He reached out, thumbed over a tumbler, spoke to the secretary in the outer office.
"I'm sorry I kept you so long. I forgot the time."
"That's all right, sir," said the secretary. "There's a visitor to see you, Mr. Fowler."
"Fowler?"
"Yes, the gentleman from Jupiter."
"I know," said Webster wearily. "Ask him to come in."
He had almost forgotten Fowler and the threat the man had made.
He stared absent-mindedly at his desk, saw the kaleidoscope lying where he'd left it. Funny toy, he thought. Quaint idea. A simple thing for the simple minds of long ago. But the kid will get a boot out of it.
He reached out a hand and grasped it, lifted it to his eyes. The transmitted light wove a pattern of crazy colour, a geometric nightmare. He twirled the tube a bit and the pattern changed. And yet again His brain wrenched with a sudden sickness and the colour burned itself into his mind in a single flare of soul-twisting torture.
The tube dropped and clattered on the desk. Webster reached out with both hands and clutched at the desk edge.
And through his brain went the thought of horror: What a toy for a kid!
The sickness faded and he sat stock-still, brain clear again, breath coming regularly.
Funny, he thought. Funny that it should do a thing like that. Or could it have been something else and not the kaleidoscope at all. A seizure of some sort. Heart acting up. A bit too young for that and he'd been checked just recently.
The door clicked and Webster looked up.
Fowler came across the room with measured step, slowly, until he stood across from the desk.
"Yes, Fowler?"
"I left in anger," Fowler said, "and I didn't want it that way. You might have understood, but again you might not have. It was just that I was upset, you see. I came from Jupiter, feeling that finally all the years I'd spend there in the domes bad been justified, that all the anguish I had felt when I saw the men go out somehow had paid off. I was bringing news, you understand, news that the world awaited. To me it was the most wonderful thing that could have happened and I thought you'd see it, too. I thought the people would see it. It was as if I had been bringing them word that Paradise was just around the corner. For that is what it is, Webster, that is what it is."
He put his hands 'flat upon the desk and leaned forward, whispering.
"You see how it is, don't you, Webster? You understand a bit."
Webster's hands were shaking and he laid them in his lap, clenched them together until the fingers hurt.
"Yes," he whispered back. "Yes, I think I know."
For he did know.
Knew more than the words had told him. Knew the anguish and the pleading and bitter disappointment that lay behind the words. Knew them almost as if he'd said the words himself – almost as if he were Fowler.
Fowler's voice broke in alarm. "What's the matter, Webster? What's the trouble with you?"
Webster tried to speak and the words were dust. His throat tightened until there was a knot of pain above his Adam's apple.
He tried again and the words were low and forced. "Tell me, Fowler. You learned a lot of things out there. Things that men don't know or know imperfectly. Like high grade telepathy, maybe... or... or-"
"Yes," said Fowler, "a lot of things. But I didn't bring them back with me. When I became a man again, that was all I was. Just a man, that's all. None of it came back. Most of it just hazy memories and a... well, you might call it yearning."
"You mean that you haven't one of the abilities you had when you were a Loper?"
"Not a single one."
"You couldn't, by chance, be able to make me understand a thing you wanted me to know. Make me feel the way you feel."
"Not a chance," said Fowler.
Webster reached out a hand, pushed the kaleidoscope gently with his finger. It rolled forwards, then came to rest again.
"What did you come back for?" asked Webster.
"To square myself with you," said Fowler. "To let you know I wasn't really sore. To try to make you understand that I had a side, too. Just a difference of opinion, that's all. I thought maybe we might shake on it."
"I see. And you're still determined to go out and tell the people?"
Fowler nodded. "I have to, Webster. You must surely know that. It's... it's... well, almost a religion with me. It's something I believe in. I have to tell the rest of them that there's a better world and a better life. I have to lead them to it."
"A messiah," said Webster.
Fowler straightened. "That's one thing I was afraid of. Scoffing isn't-"
"I wasn't scoffing," Webster told him, almost gently.
He picked up the kaleidoscope, polishing its tube with the palm of his hand, considering. Not yet , he thought. Not yet .
Have to think it out. Do I want him to understand me as well as I understand him?
"Look, Fowler," he said, "lay off a day or two. Wait a bit. Just a day or two. Then let us talk again."
"I've waited long enough already."
"But I want you to think this over: A million years ago man first came into being – just an animal. Since that time he had inched his way up a cultural ladder. Bit by painful bit he has developed a way of life, a philosophy, a way of doing things. His progress has been geometrical. Today he does much more than he did yesterday. To-morrow he'll do even more than he did today. For the first time in human history, Man is really beginning to hit the ball. He's just got a good start, the first stride, you might say. He's going a lot farther in a lot less time than he's come already.
"Maybe it isn't as pleasant as Jupiter, maybe not the same at all. Maybe humankind is drab compared with the life forms of Jupiter. But it's man's life. It's the thing he's fought for. It's the thing he's made himself. It's a destiny he has shaped.
"I hate to think, Fowler, that just when we're going good we'll swap our destiny for one we don't know about, for one we can't be sure about."
"I'll wait," said Fowler. "Just a day or two. But I'm warning you. You can't put me off. You can't change my mind."
"That's all I ask," said Webster. He rose and held out his hand, "Shake on it?" he asked.
But even as he shook Fowler's hand, Webster knew it wasn't any good. Juwain philosophy or not, mankind was heading for a showdown. A showdown that cou1d be even worse because of The Juwain philosophy. For the mutants wouldn't miss a bet. If this was to be their joke, if this was their way of getting rid of the human race, they wouldn't overlook a thing. By to-morrow morning every man, woman and child somehow or other would have managed to look through a kaleidoscope. Or something else. Lord only knew how many other ways there were.
He watched until Fowler had closed the door behind him, then walked to the window and stared out. Flashing on the skyline of the city was a new advcrtising sign – one that had not been there before. A crazy sign that made crazy coloured patterns in the night. Flashing on and off as if one were turning a kaleidoscope.
Webster stared at it, tight-lipped.