeshed in his shifting slithering cloak of shadows he jogged past scouts watching the dense jungle. He spotted Sweetly up against the wide trunk of a tree. The scout’s gaze seemed to follow him and he raised a hand to tap one ear while shaking his head. Murk just grimaced. Making too much damned noise. Fine. Fucking show-off.
He continued on for nearly the rest of the night. By this time, the nightly rains had long since moved on to the southwest. The bright waxing moon had set. Yet the stars remained sharp and the great hanging arc of the portent hung luminous enough to send shafts of jade light down through the canopy. Murk followed the tuggings of his Warren until he sensed the presence of one of the creatures. Here he stopped and crouched among dense broad fronds to weave a sort of sending of Shadows that would speak for him. He worked to weave the slippery half-light until a shifting presence of dusk hovered before him. It rippled as if in some sort of unearthly breeze, perhaps crossing from Emurlahn. This he sent off towards the D’ivers, or Soletaken, or whatever it was, while drops of cold rain fell on his neck and shoulders from the leaves.
His Warren poised, Murk peered through the Shadow-weaving, searching until he found the creature, sprawled, wounded, panting among twisting roots of a dense grove of golden shower trees. It was human, vaguely, but barely so. A sort of half-bird thing, his upper torso feathered and his head that of some species of bird of prey with a savage curved beak and blood-red eyes. Those eyes followed the slow drifting advance of Murk’s weaving.
‘Compared to the Thaumaturg army of peasants and farmers,’ it said, its voice harsh but weak, ‘you foreigners fight well.’
A Thaumaturg army? Now? ‘Why did you attack us?’
‘Why?’ A stuttering that Murk supposed was laughter shook it, followed by a convulsion of pain as it huddled into a tighter ball. ‘Why? You ask such a stupid question? You invade our lands. You trespass without our leave. And then you have the nerve to think yourselves the victims?’