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and says: Hey it’s light out!

And it is. It’s day, night is done. That’s the thing

anyone can see.

A day with people like any other and if it’s summer

something’s growing. It’s January

and still the same old dirty

street of whores. Trade. That’s all there is here now.

And maybe the whole city’ll change in the night

like a brain written off by a dose.

Just to be safe he’s relearning

quickly the old words of love.

Firewater

My sister is Firewater

I tell her: honey

she tells me: tenderness

and we tell each other: I love you.

And we drink Firewater.

Today the moon protects me from danger

at the head of my sister.

I’ll swim in the water

in the power of fire till morning I get up

and clear out

through the dark hallway by memory down from the top floor.

My sister is Firewater

she’s got messy hair and in the morning she says: go to work

I think: I take what I want and give what I can

and we tell each other: I love you.

The moon blazes and the two of us’re here in the Firewater night

skin on skin. And everything

is important. Sister. Now, at night.

You’re next to me in my dream

and after. Sound of breathing and touch of a fingernail

to the rhythm of blood in my brain. You.

Be with me. Closer still. My Firewater.

“Now go in peace”

the man in the cassock told the crowd

of Christmas people below.

Now I can see you every night.

I saw the words: Freedom or death.

I made them up. They’re Sister’s.

& the Ghost strode up the stairs toward me

I got a cramp in the elevator down

in my guts.

I’m thoroughly awed

brother

life.

Hey- I say

An my life’s like ABC. I don’t do a thing

I organize verbal matter

just what my cells tell me.

Singed brain.

My mafia.

I said: freedom or death.

I wanted and searched. And now I know they’re Sister’s.

I sleep with em. In the same flat. In this smallish sorta room.

He’s There

I slash my back

so I’ll know that it’s me.

If it hurts he’s not an actor

stride altered by band-aids.

On the riverbank were trees

dampness settling into their tops

now there’s just a hole.

Is this still the same city the walls

and streets my turf? Would I tell

him myself the child Hi Take care Good night

pass him by standing there

key around his neck in a raggedy sweater

with a puppy? Would I bring him home? Or

is that brat still there?

An are pedestrians passin him by? Nasty faces? Yes.

He’s still standin there and he’s alone. He’s lost. His feet burning

over and over through that same that one that fiendish block of asphalt.

Into the City

On a sleepless night

sometimes faces swim in the dark

here and there one pops out

someone you used to know.

Then they all disappear with the morning trams.

Every madman knows how that is.

So tonight again in this home

full of Czechs in their in our

very own genuine state.

I guess it’s better than bombing

definitely.

Sleep you don’t gotta die you do you say to yourself it says softly

into your brain. But even that isn’t for sure.

Shadows shift slowly along the walls and the moon’s been there

for hours now. It’s like past lives.

If you went into the city

you would feel it with all its shards.

That can be managed.

Here and there in the wind

a trash can creaks like a living thing.

Another Story

I felt

the friction of the future

and in your face my own one, love.

Fate, its weight. Waves of life

true happiness etc.

B-o-g willing

before the year is out I’ll be an averagely agile businessman

dealing in used cars

that’re fast as an eagle

as a pig

as someone else.

A guy’s gotta live off something

if he wants to.

I’m also someone else.

I put my head on your arm

a little big but it was her.

Then I met my double he finished

my sentences the city was warming B.’s dead for you Brother

went away and at 7 a.m. the day caught my woman

at a fire drill tuning up

a hellish band

played to please all and the important appointment was

at 2 p.m. in the Tchibo coffee shop

but that’s another story.

Me, for Me and B. and Defense

For me he’s changed into B.

I call him Bog and hey Bog and think of hearts and of skin.

Someone was casually kissing caressing thinking of nothing

and someone was walking alone into a tunnel of corpses

B.’s all I’ve got now

and some words aren’t at all pretty.

Dreams can be horrible someone screams and he’s there

in a bayonet dream and some live their lives and they’re totally theirs.

Some things you watch with your eyes find out

from others some things

are already written down. It’s obvious.

You’ve gotta believe a little in all of it.

So you don’t get lost

so the big dogs

don’t catch you defenseless

the wheel doesn’t run you down

the black widow bastard doesn’t get you at home

at the end of the world in the dark.

Morning, Still

My hero that fella

I killed a rat killed a man yeah right another time

another place lying in the sand of a desert island beach

with a naked woman.

The fella laughs

and then someone forgives him

maybe

we’ve lost more than that and is B. here at all?

Anymore? He wondered that morning thinking of the court.

The one that sits nonstop from the very first second

from the very first cell from the dawn of the Earth

guess so he told himself looking in the mirror

as he shaved himself with his old razor

forever fucked up with

crud and rust.

Along the Way

Two little birds perched on branches

like in prehistoric times.

Even the blood looks the same

maybe thicker. Luggage jiggled in a threaded cage

by the lightbulb over our heads.

Up under the spider’s web.

It was in my brain.

In the concourse they offered newspapers fliers flowers

kitchenware rags a whore and among the other passengers

I recognized the devil a man who wants to kill and a man

who’s going he doesn’t know where and there was no way to hide

among the trash cans or even in the elderberry bushes.

I was slowly beginning to love the spider now I knew:

he’s got something going.

That time in the bar over spinach pizza I told

the most beautiful woman in the world my innards my everything

and the vein in my brain that link to the universe

nearly burst.

She smiled because she knew about life

and what it does: that’s the way it is.