The walk forward to receive the Host did not prove as much an ordeal as walking back afterwards, because they had to face the congregation. Deeply aware of John standing behind her, his solid proximity a protective gesture she appreciated, she still had to gaze to the front. She tried to school her features to show nothing but polite interest. It would be good practice.
They retook their seats and half an hour later they were free.
Although she wished to hurry down the aisle with her head down, Faith had to instead take John’s arm and greet a few people. She allowed the dowager to introduce her to her particular friends, ladies who intimidated with a look. They looked at her. Too much, though she hid the terror that clutched cold claws around her heart as well as she could manage. She’d read about these august personages, even seen one or two at a distance, the ones married to military men.
With a bold tilt of her chin she decided she had done all they had and more. She would not allow them to intimidate her. For John’s sake she would face them and answer their questions as best she could.
Mrs. Drummond-Burrell, a Queen of Almacks, the place that had dared to refuse the Duke of Wellington access when he’d turned up in the wrong clothes, gazed down her haughty nose at Faith. Nearly six feet tall, the lady had wed one of the wealthiest and best connected men in London, and she had the arrogance to prove it. “When did you make your come-out?” she demanded.
Faith didn’t stammer and she didn’t flush, but didn’t need John’s warning touch on her arm to know her reply mattered. “I did not. I’m a vicar’s daughter, ma’am, and I married from home.”
Mrs. Drummond-Burrell shot John a sharp glance. “You have been married for some time?”
Faith answered before John could take over the conversation.
“No, ma’am, I was married before.”
“I see. Anyone we would know?”
She allowed herself a faint smile. “I doubt it, ma’am. He was an officer in Lord Graywood’s regiment.” No need to mention how junior an officer. “After his death just before Waterloo, I married John.”
“I see. An interesting history.” Mrs. Drummond-Burrell gave her a long, considering stare. “Not one that fills me with confidence.”
Oh no. The disapprobation would kill any chance she had of being accepted by society’s inner circle. If John was to meet the people he needed to consolidate the earldom’s influence and wealth, she couldn’t lose. Unless she bolted. There was always that.
She had to work out her plan of escape more carefully. Her alternative, in case it should go wrong. John was better off without her. She would fight for him before she did anything of that nature.
She absolutely refused to leave him alone to face the ruin of a once-great family but she had only agreed to remain until he had no use for her any more.
“I supported the army. I worked alongside the men to remind them what it meant to win and to lose. I ministered to the sick and I took a hand in reading to the wounded.”
“Very commendable I’m sure.”
She hadn’t helped one bit. Mrs. Drummond-Burrell turned away. Faith’s heart sank.
John bent close to her and murmured in her ear. “Only the first skirmish. Hold fast.”
Yes. A campaign wasn’t won overnight.
Then the dowager took an interest in the conversation.
Seemingly absorbed talking to someone else, a small woman Faith didn’t recognise. Hardly surprising, considering how few people she knew. “I will hold visits in which my closest acquaintances will give their condolences. You may wish to attend some of these.”
“What time?” John put in.
“At two and probably all afternoon.” She glanced at John, showing him how little she appreciated his interruption. “It would be advisable,” she said in a voice lower than her usual stentorian terms.
Faith hadn’t needed her to say that. Of course it would, for the last countess and the present one not to appear at odds with each other. Appearing together in public, or as public as the dowager could manage in her state of mourning would only work for her.
She wondered why the lady would do this, when she seemed do antagonistic towards her, but decided that in the end, Family was All. It superseded everything else in the countess’s opinion.
She would do it.
Back at the house, Faith excused herself, drained by the experience and longing to put off the blacks that had dampened her spirits. The dowager showed no sign of anything but calm acceptance of their reception that morning. Not for the first time Faith wondered if she had any feelings at all. She’d lost her sons.
Charlotte and Louisa appeared quite bowed down. At least the dowager sent them to their rooms and told them she’d have refreshments brought upstairs. The necessary fast before the Eucharist had left Faith unfashionably and improperly ravenous.
She didn’t attempt to hide her pleasure when the butler informed them they could partake of a hearty breakfast at their convenience.
Opting for half an hour, the most she thought she could cope with, Faith went upstairs, only to come full tilt against a changed bedroom.
A being she could only describe as Superior straightened from her study of one of the garments laid across the bed. Taller than Faith, she had an air of stately confidence. Around thirty years of age, perhaps older and dressed in muted but excellent clothes that Faith recognised as better than the garments she had owned in the past. Any of them.
The woman swept a graceful curtsey. “Ma’am, I’m Turvey. His lordship engaged me as your maid. I regret that I arrived on the Sabbath, but I was told you wished for my services as soon as I was available.” Her attention strayed to where Robinson stood open-mouthed by Faith’s side. “I was previously engaged by Lady Honoria Howard, but she has married and chose to dispense with my services in favour of a woman engaged by her new mother-in-law.” Her cold eyes showed what she thought of that, and her sharp nose seemed to gain extra shine at the tip. Or perhaps she had moved it slightly so the light from the window glanced against it more fully.
“I see.” She had to take control for the start, but she needed this woman on her side. Easy. Easier than persuading society matrons she was one. This woman could become part of Faith’s armour. “I trust we can deal well together. Robinson here is my maid from my previous life, which was considerably more sheltered, and if you agree, she will become your assistant.”
Turvey narrowed her dark little eyes and gave Robinson a comprehensive study. “Of course, my lady, I will try to accommodate your wishes. May I enquire if you require a change of clothes?”
“Thank you. Yes, I would. I don’t plan to go out again today, and we won’t be receiving.”
“I think this would be suitable, if your ladyship agrees.” She held up the pale grey gown she had been examining. Other clothes were draped over chairs and the bed, so much that Faith wondered if they could all belong to her. Before this, she’d had a grand total of one ball gown, slightly torn and repaired, one dinner gown, half a dozen day dresses, a pelisse and a winter cloak, two bonnets and three pairs of shoes, as well as a pair of ankle boots. None of the first stare of fashion. Perfectly adequate for her needs. No longer.
A thought crossed her mind. “You must arrange this apartment as you wish, but please leave the old carpet bag where it is. It’s a kind of charm for me.”
Turvey bowed her head. “I will remember, my lady. If you desire to change...?”
“You have half an hour,” Faith said, deciding to treat this as a test to see if Turvey could produce results as impressive as she wanted. Her own dress was unspectacular, but neat as a pin. She wore her hair dressed close to her head in a severe style that only emphasised the sharp angularity of her face. Nothing gave Faith confidence that she would turn her into the great lady she needed to be.