There was nothing, though. No targets, the controller advised. They flew almost to Frankfurt and then turned back. Cassada’s plane went from black, to gun color, to silver as he swung from one side to the other in the brilliant light.
They had spoken hardly a word. The earth lay immense and small beneath them, the occasional airfields white as scars. Down across the Rhine. The strings of barges, smaller than stitches. The banks of poplar. Then a city, glistening, struck by the first sun. Stuttgart. The thready streets, the spires, the world laid bare.
A light mist was still rising off the fields when they landed. They walked in together.
“What a day!” Cassada said.
Isbell agreed. His body felt empty. His mind was washed clean.
“Ingolstadt,” Cassada said. “Have you ever noticed Ingolstadt, passing over?”
Isbell nodded. “They’re all different. They have their own shapes. Some of them you can recognize just seeing part of, through a hole in the clouds. Ingolstadt’s like that.”
“I look down and think how I’d like to be there—even if I don’t really want to. Do you know what I mean? You’ve… have you ever been there?”
“A couple of times.”
“What’s it like?”
“I don’t know,” Isbell said. “It’s not as great as it was this morning.”
Cassada was looking around, taking things in with his sea-blue eyes, the flawless day.
“You could say that about everyplace,” he commented.
It was true, Isbell thought, exactly. He felt a desire to reply in kind. It was not often you found anyone who could say things.
“You’re flying a good wing, Robert,” he said.
“I guess I ought to be.”
“What does that mean?”
“I’ve had enough practice.”
“Don’t be too impatient,” Isbell said. “Just be ready. You know Napoleon’s maxim: every soldier carries a marshal’s baton in his knapsack.”
There was a silence.
“Whatever that means,” Cassada said.
They went to breakfast in the small dining room behind the kitchen at the club. The waitress was sleepy. It was not much past seven. They played with the forks, not talking, waiting to be served. In the air was the warm smell of food.
“It’s been a year or more, hasn’t it?” Isbell said.
Cassada pressed a tine into the tablecloth.
“Yes, sir,” he said.
“It doesn’t seem it.”
“No?”
“Seems longer to you?”
“Some of it’s been great,” Cassada said. “The flying. Gunnery.”
“So, what is it you’re not getting?”
“I’ve learned some things.”
“I’m sure you have. You’re going to get your chance,” Isbell said. “Don’t worry. It’ll come.”
“Yes, sir. I know. It’s in my knapsack or something.”
“You’re going to win. You’ll win big one day.”
“You think so?”
“Everything you want.”
Cassada was pressing a small square into the tablecloth, two parallels, then connecting them.
“Captain,” he said, “it was great flying with you today. All I want is for someone around here, someone with authority, to have a little confidence in me, that’s all.”
“I have confidence in you. Just be ready.”
“For what?”
“For everything you expect to be.”
“You amaze me, Captain.”
“Why?”
“It’s nothing like that. We’re talking about two different things. I don’t know. I just don’t understand, I guess.”
There was suddenly a great deal Isbell wanted to say. They could have talked. They could have pushed the plates aside and leaned forward on their elbows, talking while the dust floated sideways through bolts of sunshine and the eggs turned cold, but it didn’t quite happen. The moments don’t fulfill themselves always. Somehow they started eating in silence and it was impossible to begin.
Chapter VIII
Phipps came running out into the cold, looking around frantically. Damn it, he thought—the lot was empty. There was one car. He ran towards it.
“Hey, hold up!” he shouted, struggling to get his arm in the flight jacket sleeve. Exhaust was coming up in back of the car. He tried to open the door. It was locked. He beat on the window with his palm.
Cassada reached across and unlocked the door. Phipps slid in beside him.
“Thanks. I was afraid everybody had gone. Jesus, this seat’s cold.”
Cassada was working the choke to get the engine warmed up. Minutes went by, it seemed.
“We’re going to be late,” Phipps said.
“We’ll make it.” Cassada looked sleepy. His eyes were red.
“It’s four minutes till.”
“I know.”
He began to back up, rolling the window down to see. He pulled onto the road and rubbed at the frosted windshield with his fist. Hunched over, looking through a slit of clear glass at the bottom, the width of a pencil, he began to drive. Phipps, wiping at the windshield himself, said, “We’re not going to make it at this rate.”
Cassada speeded up a little.
“Can you see?” Phipps said.
“It’s the back I’m worried about. I can’t tell if anyone’s behind us.”
“Take a chance.”
Cassada shifted into third.
“I don’t want to get a ticket,” he said. “The major pulls your license.”
“You won’t need a license if we’re late.”
They began to go faster. Phipps looked at his watch.
“Open it up, Robert. We’ve got two minutes.”
The clear area on the glass was growing bigger. As they turned past the end of the runway they were doing forty-five.
“I’m just waiting to hear a siren,” Cassada murmured.
Phipps rolled down the window to look back.
“There’s nobody.”
They were going fifty.
“About a minute and a half,” Phipps warned.
“I know.”
“Come on.”
“They’ll throw us in jail. It’s a twenty-five-mile limit.”
“I tell you nobody’s behind us.”
The heater was finally beginning to work. Phipps sniffed the warming air.
“What have you been carrying in this car? Flowers?”
“What?”
“It smells like it.”
They had swerved in behind the hangar. The doors flew open and they ran for it. As they sat down, Isbell looked at his watch.
“That’s cutting it pretty close,” he commented.
Cassada was sitting at the end of the first row, head down. He glanced up but did not answer. His head was down later, too, when Wickenden gathered the flight. Cassada listened like a boxer between rounds, head bent forward, hands dropped loosely between his thighs, as if his manager were telling him things there was no sense paying attention to, in thirty seconds he’d be in there alone again. He yawned with his mouth closed.
It was perfume, thought Phipps suddenly. That was the smell.
“You must be making out all right in Munich,” he said to Cassada later.
“Munich? Yeah, it’s a good town.”
“Where do you go?”
“I’ll tell you sometime.”
The truth was he wandered around Munich at night. He went to the Regina Bar, the Bongo, the Coliseum once or twice. He hadn’t the money or time to cut a swath and in fact had not found a girl. The perfume was from a girl he’d driven home, a girl he would never want to be seen with.