"It may well be that we will never know everything that happened in this case. I for one would like to know who masterminded this sale of radioactive materials, and the identities of the intended buyers. I would sleep better tonight if I had that information. But my job here is to analyze the new evidence that has been presented in terms of the case tried. Specifically, my job is to determine whether the new evidence justifies setting aside the jury's verdict."
He took a deep breath before answering. It seemed it was not only jurors who instinctively drew out the big moment of revelation.
"Most motions for new trial can be dismissed out of hand. Most newly discovered evidence is neither new nor evidence of much. But this is different. Here we have a confession from a key player in a criminal operation. To use his own words, Dennis Thomas was their patsy. And I for one am ashamed that both law enforcement and the justice system played a part in this ongoing misuse of a grieving husband."
McPartland drew himself up to his full height. "It is with this in mind that I announce that the defendant's motion is hereby granted. The court will entertain any writ for relief the defense may care to subsequently submit and my ruling will be forwarded to the court of the pending civil action. The judgment against Dennis Thomas is hereby set aside and double jeopardy has attached. Therefore, Mr. Thomas, as of this moment, you are a free man. Marshals, remove those shackles."
Dennis jumped up into the air. Most of the reporters in the gallery did the same. He heard a cry from the back row, then another. A few moments later, a spontaneous round of applause broke out.
The judge hammered down his gavel. "This court is still in session!" he barked. "Therefore, there will be order in this court!" His stony glare melted into a smile. "However, what you do afterward is your own business." He brought down the gavel again. "This court is in recess."
The crowd once again burst into applause. The back doors slammed repeatedly as people raced in and out.
Before Ben even knew what was happening, he felt Dennis's arms wrap around him. "Thank you," he said quietly. Ben could tell he was weeping. "Thank you so very much. From both of us."
Ben didn't have to ask what that meant.
Over his shoulder, Ben saw Guillerman approaching.
"I know you might not want to hear from me," Guillerman said, speaking to Dennis, "but I am genuinely sorry about what happened."
Dennis reached out his hand. "I don't blame you."
"Thank you. But I won't stop blaming myself." He looked past to Ben. "Congratulations, counselor."
"Thank you for not opposing the use of the Shaw evidence."
Guillerman shook his head. "I'm not a total jerk, you know. Honest." He reached out his hand to Ben. "Thank you for your damned tenacity. You are a testament to this profession. What it should be."
Ben didn't know what to say. So he simply took the man's hand and shook it.
"Hey, do I get in on this celebration?" Christina was standing on her tiptoes, trying to break into the circle.
"If you insist." Ben turned around and gave her a big hug.
"I always have to beg for it." She hugged him back. "Way to go, slugger. I'm proud of you."
"Thank you, my dear."
"But if you think this means I'm going easy on you tonight on the Scrabble board…"
"Don't be ridiculous." He wrapped an arm around both his wife and his client. "Dennis, how long has it been since you had a really good New York-style pizza?"
"Ben, I've been in prison."
"Right. Well, as it happens, Mario's is still open…"
42
Ben probably should have stayed home. It always took at least a day to recover from a major trial. Or even a minor one. To transition from having one event totally subsume your life to reintegrating everything that used to be important was not something that could happen in a day. He knew many attorneys who got on a plane and disappeared for at least a week after a trial. Granted, the actual trial had ended some months ago, but Ben had been just as obsessed in the following months as he had been when he was going to the courtroom every day.
Christina was ready to get out of town. He knew that. She was still reminding him that they had never actually gone on that honeymoon he'd promised.
Maybe later. For now, he needed to catch up. Hadn't had lunch at Goldie's for a while. Or played the piano. Worked the Sunday Times crossword. And if he just spent more time studying those Q-without-U words, he was sure he could finally beat Christina…
There was a knock on his office door.
"Loving!"
Ben jumped up and ran to greet him. He had only seen him a few times since Mike and the rest of the police officers rescued him from Shaw and his thugs. Loving had asked for a leave of absence and taken some time off.
"How are you?"
"I'm… tryin' to get myself together."
"Still feeling a little shaky?"
Loving paused a moment, as if struggling to come up with the right words. Ben knew he was not typically a garrulous sort, especially when it came to anything as squishy as his personal feelings. "Yeah. It's hard."
"I don't doubt it."
"I totally cracked up out there," he said. "I cracked like a… a… cracker."
"Oh, you did not."
"You weren't there, Skipper. I did."
"Mike told me he was very impressed by your fortitude."
"He was bein' nice. I lost it. Hallucinated."
"The sun was hot-"
"Thought I was at death's door. And I hadn't even been out that long. It was all in my mind."
"You'd been knocked on the head. Given a drug. They had you for three days."
"I don't even remember that. But I sure remember what happened when I woke up. I was a basket case. Loserville." Loving shook his head. It was an amazing thing, seeing this gruff barrel-chested man talk in such an introspective, emotional manner. "I've been through a lot in the last few years-most of it thanks to you. Embarrassment. Beatings. Even torture. None of that was fun. But when that guy poured the cesium on my chest, I went to pieces."
"Anyone would, Loving."
"No, not like that. I–I think I've been hidin' somethin'. For too long. Somethin' knocks me down and I get right back up, like I'm one of those inflatable toys you hit but they swing right back up at you. I'm not an inflatable toy!"
"I know that, Loving."
"And this time, I'm not bouncin' back up again. I need some time."
"Take all the time you need. Please."
He took a deep breath. "I'm goin' to Colorado. To the Shambhala Meditation Center. Where Joslyn Thomas went." He looked at Ben squarely. "I'm gonna learn to meditate."
Ben resisted asking if this was Christina's idea. He already knew the answer. "You?"
"I wanna find some peace of mind."
"Well… we all do."
"I'm on a journey. And this breakdown has shown me there's some stuff inside me that I haven't gotten in touch with. I wanna know the real me. I wanna understand my life purpose."
"I thought it was, you know. Working with me."
Loving gave him a long look. "I've been driven by fear. How else do you explain what happened to me? How else do you explain all those crazy conspiracy theories I've been chasin' all these years? I've been readin' this book." He pulled it out of his back pocket. "How Not to Be Afraid of Your Life. Written by this gal who practices Buddhist meditation. She's really smart. Look at her picture on the cover. See how happy she is? She's runnin' the retreat."
"Sounds splendid."
"So that's why I'm here. I have something I want to ask you."
"Like I said, take all the time you need."
"Would you come with me?"
Ben's lips parted. "Me? At that… retreat thingie?"
Loving gripped him firmly by the shoulders. "I think it would be good for you, Skipper."