On China Air’s screens, however, CNN’s “War in America” held little hope, the updates from Homeland Defense Director Hawthorne admitting they still hadn’t found the terrorist submarine. The department had received so many false reports and predictions of the sub’s whereabouts from rumor-rife refugees that, Hawthorne said — sensibly, thought Riser — the only “updates” about the midget sub from now on would be of its “confirmed demise.” Clever, too, Charlie acknowledged as he washed down another of the cerulean-blue Zopiclone pills that would take him out of the savage world, at least for the duration of the flight, back to the happy world of his sweet Mandy.
His recurring image was of her shrieking with delight as he took her on a horse ride along the wide, white strand of Cannon Beach. The breeze in their faces, the white-slashed blue of the Oregon surf pounding down, exhausting itself in floods of lacy foam that swirled about his feet, the gulls screeching, were so real, he believed he could smell the sea as Mandy laughed, urging him on, “C’mon, Daddy, giddy-up, fast twot, faster!”
By the time the flight attendant had begun to distribute the first-class section’s meal, Charles was asleep, smiling, to the unspoken amusement of the attendant who switched off his TV console, the faces of wanted terrorists gone in an instant.
“If only it was that easy,” said the passenger in the seat adjacent Riser’s.
“Pardon?” said the attendant.
The passenger pointed at the blank screen. “If only we could get rid of those bastards so easily.”
It was a strict government policy, adopted by all the airline and other industries these days, that employees not become involved in any “dialogue that might offend specific religious, political, and/or minority groups.”
The flight attendant looked at the passenger. “I’m afraid I can’t comment, sir. Have you ever heard of Cofer Black?”
“No, who’s he?”
“Used to be one of George Bush’s inner circle at the White House, and he said when we’re finished with those terrorists, they’re gonna have flies walking across their eyeballs.”
“I like it!” said the passenger, passing his menu back to her.
“I should tell you,” she said, “it’s not on the menu, but if you prefer we have a vegetarian casserole.”
“Fuck the vegetarian. I’ll have the steak. Where’s it from?”
“Nebraska. U.S. First grade.”
“There you go!”
As Charles Riser was heading back to the United States, Commander John Rorke was leaving it on a military transport, not a commercial airline, his thoughts for the moment not on the coming mission but on Alicia Mayne, whom he decided to write.
Dear Alicia,
I hope you’re feeling a lot better than when I visited you in the hospital. I feel a terrible sense of responsibility for what happened to you, wracking my brains for what I could have done differently. My mom and dad were fond of saying, “Everything works out for the best.” Can’t say I feel that way — sure as heck don’t feel that way after the last little while. Seems like the roof has fallen in on us. My uncle Leroi in Panama City (the city in Florida) called the other night on my way to L.A. and said he was a boy when the Japanese attacked Pearl Harbor, and after that he grew up thinking nothing worse could happen to America! I guess I’ll never get over the shock of what’s happened since 9/11—so many good men and women lost — and then what’s happened to you. One thing it’s taught me, Alicia, and I guess a lot of others, is that life really is short, and we shouldn’t put things off till tomorrow and should tell people who mean a lot to us just how much they mean to us, before it’s too late.
Which brings me to thinking about you. Truth is, I’ve been thinking about you all the time. I love you. There, I’ve said it. I used to laugh at those guys who said they knew it right away — the moment they saw her, etc. Well, I knew it the day you set foot on the boat. I’d heard about this knockout woman scientist we were going to have to take aboard, and at first I thought, “Right, that’s all I need, a boatful of horny guys and a good-looking woman — I’ll have to walk around with a bucket of water.” And then, like the old Beatle song says, “When I saw her standing there.” Sounds corny, I know, but I hope you can make allowances. I’m trained to run a boat, not write love letters, but I guess that’s what this is — a love letter. I’ve never written one before — I guess that shows — but I wanted to get this down before I get to my new posting. You’ll understand I can’t tell you where it is — except it’s out of the States. Big clue!
I’ve got to hurry this up — we’re about to land and, knowing the Navy, I’ll be expected to get right to my job. It’s true, Alicia. I’ve never written anyone like this in my life. Okay, I’ve had a few girlfriends, some pretty serious, I guess, but you’re the one. I love you, and if you’ll have me, I want to tie the knot. How original is that (!), but I’m rushed at the moment and I have to submit this to the unit censor, it being wartime and all, so I really can’t tell you about where or when we’ll see each other again, honey, but hold tight — God willing, I’ll be back.
All my love, John
P.S. Maybe my mom and dad were right — at least for me.
Love, John
He read over it quickly — damn, too many “I guesses,” he thought. It made him sound like an “aw shucks” grade school kid. But at least he’d told her. Before leaving the States he had wrestled with the idea of telling Alicia that her burns would heal, that he’d be there for her, that it truly didn’t matter to him — and it didn’t. But he’d decided against it. It would have sounded as if he was loving her out of pity, out of a sense of responsibility for her terrible ordeal.
As the military transport Hercules landed under fighter escort in Okinawa, John Rorke looked out of the window to see if he could locate the sub base, but the Perspex was streaked with rain, the lush fields of the Japanese island a dark, greenish smudge. The roar of the Herk’s engines was so loud he wondered how the bus drivers could stand it. Much better, whatever the danger, to be on the standoff weapons platform, the USS Encino he’d been ordered to. The Los Angeles sub’s mission was to position itself in the Bashi Strait between the Philippines and Taiwan, well off the McCain’s carrier group’s eastern flank, which was coming out of the South China Sea.
It was only after he’d submitted the letter to the base censor, confident that the censor would not see any indication of where one of the U.S.’s supreme weapons platforms had been posted, that Rorke realized Alicia probably wouldn’t be able to read it without someone holding it for her, since her hands, like her entire upper torso, were swathed in bandages. Well, he thought, so what if someone had to read it to her? Better to have said it than not. If she didn’t feel the same about him … Better to have loved and lost than never to have loved at all. He could see people saying he wanted to marry her out of pity, and how could a man want a woman who was so — well, disfigured? But all he knew was what he felt. He loved her. Now, all he had to do was survive.
CHAPTER THIRTY-SEVEN
If the sub’s diesel-electric capability of attaining absolute silence made for evasion of sonar signals amid the cacophony of competing ocean noise, the four terrorists banging and otherwise working at the sub’s stern did exactly the opposite. Which was why the sub’s captain continued to exhort his men to hurry. Aussie could see that at this rate, by the time the patrol craft out of Keystone or an antisub plane from Whidbey Island reached the sub, it would have jettisoned the basket.