I walked through the village, keeping to the shadows and avoiding the busy center, where someone might have spotted me near the brightly lit shop windows. Only the damn clink-clink of my right leg could have given me away. I resolved to find a way to make my walking silent once more.
When I arrived at the driveway of Kauri House I paused.
Did I really want my mother and stepfather to know what had happened to me? How could I explain my dirty and disheveled condition to them without explaining how I came to be in such a state? And could I then trust them not to pass on the knowledge to others, even accidentally? Absolute secrecy might be vital. "Loose talk costs lives" had been a wartime slogan. I certainly didn't want it costing mine.
But I urgently needed to eat, and I also wanted to wash and put on some clean clothes.
As I approached I could see that the lights were on in the stables and the staff were busily mucking out and feeding their charges.
I skirted around the house and approached down the outside of the nearest stable rectangle, trying to keep my leg as quiet as possible. Only at the very last instant did I briefly step into the light, and only then when I was sure no one was looking.
I went quickly up the stairs and let myself in to Ian Norland's unlocked flat above the stables.
I'd taken a chance that Ian would not have locked the door while he was downstairs with the horses, and I'd been right. Now I had to decide what to tell him. It had to be enough to engage his help, but amongst other things, I thought it best not to inform him that his employer was effectively trading while insolvent, something that was strictly against the law. And I didn't want to scare him into instantly calling the police. I decided that I wouldn't tell him the whole truth, but I would try not to tell him any outright lies.
While I waited for him to finish with the horses, I raided his refrigerator. Amongst the cans of beer there were precious few food items, so I helped myself to a two-liter plastic bottle of milk. It had been as much as I could do not to go into The Rice Bowl Chinese takeaway in the village on my way through. But I had every intention of convincing Ian that he needed to go there for me the minute he came up from the stables.
I'd completely finished his two liters of milk by the time I heard him climbing the stairs.
I stood tight behind the door as he came in, but he saw me as soon as he closed it. After the cut-bridle altercation of the previous Saturday, I wasn't exactly expecting a warm welcome, and I didn't get it.
"What the fuck are you doing here?" he demanded loudly.
"Ian, I need your help," I said quickly.
He looked at me closely, at my filthy and torn clothes and the stubble on my chin. "Why are you in such a mess?" he asked accusingly. "What have you been up to?"
"Nothing," I said. "I'm just a bit dirty and hungry, that's all."
"Why?" he said.
"Why what?" I said.
"Why everything?" he said. "Why are you lurking in my flat like a burglar? Why didn't you go to the house? And why are you hungry and dirty?"
"I'll explain everything," I said. "But I need your help, and I don't really want my mother to know I'm here."
"Why not?" he demanded. "Are you in trouble with the law?"
"No, of course not," I said, trying to sound affronted.
"Then why don't you want your mother to know you're here?"
What could I say that would convince him?
"My mother and I have had an argument," I said. I'd clearly failed dismally in my aim of not telling him any lies.
"What over?" he said.
"Does it matter?" I said. "You know my mother. She can argue over the smallest of things."
"Yeah, I know," he said. "But what was this particular argument about?"
I could see that he was going to be persistent. He needed an answer.
"Over the running of the horses," I said.
Now he was interested.
"Tell me."
"Can I use your bathroom first?" I asked. "I'm desperate for a shower. I don't suppose you have any spare clothes my size?"
"Where are yours?"
"In the house."
"Do you want me to fetch them?" he asked.
"How could you?" I said. "My mother would surely see."
"She's out," he said. "She and Mr. Philips have gone to some big event in London. Saw them go myself round five o'clock.All dressed up to the nines, they were. She told me she'd be back for first lot in the morning."
"But there are lights on in the house."
"For the dogs," he said. "I'll go over and let them out before I go to bed. I'll turn off the lights and lock up, then."
So I could have probably gone into the house all along and never bothered Ian. I remonstrated with myself for insufficient reconnaissance of the place before I'd come up to Ian's flat. I'd assumed my mother was at home, but I should have checked.
"But my mother's car is in the driveway," I said. I remembered having seen it as I rounded the house.
"They were collected by a big flashy car with a driver," he said. "Seems like Mrs. Kauri was the guest of honor or something."
"Will they be back tonight?"
"I don't know," he said. "All she said was she'd see me at seven-thirty in the morning."
Maybe I hadn't needed to involve Ian at all, but now that I had, could he still help me?
"Right, then," I said decisively, using my voice-of-command. "I'll go over to the house to have a shower and change while you go to the Chinese takeaway and get us both dinner. I'll have beef in black bean sauce with fried rice." I held out some money from my wallet. "And buy some milk as well. I'm afraid I've drunk yours."
He stood silently, looking at me, but he took the money.
I glanced at the clock on his wall. "I'll be back here in forty-five minutes to eat and talk."
It was nearer to fifty minutes by the time I climbed back up the stairs to Ian's flat, having enjoyed a long soak in a hot bath to ease my still-aching shoulders. And I'd brought some of my stuff with me.
"What's in the tube?" Ian asked.
"My sword," I said. "I thought it might be useful."
"For what?" he said in alarm. "I'm not doing anything illegal."
"It's OK," I said. "Calm down. I promise I won't ask you to do anything illegal."
"How about you?" he asked, still disturbed.
"I won't do anything illegal either," I assured him. "I promise."
Another of those promises that I wondered if I could keep. In this case, I was rather hopeful that I wouldn't be able to, but I decided not to tell that to Ian.
He relaxed somewhat.
"So can I stay here?" I asked, placing my bag and the tube on the floor.
"What? Sleep here?" he said.
"Yes."
"But I've only got the one bed." From his tone I gathered that he had no desire to share.
"That's OK," I said. "I only want the floor."
"You can have the sofa."
"Even better," I said. "Now, how about that food? I'm starving."
He served it out onto two fairly clean plates on his tiny kitchen table, and I tucked in to mine with gusto. I suspect a doctor would have told me that a bellyful of Chinese was not really the best medicine for a starved stomach, but I didn't care. It tasted pretty good to me.
Finally, I sat back and pushed the plate away with a sigh. I was full.
"Blimey," said Ian, who had only just started his sweet-and-sour pork. "Anyone would think you hadn't eaten for a week."
"What day is it?" I asked.
He looked at me strangely. "Wednesday."
Had it really only been on Monday that I'd gone to Oxford for the inquest? Just two and a half days ago? It seemed like longer. In fact, it felt like half a lifetime.