‘Patch II would like to enquire,’ he says in his bassoony voice, ‘whether today Miss White feels inclined to peruse my collection of recorded sounds—’
Emily giggles. ‘You mean listen to records?’
‘My furry colleague would appreciate it.’
On cue, Patch II barks.
Emily laughs. ‘OK,’ she says.
Over the thirty months that followed, Dr Peacock became an increasingly large part of all their lives. Catherine was deliriously happy; Emily was an apt pupil, spending three or four hours at the piano every day, and suddenly there was a much-needed focus to all of their lives. I doubt Patrick White could have stopped it, anyway, even if he had wanted to; after all, he too had a stake in the affair. He, too, wanted to believe.
Emily never asked herself why Dr Peacock was so generous. To her he was simply a kind and funny man who spoke in long and ponderous phrases and who never came to see them without bringing some gift of flowers, wine, books. On Emily’s sixth birthday he gave her a new piano to replace the old, battered one on which she had learnt; throughout the year there were concert tickets, pastels, paints, easels, canvas, sweets and toys.
And music, of course. Always music. Even now that hurts most of all. To think of a time when Emily could play every day for as long as she liked, when every day was a fanfare, and Mozart, Mahler, Chopin, even Berlioz would line up like suitors for her favour, to be chosen or discarded at whim . . .
‘Now, Emily. Listen to the music. Tell me what you hear.’
That was Mendelssohn, Lieder ohne Worte, Opus 19, Number 2, in A minor. The left-hand part is difficult to master, with its tight blocks of semi-quavers, but Emily has been practising, and now it’s almost perfect. Dr Peacock is pleased. Her mother, too.
‘Blue. Quite a dark blue.’
‘Show me.’
She has a new paintbox now, sixty-four colours arranged like a chessboard, almost as broad as the desk-top. She cannot see them, but knows them by heart; arranged in order of brightness and tone. F is violet; G is indigo; A is blue; B is green; C is yellow; D is orange; E is red. Sharps are lighter; flats darker. Instruments, too, have their own colours within the orchestral palette: the woodwind section is often green or blue; the strings, brown and orange; the brass, red and yellow.
She picks up her thick brush and daubs it in the paint. She is using watercolours today, and the scent is chalky and grannyish, like Parma violets. Dr Peacock stands to one side, Patch II curled up at his feet. Catherine and Feather stand on the opposite side, ready to pass Emily anything she may need. A sponge; a brush; a smaller brush, a sachet of glitter powder.
The Andante is a leisurely abstract, like a day at the seaside. She dabbles her fingers in the paint and strokes them across the smooth untreated paper so that it contracts into ridges, like shallow-water sand, and the paint melts and slides into the gullies her fingers have left. Dr Peacock is pleased; she can hear the smile in his bassoony voice, although much of what he says is incomprehensible to her, swept aside by the lovely music.
Sometimes, other children come by. She remembers a boy, rather older than she is, who is shy, and stammers, and doesn’t talk much, but sits on the sofa and reads. In the parlour there are sofas and chairs, a window seat and (her favourite) a swing, suspended from the ceiling on two stout ropes. The room is so large that Emily can swing as high as she likes without hitting anything; besides, everyone knows to keep out of her way, and there are no collisions.
Some days she does not paint at all; instead she sits on her swing in the Fireplace House and listens to sounds. Dr Peacock calls it the Sound Association Game, and if Emily works hard, he says, there will be a present at the end. All she has to do is sit on the swing, listen to the records and tell him the colours she can see. Some are easy — she already has them sorted in her mind like buttons in a box — others not. But she likes Dr Peacock’s sound machines, and the records, especially the old ones, with their long-dead voices and wind-up scratchy gramophone strings.
Sometimes there is no music at all, but just a series of sound effects, and these are hardest of all. But Emily still tries her best to satisfy Dr Peacock, who writes down everything she says in a series of cloth-backed notebooks, sometimes with such force that his pencil goes through the paper.
‘Listen, Emily. What do you see?’
The sound of a thousand Westerns; a gun fires, a bullet ricochets against a canyon wall; Gunsmoke; Bonfire Night and charred potatoes. ‘Red.’
‘Is that all?’
‘Madder red. With a trail of crimson.’
‘Good, Emily. Very good.’
It’s really very easy; all she has to do is let her mind go. A penny dropped; a man whistling off-key; a single thrush; a door-knocker; the sound of one hand clapping. She goes home with her pockets crammed with sweets. Dr Peacock clack-clacks up his findings every night on a typewriter with a Donald Duck voice. His papers have names like ‘Induced Synaesthesia’, ‘The Colour Complex’ and ‘Out of Sight, Out of Mind’. His words are like the gas the dentist gives her when he has to drill a tooth; she slides away under its shivery caress, and all the perfumes of the Orient cannot save her.
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Posted at: 01.45 on Tuesday, February 12
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Most of this, of course, is speculation. Those memories are not mine; they belong to Emily White. As if Emily could be a reliable witness to anything. And yet her voice — her plaintive treble — calls to me from over the years. Help me, please! I’m still alive! You people buried me alive!
‘Red. Dark red. Oxblood, with purple streaks.’
Chopin’s Nocturne Number 2 in E flat major. She has a good ear for music, and at six years old she can already pick out most of the chords, although the fretful double-rows of chromatics are still beyond the skill of her stubby fingers. This does not trouble Dr Peacock. He is far more interested in her painting skills than in any musical talent.
According to Catherine, he has already framed and hung half a dozen of Emily’s canvases on the walls of the Fireplace House — including her Toreador; her Goldberg Variations; and (her mother’s favourite) her Nocturne in Violet Ochre.
‘There’s so much energy in them,’ says Catherine, in a trembling voice. ‘So much experience. It’s almost mystic. The way you take the colours from the music and bring them on to the canvas — do you know, Emily? I envy you. I wish I could see what you see now.’
No child could fail to be flattered by such praise. Her paintings make people happy; they earn her rewards from Dr Peacock and the approval of his many friends. She understands that he is planning another book, much of it based on his recent findings.
She knows that she is not the only person he has befriended in his search for synaesthetes. In his book Beyond Sense, he explains, he has already written at length about the case of a teenage boy, referred to throughout simply as Boy X, who appeared to exhibit signs of olfactory-gustatory acquired synaesthesia.