And you know I love to exploit your weaknesses.
Enjoy.
Thanks for everything,
D, aka the love of your life
P.S. We still need to talk.
I nearly threw the shoes out of the closest window. I had them free of the box, had moved from the kitchen and across the living room, opened a window, but as I stared at them I just couldn’t do it.
They were so gorgeous. How could I throw away something so perfect?
Shoe porn, indeed.
I hated that I loved it. The note. The shoes. Everything about it tailored perfectly to appeal to my senses and tear out pieces of me in precisely equal measures.
We were over, had been for years, but it didn’t matter. If he had his way, he’d keep me tied to him forever. He was cruel like that.
The shoes, and particularly the note, was an attack disguised as a white flag, and it worked, did exactly what he intended—got to me. Enraged and weakened me both.
He knew me that fucking well.
No one on earth should know a person that well.
Lovers should have secrets.
In fact, they need them.
Some part of you should stay a mystery in every relationship. Enough mystery to keep some distance and a bit of perspective.
Dante and I had gotten together too young for any of that. I’d given him everything, been too smitten and naive to hold back even one selfish part of myself.
Even one essential part of myself.
Never relinquish the keys to your soul to someone else. It gives them too much power.
That kind of power in the hands of a ruthless man like Dante, well, needless to say, it’d taken its toll on me.
I was standing, hands clenched at my sides, glaring at the shoes when my phone started chiming a text at me from the kitchen.
I set the shoes down carefully on the coffee table and stalked to check it.
The text was from an unfamiliar number and read:
Wear them and think of me.
Predictably, it set me off.
And even so, I couldn’t throw away the shoes.
I settled for spending a ridiculous amount of time making it look like I had.
Demi was still the only one home, but she was game to assist me in setting it up. She was a sweet young thing. It constantly surprised me how much she liked to help out with any random plot I was hatching on a daily basis just for the sake of sisterhood, just because her first inclination was to be nice, even after I’d made her cupcakes that I knew weren’t on her diet.
I’d never been sweet, but ironically some of my closest friends these days were. I was finding that my particular flavor of bitter was sometimes best complemented with a bit of saccharine. Go figure.
I recorded a short video on my phone that showed me tossing the shoes out of my bedroom window, one by one with two short flicks of my wrist.
Our place was on the first floor, so it was fairly simple. Demi was outside, crouched low to the ground, out of the shot, a pillow in her arms.
“Are they okay?” I called out as soon as I stopped recording.
“Caught them both with the pillow!” she called back cheerily. “Your ungodly expensive shoes are unharmed!”
I grinned and sent the video off to my new contact, which I’d named: Bastard/Stalker/Liar/Cheater/Ex/TheDevil.
Me: I thought of you while I was doing this. Lose my number.
The smile died on my face at his near immediate response.
Bastard/Stalker/Liar/Cheater/Ex/TheDeviclass="underline" No worries. I’m almost to your place. I’ll rescue them for you.
I was so caught off guard, not sure if he was messing with me but rattled with even the possibility of having to face him again, that I wasn’t sure how to respond.
I focused on the most immediate concern—hiding the Louboutins.
I intercepted Demi right as she was bringing the shoes back to the front door. I grabbed them from her, throwing out a, “Thank you,” as I hurried back to my bedroom. I stuffed them in the corner of my closet, threw some clothes on top, and rushed into the bathroom.
I glared at my reflection. Why today of all days had I made no effort at all? I’d showered and scrubbed my face clean of makeup the second we’d gotten home from our trip. I’d washed my hair, but then let it dry as is, which meant it was basically a slightly damp rat’s nest at this point.
And my outfit could only be described as quirky. In reality, quirky was kind. I was wearing yoga pants and an oversized cat T-shirt.
At least it was a somewhat combative cat shirt. The cat was sweet looking enough, a big, fluffy white thing surrounded by pink and blue flowers but at the bottom it read in clear black print: I WILL END YOU.
It was really kind of perfect if I thought about it, so I kept the shirt on, switched the pants out for some tiny shorts that showed off my legs, and focused on my hair, dragging a brush through it and doing a quick blow dry, just enough to make it look tousled instead of messy.
I’d just applied the bare minimum of makeup when the doorbell rang again.
I knew it was him. I could feel it in my flesh, just like I could feel my temper bubbling up under my skin, ready for any excuse to ignite.
I was irate that he had the nerve to clash with me again so soon. He’d lost the last round. It had been a clear knockout win for me.
He should have the decency to stay down.
I waited in my room, wondering if he’d go away if I just didn’t answer.
But I wasn’t so lucky, and Demi had the blasted habit of answering the front door.
It was her tentative knock outside my bedroom that jarred me into action. That and her kind voice calling through, “Um, Scarlett, I’m sorry, but, uh, Dante, I mean, The Bastard, is at the front door and refuses to leave. Should I call the cops on him or something?”
“Sic Amos on him,” I called back. It was a lovely thought, but unfortunately, our mutt was incapable of violence. He thought every creature in the world was his friend.
Stupid dog. He should have been a bitter ball of hate. He had, after all, been thrown in a dumpster by some neglectful son of a bitch. Didn’t he know that the world was out to get him?
“I doubt that will work,” she countered through the door. “You know Amos isn’t likely to cooperate. We could just ignore him until he leaves.”
I sighed. It was tempting, but I was not in the habit of taking the coward’s way. Also, Dante was a stubborn son of a bitch. I doubted he’d just go away after coming all the way here.
I’d face him, if only to rub my win from last night in his lying, manipulative, evil, shoe-buying face.
I opened my bedroom door and met Demi’s worried eyes. “I’ll handle him. Don’t worry about it. And eat as many cupcakes as you want. All of the red velvet ones are for you.”
She cursed me for that (even her curses came across sweet, and dammit, even cute) and left me to it.
I didn’t rush to meet him. I didn’t have a problem making him wait. In all our time together, I rarely had.
Of course, I didn’t much dawdle, either. Wasting his time was one thing, but it wouldn’t do to give him the impression that I dreaded seeing him as much as I actually did.
I applied one last precise bit of nude lip-gloss like it was war paint and went to answer the door.
I braced myself for the sight of him, taking one deep breath before I faced him again.
“What the hell are you doing here?” I asked the moment our gazes clashed.
He looked like hell, wearing the same suit he had the previous day, his golden hair unkempt, his normally precise, perpetual stubble turned to outright scruff.
He looked exhausted and hungover, but also, good enough to eat.
His eyes were taking in the front of my shirt, a smirk forming on his lips as he read it when he replied, “Love the shirt, tiger. Very appropriate. Would you believe me if I said I was in the neighborhood?”