“Is that his real name?”
“I think it is. All the kids in his family named after holidays. I think that’s what he told me once.”
“What’s his story?” I asked again.
“He a terror,” Mouse said.
“What’s that supposed to mean?”
“He kilt a whole town once.”
“A what?”
“Whole town. Men, women, chirren. All of ’em. Every last one.” Mouse sneered thinking about it. “He kilt the dogs and the water buffaloes an’ burnt down all the houses an’ half the trees an’ crops. Mothahfuckah kilt every last thing ’cept a couple’a chickens an’ one baby girl.”
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“In Vietnam?”
“I guess it was. He didn’t give the town a name. Maybe it was Cambodia or Laos maybe. Shit, the way he tell it, it could’a been anywhere. They just put that boy in a plane an’ give him a para-chute an’ a duffel bag full’a guns an’ bombs. Wherever he land people had to die.”
“How do you know him?”
“Met once down in Compton. There was some guys thought they was bad messin’ wit’ a friend’a his. The dudes called themselves my friends an’ so I looked into it. When I fount out what they was doin’ I jes’ smiled at Christmas. He taught ’em a lesson an’ we went out to eat sour pork an’ rice.”
I was sure that there was more to the story but Raymond didn’t brag about his crimes much anymore.
“So he left the army after killin’ that village?”
“Yeah. I guess if you do sumpin’ like that it’s a li’l hard to live wit’. For him.”
“You wouldn’t take it hard if you had to kill like that?”
“I wouldn’t never have to kill like that, Easy. I ain’t never gonna be in no mothahfuckah’s army, jumpin’ out no plane, killin’ li’l brown folk. If I kill a town it’a be for me. An’ if it’s for me then I’ma be fine wit’ it.”
I rolled up my window then, the chill of Raymond’s words being enough for me.
For a long while I remained silent, even in my mind.
When we got to L.A. I asked Raymond where he was going.
“Home,” he said.
“With Etta and LaMarque?”
“What other home you evah hear me talk about?”
That was how I learned that his exile was over.
“You know what to do at Mike’s?”
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“What, now I’m stupid too?”
“Come on, Ray. You know how serious I am about this.”
“Sure I know what to do. When you get there we gonna be ready for Mr. Lee.”
I dropped him off at maybe three in the morning. He gave me the keys for his place on Denker. I went there, scaled the stairs, and climbed into bed, fully dressed. The sheets smelled of Georgette. I inhaled her tomato garden bouquet and was suddenly awake. Not the wakefulness of a man aroused by the memory of a woman. Georgette’s scent had aroused me but I had Christmas Black’s story in my mind.
I was so close to death at that time that my senses were at-tuned to its intricacies. My country was sending out lone killers to murder women and children in far-flung nations. While I slept in the security of Mouse’s hideaway innocent people were dying. And the taxes I paid on my cigarettes and the taxes they took out of my paycheck were buying the bullets and gassing up the bombers.
It was a state of mind, sure, but that didn’t mean that I was wrong. All those years our people had struggled and prayed for freedom and now a man like Christmas, who came from a whole line of heroes, was just another killer like all those white men had been for us.
Is that what we labored for all those years? Was it just to have the right to step on some other poor soul’s neck? Were we any better than the white men who lynched us in the night if we killed Easter Dawn’s mother and father, sister and brother, cousins and friends? If we could kill like that, everything that we fought for would be called into question. If we became the white men we hated and who hated us, then we were nowhere, nowhere at all.
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The sorrow in my heart finally came to rest on Feather. I thought about her dying and so I picked up the phone and called the long-distance operator.
“Allo?” Bonnie said in the French accent that came out whenever she was on the job in either Europe or Africa.
“It’s me.”
“Oh . . . hi, baby.”
“Hey . . . how’s Feather doin’?”
“The doctors say that she’s very, very sick.” She paused for a moment to hold back the grief. I took in a great gulp of air. “But they believe that with the proper transfusions and herbs, they can arrest the infection. And you don’t have to worry about the money for a few months. They’ll wait that long.”
“Thank Mr. Cham for that,” I said with hardly any bitterness in the words.
“Easy.”
“Yeah?”
“We have to talk, honey.”
“Yes. Yes we do. But right now I got my hands full with tryin’
to get Feather’s hospital bills paid without havin’ medical bills of my own.”
“I, I got your message,” she said, not identifying the man who answered the phone. “Is everything okay?”
“All you got to do is call EttaMae before you come back to the house. There’s a man I got to talk to first.”
“It’s been hard on me too, Easy. I had to do what I’ve done just to get —”
“Is Feather there?”
“No. She’s in the hospital, in a room with three other children.”
“There a phone in there?”
“Yes.”
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“Can I have the number?”
“Easy.”
“The number, Bonnie. Whatever we feelin’ it cain’t touch what’s goin’ on with her.”
“ h e l l o ? ”
“It’s your daddy, sugar,” I said.
“Daddy! Daddy! Where are you?”
“At Uncle Raymond’s. How are you, baby?”
“The nurses are so nice, Daddy. And the other girls with me are very sick, sicker than me. And they don’t speak English but I’m learning French ’cause they’re just too tired to learn a new language. One girl is named Antoinette like the queen and one is Julia . . .”
She sounded so happy but after a short while she was tired again.
“ h e l l o ? ”
“It’s me, Jackson.”
“Easy, do you know what time it is?”
It was four forty-seven by my watch.
“Were you asleep?” I asked. Jackson Blue was a night owl.
He’d party until near dawn and then read Voltaire for breakfast.
“No, but Jewelle is.”
“Sorry. You made any progress on those bonds?”
“I put the numbers through a telex in the foreign department.
They good to go, man. Good to go.”
“How much?”
“The one you told me about is eight thousand four hunnert eighty-two dollars and thirty-nine cent. That’s before fees.”
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see Haffernon putting his life on the line for money like that. So it had to be the letter.
“Jackson.”
“Yeah, Ease?”
“You ever hear of a guy name of Joe Cicero? They call him Chickpea.”
“Never heard of him but he got to be a literate son of a bitch.”
“Why you say that?”
“ ’Cause the first Cicero, the Roman statesman, was called Chickpea. That’s what Cicero means, only in the old Latin they had hard c’s so you called it ‘Kikero.’ ”
“Yeah. He got a kick all right.”
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Idreamed that I was a dead man in a coffin underground.
Down there nobody could get to me but I could see everything. Feather was playing in the yard, Jesus and Benny had a child that looked like me. Bonnie lived with Joguye Cham on a mountaintop in Switzerland that somehow overlooked the continent of Africa. Across the street from the cemetery there was a jail and in it were all the people, living and dead, who had ever tried to harm my loved ones.