“I don’t mean the wound. I mean the police. They’ll be waiting for you.”
“I know.”
“And you’re not going to come quietly, are you?”
Boone was no longer sure. Decker’s voice reminded him so much of being safe, he almost believed it would be possible again, if the doctor wanted to make it so.
But there was no talk of safety from Decker now. Only of death.
“You’re a multiple murderer, Boone. Desperate. Dangerous. It was tough persuading them to let me see you.”
“I’m glad you did.”
“I’m glad too,” Decker replied. “I wanted a chance to say goodbye.”
“Why does it have to be this way?”
“You know why.”
He didn’t; not really. What he did know, more and more certainly, was that Peloquin had told the truth.
You’re not Nightbreed, he’d said.
Nor was he; he was innocent.
“I killed nobody,” he murmured.
“I know that,” Decker replied.
“That’s why I couldn’t remember any of the rooms. I was never there.”
“But you remember now,” Decker said.
“Only because…” Boone stopped, and stared at the man in the charcoal suit, “because you showed me.”
“Taught you,” Decker corrected him.
Boone kept staring, waiting for an explanation that wasn’t the one in his head. It couldn’t be Decker. Decker was Reason, Decker was Calm.
“There are two children dead in Westlock tonight,” the doctor was saying. “They’re blaming you.”
“I’ve never been to Westlock,” Boone protested.
“But I have,” Decker replied. “I made sure they saw the pictures; the men out there. Child murderers are the worst. It’d be better you died here than be turned over to them.”
“You?” Boone said. “You did it?”
“Yes.”
“All of them?”
“And more.”
“Why?”
Decker pondered on this a moment.
“Because I like it,” he said flatly.
He still looked so sane, in his well cut suit. Even his face, which Boone could see clearly now, bore no visible clue to the lunacy beneath. Who would have doubted, seeing the bloodied man and the clean, which was the lunatic and which his healer? But appearances deceived. It was only the monster, the child of Midian, who actually altered its flesh to parade its true face. The rest hid behind their calm, and plotted the death of children.
Decker drew a gun from the inside of his jacket.
“They armed me,” he said. “In case you lost control.”
His hand trembled, but at such a distance he could scarcely miss. In moments it would all be over, bullet would fly and he’d be dead, with so many mysteries unsolved. The wound; Midian; Decker, many questions that he’d never answer.
There was no other moment but now. Flinging cloth he still held at Decker, he threw himself aside behind it. Decker fired, the shot filling the room with sound and light. By the time the cloth hit the ground, Boone was at the door. As he came within a yard of the ??? gun’s light came again. And an instant after, sound. And with the sound a blow to Boone’s back threw him forward, out through the door and onto the stoop.
Decker’s shout came with him.
“He’s armed!”
Boone heard the shadows prepare to bring him down. He raised his arms in sign of surrender; opened mouth to protest his innocence.
The men gathered behind their cars saw only his bloodied hands, guilt enough. They fired.
Boone heard the bullets coming his way two from the left, three from the right, and one from straight ahead, aimed at his heart. He had time to wonder at how slow they were, and how musical. Then they struck him: upper thigh, groin, spleen, shoulder, cheek and heart. He stood upright for several seconds, then somebody fired again, and nervous trigger finger unleashed a second volley. Two of these shots went wide. The rest hit home: abdomen, knee, two to the chest, one to the temple. This time he fell.
As he hit the ground he felt the wound Peloquin had given him convulse like a second heart, its presence curiously comforting in his dwindling moments. Somewhere nearby he heard Decker’s voice and his footsteps approaching as he emerged from the house to peruse the body.
“Got the bastard,” somebody said.
“He’s dead,” Decker said.
“No I’m not,” Boone thought.
Then thought no more.
PART TWO
DEATH’S A BITCH
“The miraculous too is born, has its season, and dies…”
ROUGH ROADS
Knowing Boone was gone from her was bad enough, but what came after was so much worse. First, of course, there’d been that telephone call. She’d met Philip Decker only once, and didn’t recognize his voice until he identified himself. “I’ve got some bad news I’m afraid.”
“You’ve found Boone.”
“Yes.”
“He’s hurt?”
There was a pause. She knew before the silence was broken what came next.
“I’m afraid he’s dead, Lori.”
There it was, the news she’d half known was coming, because she’d been too happy, and it couldn’t last. Boone had changed her life out of all recognition. His death would do the same.
She thanked the doctor for the kindness of telling her himself, rather than leaving the duty to the police. Then she put the phone down, and waited to believe it.
There were those amongst her peers who said she’d never have been courted by a man like Boone if he’d been sane, meaning not that his illness made him choose blindly but that a face like his, which inspired such fawning in those susceptible to faces, would have been in the company of like beauty had the mind behind it not been unbalanced. These remarks bit deep because in her heart of hearts she thought them true. Boone had little by way of possessions, but his face was his glory, demanding a devotion to its study that embarrassed and discomfited him. It gave him no pleasure to be stared at. Indeed Lori had more than once feared he’d scar himself in the hope of spoiling whatever drew attention to him, an urge rehearsed it his total lack of interest in his appearance. She’d known him go days without showering, weeks without shaving, half a year without a hair cut. It did little to dissuade the devotees. He haunted them because he in his turn was haunted, simple as that.
She didn’t waste time trying to persuade her friends of the fact. Indeed she kept conversation about him to the minimum, particularly when talk turned to sex. She’d slept with Boone three times only, each occasion a disaster. She knew what the gossips would make of that. But his tender, eager way with her suggested his overtures were more than dutiful. He simply couldn’t carry them through, which fact made him rage, and fall into such depression she’d come to hold herself back, cooling their exchanges so as not to invite further failure.
She dreamt of him often though; scenarios that were unequivocally sexual. No symbolism here. Just she and Boone in bare rooms, fucking. Sometimes there were people beating on the doors to get in and see, but they never did. He belonged to her completely; in all his beauty and his wretchedness.
But only in dreams. Now more than ever, only in dreams.
Their story together was over. There’d be no more dark days, when his conversation was a circle of defeat, no moments of sudden sunshine because she’d chanced upon some phrase that gave him hope. She’d not been unprepared for an abrupt end. But nothing like this.