“I was brought to Gor as white-silk,” I said. “I was red-silked in the house of Tenalion, Tenalion of Ar.”
“I know the house,” said Astrinax. “What I have in mind is the nature of your social, economic, and political relationships to men.”
“I am not sure I understand,” I said. “I think that certain relationships, involving certain intentions, prospects, efforts, plans, ambitions, and such, would have been typical for a young woman of my background, position, wealth, and class.”
“But perhaps not for others?” said Astrinax.
“Probably not for all others,” I said.
“Tell me something of it,” said Astrinax.
“I was of the upper classes on my world,” I said.
“You look well in your collar,” said Astrinax.
“Thank you, Master,” I said. “I belonged to a group of young women chosen, among other things, for their beauty.”
“Slaves?” said Astrinax.
“Perhaps,” I said. “We were privileged. We were to be sought by men, and would make judicious choices amongst them, seeking thereby our advantage, bartering our beauty for advancement, for greater wealth, more secure position, more power, such things.”
“You were calculating in such matters,” said Astrinax. “You were selling yourself for profit, for gain.”
“Yes, Master,” I said.
“In Gorean we have a word for that,” said Astrinax.
“Master?” I said.
“‘Free woman’,” he said.
“Men must try to please us, must pay for our meals, our entertainments, and such,” I said.
“There is a politics involved in such things,” said Astrinax.
“Yes,” I said.
“And to achieve your ends,” said Astrinax, “you would do what seemed useful, flatter, pretend, flirt, intrigue, invite, and such.”
“Yes, Master,” I said.
“Good,” he said. “And lie?”
“I am no longer permitted to lie, Master,” I said, frightened.
“But then,” he said.
“Yes, Master,” I said.
“You are not unattractive,” said Astrinax.
“Thank you, Master,” I said.
“And the men whom you knew had little or no experience with female slaves,” said Astrinax.
“No, Master,” I said.
“Accordingly then,” said Astrinax, “you must have been extremely attractive to them.”
“I think so, Master,” I said.
“They knew no better,” said Astrinax.
“No, Master,” I said. Tears came to eyes.
“Do not be upset,” said Astrinax. “You now have promise, even as a slave.”
“You are much more beautiful than when I bought you,” said Menon. “You are becoming slave-beautiful, slave-exciting. Those young men who found you beautiful then, as you were then, on your own world, would scream with pleasure if they could see you now, as you are, as a slave. Slavery much enhances the beauty of a woman. Now, sweet Allison, those young men would sweat, and cry out, and bid recklessly for you, in the hope of bringing you into their collar.”
I put down my head.
“I gather you were a true ‘free woman’ on your world,” said Astrinax, “with all her vanities, pettinesses, impostures, ambitions, plans, manipulations, machinations, pretensions, schemes, deceits, and lies.”
“Perhaps, Master,” I said.
“But now,” he said, “you are no longer on your own world.”
“No, Master,” I said.
“It is common for free women on your world to misuse their power,” said Astrinax.
“Perhaps, Master,” I said, frightened. I trusted I would not be punished on this world for faults which might have been mine on a former world. But, still, one does not know how men will see things, and they are the masters.
“Free women on Gor,” said Astrinax, “misuse their power.”
I thought of the free woman at the tables, who had caused me such discomfiture.
“I dare not speculate, Master,” I said. “They are free, and I am a slave.”
“But stripped and collared, and thrown to a man’s feet,” said Astrinax, “they are not so different from you.”
“I dare not speculate, Master,” I said. “They are free, and I am a slave.”
“You are all women,” said Astrinax. “Nothing more.”
“Yes, Master,” I said.
“Allison,” said Astrinax, “suppose that one of your sister slaves, in the kitchen, had been given a candy, perhaps as a tip from a customer, from waiting on the tables.”
“Yes, Master?” I said.
Some of the customers, I knew, kept such small treats about their person, or in their pouches. These were usually hard candies, which might last a long time, slowly savored. Sometimes they would roll them on the floor and have a girl pursue them on all fours, putting her head down, and picking them up, gratefully, in her teeth. Sometimes they would have the girl kneel at the bench, put back her head, her eyes closed, tightly, and open her mouth, widely. She does not know, strictly, if she is to be cuffed or rewarded, but, as you may suppose, she usually has an excellent sense as to how matters will fall out. If her service is thought to have been insufficiently prompt, diligent or deferent, and she is likely to suspect that, she may be struck. “Forgive me, Master,” she then sobs, and is hastened about her duties, now intent on improving her service. At least she is not lashed. Usually, however, if so knelt, she is to be rewarded, a candy being placed in her mouth. “Thank you, Master,” she breathes, licking and kissing the hand which has deigned to bestow so precious a gift upon her. How proud she is then, the possessor of so rare a treat, and how envied she will be amongst her chain sisters!
How she will nurse that treat, making it last as long as possible!
To be sure, such tipping is frowned upon by the establishment, as the women are merely slaves.
One wonders if the free can understand how important such a tidbit, negligible from their point of view, so tiny, savory, and sweet, can be to one of your despised collar girls.
Even today such a thing is meaningful to me, and my master may or may not grant it to me, as it pleases him, but, at that time, in the place of Menon, so small a thing seemed inordinately precious, and important.
I had not had such a sweet since Earth, since my “harvesting” as one of the ill-protected, exposed, dangling fruits so easily available to slavers in the “slave orchard of Earth,” no, not since my acquisition, my capture, my routine snaring, merely another sleek, defenseless animal, ignorant and unsuspecting, easily taken as the prize of methodical hunters.
“Now,” said Astrinax, “let us suppose that the girl who has been given the candy wants to save it, to postpone the pleasure of eating it until later, perhaps to when her work is done, and hides it somewhere, perhaps in the straw of her mat, and you, unbeknownst to her, have observed this.”
“Yes, Master?” I said, warily.
“Let us further suppose that you might, unobserved, and unsuspected, and with utter impunity, steal it. Would you do so?”
I did not care for this conversation. I was much afraid, to lie, or to tell the truth.
“I must tell the truth?” I asked.
“You are a slave,” said Menon.
“And I would not be caught?” I asked.
“No,” said Astrinax.
“I am not stupid,” I said.
“Of course not,” said Astrinax.
It was well known that high intelligence was one of the properties sought in slaves. Who would want a stupid slave? Too, it was well known that highly intelligent women made the best slaves. Of all women they were the quickest to learn that the collar was truly on them, that they were now actually owned by a master, that society wholly supported and approved their condition, and that escape was impossible. They were now slaves, unqualifiedly. Too, once they had been truly knelt, their sexual drives and needs would begin to rage within them; they would become aware of their biological being and its nature, that they were biologically the properties of men; and, pursuant to these understandings and bodily changes, and knowing themselves choiceless, the collar on their necks, they yielded to their being and nature, submissive to, and responsive to, categorical male dominance, yielded helplessly and appetitiously to this, naturally, passionately, and gratefully, it being that for which they had longed for so long, that without they were incomplete, given the radical sexual dimorphism of the species.