The urge to call Erin was strong, but Nick resisted it. He hadn't wanted to admit it, but the need to hear her voice was like a living thing inside him. She brought light into his darkness. Feeling into a heart that had numbed itself to emotion. Love into a soul that had been so battered it no longer knew the meaning of the word. He'd made love to her, then let her believe he blamed her for this. He couldn't imagine how much that had hurt her. Nick figured he was getting pretty good at blaming others for his own shortcomings.
The truth of the matter was none of this was Erin 's fault. Not Stephanie's kidnapping. Not Rita's death or his daughter's spinal condition. Not his own fear of losing his heart.
The fact that Erin meant so much to him added a uniquely cruel twist to his terror. He knew what kind of woman she was. Independent to a fault. Cocky as hell. Too damn willing to put herself in the line of fire because she still believed in right and wrong, and because she still believed one good cop could make a difference.
The irony sent a harsh laugh from his throat. It was a bizarre sound in the stark silence of the office. He couldn't deny it any longer. He'd fallen in love with her. A cop! A woman with a taste for danger and a reckless streak that ran right down the center of her very pretty back.
At that moment, Nick would have sold his soul to hold her.
Suddenly the need to hear her voice overwhelmed him. He needed her. Erin didn't have to know he'd fallen in love with her. He didn't have to tell her. He wouldn't. As long as he had the strength to walk away when the time came, he'd be just fine.
Snatching up the phone, he dialed the Pioneer Motel.
A sleepy voice answered on the sixth ring.
"Room 135," Nick snapped.
"You mean the lady cop?"
His heart jolted. He hadn't identified either of them as cops when he'd checked in. "How do you know she's a cop?" he asked.
"She commandeered my truck, man. Said there was a police emergency of some kind."
Nick didn't hear the rest of the sentence. The terror inside him burgeoned into a monster, breaking free of the shackles of control. "This is Police Chief Nick Ryan. If she's still there, stop her-"
"Too late, man. She left ten minutes ago."
Nick should have realized she wouldn't sit this one out. Not when she felt responsible. Not when he hadn't bothered to tell her otherwise. Not when she already had two tons of guilt pressing down on her. "What kind of truck?" he asked.
"Blue Chevy, 1985." The clerk paused. "I am going to get my truck back, right?"
Nick disconnected, then stood abruptly, aware that he was breathing hard. Vaguely, he was aware of the roll of thunder outside. The patter of rain against the window.
She was going after DiCarlo.
Nick couldn't let her do it. Not alone. She didn't stand a chance against a man like DiCarlo. Nick couldn't let her get herself killed. Not the woman he'd come to love more than life itself.
He glanced at the wall clock. Twelve forty-five. Frank wouldn't arrive for another hour, the FBI sometime after that. If he could find the blue truck…
Not giving himself time to debate, Nick checked his sidearm, snatched up his truck keys and cell phone, and headed for the door.
Lightning split the sky, illuminating the entrance to the grain elevator fifty yards away. Erin slowed the truck and turned down the gravel drive. The monstrous structure loomed like a dinosaur grazing amidst the endless rows of corn. Ten minutes earlier, a tornado warning had been issued by the National Weather Service for the counties west of Logan Falls.
Erin figured the situation couldn't get much worse.
She flinched at a deafening crash of thunder. Stopping the truck a few yards from the yawning mouth of the entrance, she stared into the darkened interior, wishing she'd had time to formulate some kind of plan. But for the life of her, she hadn't been able to come up with anything better than what she was about to do. Offering herself up in exchange for Stephanie was the only way to save that little girl's life. No matter how Erin looked at it, the simple fact remained that DiCarlo wanted her, not Stephanie. The child was merely bait. A bargaining chip. That left the ball squarely in Erin 's court, and she didn't intend to squander the chance.
A shiver rippled through her as the first giant drops of rain splattered against her windshield. She usually didn't have any difficulty leaving her emotions behind when she stepped into her cop's suit of armor. But this situation was different. She couldn't get her focus. She couldn't stop thinking about Stephanie. She couldn't stop thinking of Nick-or set aside the cold, hard knowledge of how much was at stake for all of them.
If anything happened to that little girl, Erin would never be able to live with herself. She knew that as surely as she knew DiCarlo didn't bluff when it came to threats. If it was the last thing she did, she would get Stephanie out of this. Or else she would die trying.
Leaning across the seat, she picked up the.22 mini-revolver and slipped it into the holster strapped to her ankle. She checked the cylinder of her service revolver, then tucked it into the waistband of her jeans. She expected DiCarlo or his men to disarm her. If she was lucky, they wouldn't find the ankle holster, and she'd have something to bargain with if things got crazy.
Erin fully expected things to get crazy.
She shut down the engine and got out of the truck. The wind buffeted her, kicking up dust and small debris. Fat drops of rain thunked against the ground and pinged against the hood of the truck.
Another bolt of lightning ruptured the sky. Refusing to acknowledge the fear pounding in her chest, she started toward the entrance. She knew they were watching her. She felt their eyes tracking her, the malice surrounding her like a dark aura. She knew in an instant she could be dead. Just as she knew she didn't have a choice but to walk right into DiCarlo's trap.
She reached the entrance, breathless with adrenaline, every sense honed on her surroundings. Wind howled through the structure like a banshee. A dozen fifty -gallon drums lined the wall to her left. The darkened, windowed office stood to her right. A catwalk overhead offered yet another hiding place.
Erin 's breaths came hard and fast as the flashback pressed down on her. She fought it, forcing it back by sheer will. Easy. Breathe. Focus.
"DiCarlo!" she shouted.
Two figures stepped out of the office. A surge of adrenaline sent her hand to her weapon. Every nerve in her body screamed as she drew it from her waistband. To her horror, her hands were shaking. Easy. Breathe. Focus. Her mind chanted the words like a mantra.
"I'm a police officer," she said.
The two men wore expensive suits. Italian loafers. They watched her with flat, emotionless eyes. Bodyguards-or hired killers-she thought, and choked back a crushing wave of fear.
"Mr. DiCarlo is expecting you," one of the men said. "Drop your gun, cop."
"Not until I see the little girl." Erin held her weapon steady on the man's chest. "Now."
The two men exchanged looks.
Erin pulled the hammer back. "A hollow-point bullet won't go through that body armor you're wearing, but it will put you down," she said with a calm she didn't feel. "I won't miss a head shot. You'll be dead before you hit the ground."
The man's cheek twitched. Raising his arm, he snapped his fingers. The office door squeaked open. Erin 's heart jerked hard in her chest when she saw Stephanie being rolled out of the darkness by yet another man. The little girl's face was dirty and tear streaked, her hair mussed.
" Erin?" Stephanie said in a small voice.
"Sweetheart, I'm here," Erin replied. "Are you okay?"
"I'm scared. I want to go home."
"Everything's going to be okay."
"I want my dad."