“I’d say not. I know how much it is to become a member of this group.”
“Yes. Did you also know that seventy-five percent of that membership fee goes directly to two charities I sponsor? One is for abused children, the other for abused animals. I believe abuse to be the downfall of our society. Abuse can and does wreck the soul. If you don’t believe me about the charities, I will happily show you the books. The other twenty-five percent of the fee covers the expenses for these events. Much of which I subsidize.”
Could she just go crawl under a rock right about now? Yikes. “I’m so sorry. I didn’t mean to offend you.”
“Not at all. You didn’t. I don’t go around advertising the fact, and the reason I do have people pay that large sum is because I want to know they’re serious about it. There is a commitment level there. Even the superwealthy feel a hit at a hundred thousand dollars. It’s not something you want to throw away.”
“I would say so. But what about Iwao and his lack of sincerity? Why was he in the group? You’re not the only one to tell me that he wasn’t here for the real deal, by the way.”
“I’m sure that I’m not. Iwao needed this group. It was my hope, as it is for everyone who joins, that even though their initial intention seems apparent and good, that they discover the real reason for their involvement. Take Simon and Marco. They think they’re here because they want to lose all sense of ego by dropping the name brands and the fancy cars and all the expensive things they buy. But that’s not why they’re really here. They’re here to figure themselves and each other out. They don’t need to get rid of all that external stuff, although I always suggest it, especially at first. If you can be comfortable and happy with nothing, then you have it made. We come here with nothing and we leave with nothing. My guess is those two moments-the one of conception and the one at the point of death-may be the two happiest moments of our lives.”
“I suppose.”
“I know. I get off on tangents. Iwao joined us with the hopes of becoming my publisher and promoter in order to take what I’m doing to his country and make me what he called me the other day, ‘a superstar.’ That’s not what I’m about. I’d hoped that through being with us, Iwao would discover there is real truth in what I say and what people discover through these workshops and that it isn’t simply a dollars-and-cents game.”
“I see. You have a loyalty to Inspiritus and Rich Higgins.”
“I do. To Rich’s mother actually. Rich is new at this and sometimes we don’t see eye to eye. He can have a tendency to only think about the bottom line. But he is coming into my family, and because of that, I think I can guide him. My family and my daughter will be a part of his growth and experience.”
“You really don’t allow much to bother you.”
“No. It’s a waste of time. But what’s happened with Iwao and Mizuki does bother me. I didn’t know Mizuki at all. This was the first time that I’d met her. I’d heard of her, although she’d never joined Iwao at a workshop event.”
It was not the first time his daughter Sierra had met her, however. Nikki thought about revealing that photo to him and then decided against it.
“Do you have any idea who would want to kill them and why?”
He shook his head. “No. But as you already know, people are not always what they seem.”
“That’s the truth.”
He stood. “I better get back and see what my girls and son are up to and start the day. I like your suggestion. I think what I’ll do after breakfast is have the meditation be focused on feelings about these deaths and then we can have some discussion if people are open to it. You’re a good teacher yourself. Will you be joining us at all?”
“Maybe for a bit, but I’m having some people over for dinner tonight. In fact, I’d love it if you and your family joined us around six.”
“I think that would be wonderful. Thank you, and thank you for listening and teaching me.”
Ollie licked his hand as he got up to leave. Nikki walked him to the door and, closing it behind him, leaned against it. Yes, people definitely aren’t always who they seem to be. The question was, whose mask was the killer hiding behind?
Twenty-four
NIKKI showered, dressed, and then dropped off the applications with Hayden before heading out to do the grocery shopping for the evening affair.
“Did you find out anything?” Hayden asked.
“No. Everything looks kosher to me.”
Hayden sighed. “Good. I’m glad I could help.”
Nikki didn’t want Hayden to know what she’d learned about Kurt. If Hayden wanted to, she could read the applications herself and make her own determinations, but there was no need to rile the woman up. She’d been decent enough to let Nikki have them.
She’d tried to call Derek on her way to the store but he didn’t answer. Was he ignoring her? He wouldn’t do that. She didn’t like that in almost three days they’d hardly spoken. Was he angry with her? And what about this Sophia? Argh, Nikki was driving herself nuts with thoughts like that. It was totally ridiculous. Derek was simply busy making his deal with Vicente Salvatore and she knew that couldn’t be easy. If it were her deal, she’d have given up on the old man a while ago.
After putting the groceries away, she made herself a sandwich, allowed Ollie to eat half of it, and then tried Derek again. This time the call went straight to voicemail. Huh! Okay, then. She knew she should go down and see what was going on with the S.E.E. group and touch base with the boys. Ollie whined at her.
“You’re right. I’ve been ignoring you. Want to go for a run?”
Ollie stood up and made the sound he always did before they went on a run-it sounded kind of like a dying seal. She was never sure exactly what that meant. Either he dreaded getting up, but did it to please her. Or it was the sound of sheer joy at the prospect of stretching his long legs. It didn’t matter. She’d been planning on running with him that morning and then she’d blown it off. Now they were heading out. She’d go check out the meditation program afterward for an hour, see if she could learn anything new, then get back home and start fixing the meal.
Once on the trail, hearing her feet pound the earth beneath her as she weaved in and out of rows of grapevines, making it a game for Ollie, Nikki let go of thoughts of murder, notions of beautiful Italian women trying to scam her lover, and philosophies from New Age, old age, or whenever. It was her, the ground, and the dog-all moving together.
At one point she sprinted up the hill on the shadiest section of the vineyard. That was the best place for Chardonnay grapes. In the newest vines taking hold, small buds illuminated the ends as the sun cast down a soft, light yellow, like a baby chick’s new fuzz. As she went farther up the hill, Ollie at her feet still, the vines matured and twisted into fruitful plants with grapes filling with their sweet juices. The ends of these plants now glowed a soft green that she was certain no artist had ever captured. This scene was God’s painting.
When the pair reached the top of the hill, Nikki looked out over the Malveaux vineyards-awe-inspiring rolling hills of grapevines in all shades of greens and purples, intermixed with dark chocolate soil and almost an earthen red soil in other areas. Ollie sat down next to her, panting, also taking it in. She scratched his head. “What do you say we get some water?”
He wagged his tail and they were off again down the hill this time. As they rounded the back side of the hotel, the Dumpster that Housekeeping used glared at her. The sun beat down on the green metal. Nikki stopped in front of it. The note that Juan wrote to Iwao had never been found. It could be in the Dumpster. How hard could this be? She could just rummage around a bit. Right? Ooh, yuck! Ollie sat down and looked up at her.