All of it whirled around and around in Laurel's mind like fractured bits of glass in a kaleidoscope, every picture uglier than the one before it, every possibility too terrible to be true. And over it all came the harsh voice of logic, scolding her for her foolishness, for her lack of faith, for her lack of evidence. All she really knew was that her sister wasn't home, and no one in the family had seen her since Tuesday. The only logical thing was to go looking for her.
She seized on the notion with a rush of relief and resolve. Don't fall apart, do something. Get results. Solve the mystery.
Focused, all the tension drawn into a tight ball of energy that lodged in her chest, she left the room and went to her own to get shoes and her purse. She would leave the back way, she thought as she trotted down the steps to the courtyard. No use alarming Aunt Caroline or Mama Pearl. She would find Savannah, and everything would be all right.
Mama Pearl was up already, shuffling out onto the gallery with a cup of coffee and the latest Redbook. She caught sight of Laurel the instant her sneaker touched ground at the foot of the stairs.
"Chile, what you doin' up dis hour?" she demanded, her brow furrowing under the weight of her worry.
Laurel pasted on a smile and stepped toward the back gate. "Lots to do, Mama Pearl."
The old woman snorted her disgust for modern femininity and tossed her magazine down on the table. "You come eat breakfast, you. You so little, the crows gonna carry you 'way."
"Maybe later!" Laurel called, waving, picking up the pace as she turned for the back gate.
She thought she could still hear Mama Pearl grumbling when she was halfway to L'Amour. It might have been her stomach, but she doubted it; it had gotten too used to being empty. Out of habit, she dug an antacid tablet out of her pocketbook and chewed it like candy.
She had left Jack to avoid the awkwardness of morning-after talk. What had passed between them during the night had gone far beyond words and into a realm of unfamiliar territory. But this was safe ground. She wanted to ask his opinion, tap his knowledge. It was like business, really. And friendship. She wanted his support, she admitted as Huey bounded between a pair of crepe myrtle trees and bore down on her with his tongue lolling out the side of his mouth and a gleam in his mismatched eyes.
The hound crashed into her, knocking her into the front door with a thud. As she called him a dozen names that defamed his character and his lineage, he pounced at her feet, yipping playfully, snapping at her shoelaces. He whirled around and leaped off the front step, running in crazy circles with his tail tucked, clearly overjoyed to see her. Laurel scowled at him as he dropped to the ground at the foot of the step and rolled over on his back, inviting her to scratch his blue-speckled belly.
"Goofy dog," she muttered, giving in and bending over to pat him. "Don't you know when you're being snubbed?"
"Love is blind," Jack said sardonically, swinging the door open behind her.
He was in the same rumpled jeans. No shirt. He hadn't shaved. A mug of coffee steamed in his hand. As Laurel stood, she could see that the brew was as black as night. She breathed in its rich aroma and tried to will her heartbeat to steady. He didn't look pleased to see her. The man who had held her and loved her through the night was gone, replaced by the Jack she would rather not have known, the brooding, angry man.
"If you've got some milk to cut that motor oil you're drinking, I could use a cup myself."
He studied her for a minute, as if trying to decipher her motives, then shrugged and walked into the house, leaving her to follow as she would. Laurel trailed after him down a long hall, catching glimpses of rooms that had stood unused for decades. Water-stained wallpaper. Moth-eaten draperies. Furnishings covered with dust cloths, and dust cloths thick with their namesake.
It was as if no one lived here, and the thought gave her an odd feeling of unease. Certainly Jack, The New York Times best-selling author, could afford to have the place renovated. But she didn't ask why he hadn't, because she had a feeling she knew. Penance. Punishment. L'Amour was his own personal purgatory. The idea tugged at her heart, but she didn't go to him as she longed to. His indifference to her presence set the ground rules for the morning-no clinging, no pledges.
He led her into a kitchen that, unlike the rest of the house, was immaculate. The red of the walls had faded to the color of tomato soup, but they were clean and free of cobwebs. The refrigerator was new. Cupboards and gray tile countertops had been cleaned and polished. The only sign of food was a rope of entwined garlic bulbs and one of red peppers that hung on either side of the window above the sink, but it was a place where food could be prepared without threat of ptomaine.
He pulled a mug down from the cupboard and filled it for her from the old enamel pot on the stove. Laurel helped herself to the milk-a perfect excuse to snoop. Eleven bottles of Jax, a quart of milk, a jar of bread-and-butter pickles, and three casseroles, each bearing a different name penned on a strip of masking tape like offerings for a church potluck supper. Lady friends taking care of him, no doubt. The thought brought a mix of jealousy and amusement.
She leaned back against the counter, stirring her coffee. "Have you seen Savannah since the other morning when she left in such a huff?"
"No. Why?"
"I haven't, either. Nor has Aunt Caroline or Mama Pearl." She fiddled with her spoon as the nerves in her stomach quivered. She fixed her gaze on Jack's belly button and the dark hair that curled around it. "I'm a little concerned."
He shrugged. "She's with a lover."
"Maybe. Probably. It's just that…" She trailed off as the suspicions and theories tried to surface. She wished she could share it all with him, but he wasn't in a sharing mood, and faced with the stony expression he was wearing, she couldn't bring herself to tell him any of it. She felt alone; the one thing she had come to him to avoid. "… with all that's been going on, I'd feel better knowing for certain."
"So what do you want from me, sugar?" he asked bluntly. "You know for a fact she's not in my bed."
"Why are you doing this?" she demanded, setting her cup aside on the counter. She halved the distance between them, hands jammed on her hips.
"What?"
"Being such a bastard."
Jack arched a brow and grinned sharply. "It's what I do best, angel."
"Oh, stop it!" she snapped. "It's too early in the morning for this kind of bullshit." She dared another step toward him, peering up at him in narrow-eyed speculation. "What did you think, Jack? That I was coming over here to ask you to marry me?" she said sarcastically. "Well, I'm not. You can relax. Your martyrdom is safe. All I want is a little help. A straight answer or two would be nice."
He scowled at her as the martyrdom barb hit and stuck dead center. Giving in to the need to escape her scrutiny, he abandoned his coffee and sauntered across the room to pull a beer from the fridge.
"What do you want me to say?" he asked, twisting off the top with a quick motion of his wrist. "That I know who was screwing your sister last night? I don't. If I were to hazard a guess as to the possible candidates, I could just as well hand you a phone book."
"Oh, fine," Laurel bit back. She stalked him across the room like a tiger. Fury bubbled up inside her, and she wished to God she were big enough and strong enough to pound the snot out of Jack Boudreaux. He deserved it, and it would have gone a long way to appease her own wounded pride. "You're a big help, Jack."