My eyes never left his face, and when he felt the slight jolt beneath his hand, his head whipped up in surprise.
“You feel it?” I whispered.
He grinned, and lowered his head. He lifted my shirt, exposing my belly, and placed the softest kiss just above my belly button.
“We can’t wait to meet you baby girl.”
I smiled, and my heart felt ready to explode. I wanted more of these moments, moments so pure, and untainted by the bumpy road it took for Reid and me to get here.
Reid righted himself, and I leaned forward until I could kiss him. When he backed away, I noticed that his pajama bottoms were tented, and couldn’t help but giggle.
“Can I help you with that?”
He looked down, hands on his hips, and smirked. “Na, I’ll just have a cold shower.”
“You sure? I could easily go for round two.”
That was no lie. Thinking about what Reid would eventually look like holding our baby turned me on, and knowing what he had going on down below only made it worse.
He stepped closer, and brought his hands to my hips. “I’m tempted, but there’s one thing I want us to do before we...you know.” His cheeks reddened, and there were few things I found sexier than making him blush. He was such a man, and yet couldn’t even talk about us having sex without turning red. Yeah, I wanted to keep him.
“What’s that?” I asked, hugging his waist.
“Buy a house?”
I’m sorry say what now?
Chapter 14
Reid
Forever Wouldn’t Be Long Enough
Jade stared up at me, a frown etched onto her beautiful, damp face. For someone who just had an orgasm, she looked pretty pissed.
“I’ve been meaning to talk to you about it,” I said, carefully judging her reaction. “But I think we should get a house before the baby comes.”
Jade pushed me away, and started righting her clothes. Our sense of reckless abandon had dissipated, as did the tenderness with which we experienced our daughter’s first movement.
“I’m going to go ahead and assume that you’ve already started looking for properties,” she replied, jumping from the kitchen counter. I couldn’t argue because she knew me well. When I had my mind set on something I wasted little to no time getting it.
“I just had my dad get some listings in the area, Jade. It’s not a big deal.”
She huffed, crossing her arms over her stomach. I was painfully aware of the hard on tenting my pajama bottoms, and even an argument wouldn’t make it magically disappear. In fact, I was most certain that it would only make the ache worse. A turned-on Jade was sexy, but an angry Jade, with those pouty lips and fire-filled eyes? Kryptonite.
“Not a big deal?” She retorts loudly. “How is planning our future without talking to me first not a big deal?”
I huffed and realized too late that it was the wrong time to bring it up. “I honestly thought you’d be happier about wanting to live with me, but obviously I misjudged the situation.”
Hurt and indignation collided in Jade’s brown irises and her arms fell to her sides. “It’s not about that Reid. You’re moving at a hundred miles an hour, and I’m struggling to catch up. We’ve only just managed to get on the same page, with us and this pregnancy, and now you want to change the chapter without talking to me.”
“It’s not like that,” I told her. “I thought it would be the next step, considering Kennedy and Dane will be moving in together at the end of the semester.”
From the way Jade’s face fell I could see she was surprised, and not in a good way.
Fuck.
Kennedy hadn’t told her yet, and I just let the cat out of the bag.
Great timing, I thought. Talk about being ambushed.
“She didn’t tell me,” said Jade. “I knew he asked her, but I didn’t know it was decided yet.”
“I’m sorry, I thought you knew.”
I stepped closer to her, but she put her hands up. She was locking me out again, and I couldn’t stand it. Just when I thought we’d made progress, something happened to set us back, and this time I was partly to blame.
“I need to be alone.” Her voice was soft, and forlorn.
Without another word, she turned and disappeared into her bedroom. Her reaction didn’t quite make sense to me though, aside from being hurt that Kennedy hadn’t filled her in on her plans to move in with Dane. I thought after last night she would have been excited about what came next, or at least open to the idea of it.
I roughly rubbed my hands down my face, and stared at our forgotten breakfast. I was trying to understand Jade’s reaction, but when it became obvious I had to wait for her to talk to me, I placed the cooked food – pancakes and bacon – in the refrigerator, and headed into her room to take a shower. When I opened the bathroom door Jade was sitting on the floor. Her head lifted when I stepped onto the cold tiled floor, and she swiped away the few errant tears on her cheeks.
“Fucking hormones,” she mumbled between sniffles. “I never know whether I’m going to cry or bite someone’s head off.”
I bent down, and lifted her chin so that she could look me in the eye. “I can deal with all that, sweetheart, but what I can’t deal with is you locking me out.”
Jade swallowed, and rather than push her to open up to me, I lifted her off the floor and started undressing us. I turned the shower on, and made sure the water was warm enough for both of us before stepping into the small space behind her. She turned and rested her head on my chest. The water beat against my back, but I was happy to stand there until Jade was ready to get whatever was bothering her off her chest.
“The changes,” she said against my skin. “They frighten me, Reid. It’s all happening at once – our baby, you wanting to move into a house, becoming parents – I’m overwhelmed, and frustrated because I’m always so ready to tackle anything head on. I hate being unprepared, and right now I feel unprepared for all of it.”
I wrapped my arms around her, feeling her belly between us, and kissed the top of her head.
“I’m terrified too,” I admitted. “I have no idea what I’m doing either, but I need you to trust that I will always put you girls first. I’m sorry I didn’t talk to you about the house, but I don’t think a dorm is the right place for a newborn, and having you an hour away at your parents’ isn’t what I want either. Will you at least think about it?”
I felt her nod. “Just promise me we’ll get through it all together?”
“I promise, but I need to know you’ll come to me when you’re feeling, well, everything.” I chuckled. “You’re not feeling anything alone. I’m right there with you.”
“Only if you’ll still love me when I’m done shouting at you for no good reason, or when I start crying during one of those puppy commercials. I can’t be held responsible for how I react to anything.”
“You’re going to ride that wave for the next four months aren’t you?” I mused, moving my head so that I could see her.
“Yes,” she smiled. “And you’re going to have to put up with all my weird cravings – like cheesy puffs and ice cream – and when I want sex you’re going to have to give it to me, no questions asked.”
I couldn’t help but smirk. “I don’t think that will be a problem. We can practice.”
“Practice?”
Lowering my head, I nipped at her lips. “Practice. I want a house full of children, Ms. Matthews. And I want them with you.”
“Not too soon,” she said, arching her neck to give me better access. Her skin was warm, wet, and smelled like honey.
I shook my head. “There’s no rush. Although, I do love the way your body looks right now. Drives me crazy.”
“I’m glad you like it,” she breathed. “Because it’s not going to be the same after this kid arrives.”