An old feeling came back to her from childhood, a memory of herself and Savannah dressed in their matching Sunday best, standing on the sidewalk out front of the church, watching with longing while other children ran and played in the park adjacent to the church grounds.
"Can't we play, too, Mama?"
"No, darling, you don't want to get your pretty dress all dirty, do you?" Vivian, in a red-on-white dot dress that matched her daughters', an elegant wide-brimmed white hat perched just so on her head, bent and smoothed a sausage curl behind Laurel 's ear. "Besides, sweetheart, those aren't the kind of children you should play with."
"Why not?"
"Don't be silly, Laurel." She smiled that brittle smile that always made Laurel 's tummy knot. "They're common. You're a Chandler."
A stupid memory, she thought, trying to crush the residual vulnerability. This was a time of tragedy for the Delahoussayes; she had no business feeling sorry for herself. Besides, no one in their right mind would want to be included among the mourners.
"Here you go."
Laurel looked up and blinked at the tumbler of milk Leonce had set on the bar before her.
"My grandpapa, he had an ulcer," he said softly. He put his elbows on the bar and leaned toward her, a knowing look raising one dark eyebrow and the knot of scar tissue that interrupted it. "He used to rub his belly same as what you're doin'. When he ran out of the cabbage juice the local traiteur used to give him, he drank milk."
Laurel shot a guilty glance at the hand she had absently pressed to her middle. "I'm fine," she said, wrapping both hands around the cold glass. "But thank you, anyway, Leonce."
He took a deep drag on his cigarette and sighed out a cloud of pale smoke, staring across the room at nothing. "I can't believe she's gone, snatched away from us just like dat," he said, snapping his fingers.
"Were you close?"
He smiled sadly. "Ever 'body loved Annie."
Laurel sipped her milk and looked at Jack out of the corner of her eye, wondering if he had loved Annie. "She was married, wasn't she?"
"Oh, yeah, but Tony, he didn' treat her good, so all bets were off, if you get my drift."
He took another pull on his smoke and crushed the butt out in a Jax Beer ashtray. Lost in memories for a moment, he lifted a hand to rub absently at the scar on his cheek. "Annie, she liked to pass a good time," he murmured. "She wasn' a bad girl. She just liked to pass a good time, is all."
Meaning she cheated on her abusive husband. Automatically, Laurel 's mind sorted and filed the facts, formulated theories. Old habit. Comforting in its way. There was solace, consolation to be found in making sense of tragedy. Murders could be solved. Justice could be served.
But nothing would ever bring Annie back.
The side door near the kitchen opened, and Ovide stumbled in like a zombie. He looked twenty years older and frail, despite his bulk. The hair that fringed his head stood out in an aura of silver. The ruddy color had leeched out of his face, leaving his skin a ghostly shade of gray.
Talk stopped, and everyone looked to him expectantly. Everyone except Jack, who hunched over his accordion, playing "Valse de Grand Mèche." Ovide just stood there looking lost and confused, as if he had no idea where he was or what he was doing there. Leonce went to him and took hold of his arm, speaking to him softly in French. He didn't appear to listen, but looked around the bar at the people who had gathered to talk, at Jack, who had set himself apart. Finally, his gaze settled on Laurel.
"Viens ici, chérie," he murmured, holding a hand out toward her. "T-Grace, she wants to see you."
Laurel just barely kept from looking over her shoulder to see if there was a more likely person standing behind her. "Me?" she murmured, touching her chest.
"Oui, come. Please."
With a heavy, black feeling of foreboding pressing down on her, and with the ironic thought that she was going to be included after all, she slid down off her stool.
They entered the Delahoussaye home through the kitchen, which proved to be the largest room of the house. Inappropriately cheerful and bright, the rich aroma of coffee and the spicy bite of étouffée lingered in the air. The walls sported yellow-and-white checked paper and a boggling array of knickknacks that ranged from plastic praying hands to thimbles from Las Vegas to salt-and-pepper sets in the guise of squirrels and chickens-all of it striking Laurel as being painfully sweet and too revealing about the woman who had raised her children in this house.
Delahoussaye children and grandchildren filled the benches at the long harvest table in the center of the room. Sleepy-eyed children sat on the laps of parents or elder siblings. The glare of the fluorescent light washed the color from all their faces, emphasizing eyes that had been cried raw and red. Laurel envied them their family, but not the grief that hung like a pall around them.
"I'm so sorry," she whispered, apologizing for both their loss and her intrusion on this private time.
Her words triggered a flood of tears from a woman who might have been Annie's twin-apple cheeks and corkscrew curls, a tank top two sizes too small. A brawny husband folded his arms around her and the dark-haired baby who sat on her lap and rocked them both. At the other end of the table, a younger version of T-Grace stood abruptly and looked straight at Laurel.
"Thank you for coming," she said automatically. "I'll make us a fresh pot of coffee."
She set about the task with the frenetic energy of someone trying to keep a step ahead of inner demons. Laurel recognized the signs from experience, and she felt empathy drawing on her, pulling at her limited reserve of strength.
She followed Ovide through the cramped living room, where two boys of about ten sat on the floor watching an age-old rerun of Star Trek on a television that had the sound turned so low, the actors seemed to be whispering. A toddler had been settled to sleep on the green plaid sofa with a nubby orange afghan covering all but her face and the fist pressed against her mouth as she sucked her thumb.
T-Grace lay in bed in a room that would have been considered a closet at Beauvoir. Meager light from a red glass Spanish-look lamp on the nightstand glowed off the imitation walnut paneling that displayed gold plastic candle sconces and gaudy metal butterflies. The smell of mothballs and cheap perfume permeated the air. Clothes were folded and stacked in precariously tipping piles on every available surface, giving the cramped little room the feel of a storage cupboard at the Salvation Army store.
When Laurel stepped through the door, her breath caught hard in her throat. Her first thought was that T-Grace had died of shock and heartbreak, and she could only wonder why Ovide had dragged her over here to view the body. The woman lay propped against half a dozen pillows, her bulging eyes staring into nothingness, her thin mouth hanging slack, as if she had been stricken down midsentence. Her orange hair stood up in thin, ratty tufts around her head. Then she stirred, lifting a hand from the green chenille bedspread, and Laurel forced herself to move farther into the room.
"I'm so sorry, T-Grace," she said softly as she took the woman's hand and settled a hip on the edge of the bed.
T-Grace rolled her head from side to side on the pillow, too sedated to do much more. "My poor, poor bébé. She's gone from us. Gone from dis world," she mumbled. "I can't bear it."
"You should try to rest," Laurel whispered, unable to find adequate words that could soothe a mother's suffering.
"There is no pain like to lose a child," T-Grace said, her eyes filling. She made no move to brush the tears away. They spilled down her sunken cheeks and trickled back along her jaw. What little energy she had left she concentrated into speech. "I would give myself a hundred times in her place."
Laurel bit her lip and held tight to the hand that seemed so frail in hers.
"Someone gotta pay for dis."
"They'll catch the man," Laurel said thickly, to placate T-Grace and to reassure herself. Someone would pay. Justice would triumph in the end. It had to.
But not soon enough for Annie.
T-Grace looked her square in the face, a glimmer of her old fire flickering in her eyes. "You gonna help us wit' dat, chère, or what?"
Panic booted Laurel in the stomach. "What can I do, T-Grace? I'm not a deputy. You don't need a lawyer." You don't need me. Please, please, don't ask me to get involved in this.