She gulped a breath and stopped her pacing, bringing up both hands to press them against her temples. As in a dream, she could see herself tearing her office apart, wild, ranting, throwing things, smashing things, screaming until her assistant, Michael Hellerman, had called in Bubba Vandross from security to come and subdue her.
After months of riding that mental edge, she had gone over. She wasn't on the brink now, but she was damn close. The frustration of trying to deal with Kenner pushed a button. She had no control over him, and control was the one thing she had needed most since her father had died.
And then the press. God, would she never escape the loop of recurrences? If she had gone to Bermuda instead of Bayou Breaux, would she now be standing in the magistrate's office, embroiled in some island intrigue?
She let out a shuddering breath and tried to let go some of the tension in her shoulders. She needed to regroup, to think things through. She needed to find Savannah and dispel the dark shadows lurking in the back of her mind.
She ran a hand over the soft leather of her pocketbook, thinking of the odd trinkets she had dropped into it-the earring, the necklace, the matchbook. She had shown none of them to Kenner, knowing he would only have taken them as further proof of her mental instability. They might have come from anywhere. They might all have been Savannah's.
The matchbook lingered in her mind. Jack turning it over with his nimble musician's fingers. His expression going carefully blank at the sight of the name. A leather bar in the Quarter. Secretive, seclusive, exclusive. A place where masks were commonplace and anything might be had for a price or a thrill. He had been there doing research for a book.
He had pinned her arms above her head, held her down as he joined their bodies…
Jimmy Lee Baldwin was into bondage, Savannah said.
Savannah had allowed herself to be tied up…
Nausea swirled around Laurel's stomach, and she leaned against an antique credenza and closed her eyes.
"Would you care for a brandy?"
She jerked her head up as Danjermond closed the door softly behind him.
"For medicinal purposes, of course," he added with a ghost of a smile.
"No," she said, stiffening her knees, squaring her shoulders. "No, thank you."
He slid his hands into the pockets of his trousers and wandered along a wall of leather-bound tomes. "Forgive me for being less than supportive in Kenner's office. I've learned the best way to handle him is not to handle him at all." He shot her a sideways look, taking her measure. "And I admit I wanted to see you in action. You're quite ferocious, Laurel. One would never suspect that looking at you-so delicate, so feminine. I like a paradox. You must have taken many an opponent by surprise."
"I'm good at what I do. If the opposition is taken by surprise by that, then they're simply stupid."
"Yes, but the plain fact is that people draw certain conclusions based on a person's looks and social background. I've been on the receiving end of such impressions myself, being from a prominent family."
Laurel arched a brow. "Are you trying to tell me you may be a son of the Garden District Danjermonds, the shipping Danjermonds, but at heart you're just a good ol' boy? I have a hard time believing that."
"I'm saying one can't judge a book by its cover-pretty or otherwise. One never really knows what might hide behind ugliness or lurk in the heart of beauty."
She thought again of Savannah, her beautiful sister, spinning around Frenchie's with Annie Gerrard in a headlock, smearing excrement on the wall of St. Joseph's Rest Home outside Astor Cooper's window, screaming obscenities in the moonlight. Sighing, she closed her eyes and rubbed at her forehead as if she could scrub her brain clean of doubt.
"I'll do what I can to influence Kenner," Danjermond said softly.
He was behind her now, close enough that she could sense his nearness. He settled his elegant hands on her shoulders and began to rub methodically at the tension. Laurel wanted to bolt, but she held her ground, unsure of whether his gesture was compassion or dominance, unsure of whether her response was courage or acquiescence.
"I can't make any promises, though," he said evenly. "I'm afraid he has a valid point concerning the information on Baldwin. Your sister has something of a credibility problem. Particularly as she's gone missing. You know all about credibility problems, don't you, Laurel?"
She jerked away from his touch and turned to face him, her anger blazing back full force. "I can do without the reminder, thank you, and all the other little snide remarks you so enjoy slipping into our conversations like knives. Just whose side are you on, anyway?"
"Justice takes the side of right. Nature, however, chooses strength," he pointed out. "Right and strength don't always coincide."
He let that cryptic assertion hang in the air as he opened a beautiful cherrywood humidor on his desktop and selected a slim, expensive cigar. "The courtroom more often resembles a jungle than civilization," he said as he went about the ritual of clipping the end of the cigar. "Strength is essential. I need to know how strong you are if we're going to work together."
"We're not," Laurel said flatly, moving toward the door.
He slid into his high-backed chair, rolling his cigar between his fingers. "We'll see."
"I have other things to see to," she snapped, infuriated by his smug confidence that she wouldn't be able to resist the lure of his offer or the lure of him personally. "Finding my sister for one, since the sheriff's department is obviously going to be of little help."
A lighter flared in his hands, and he drew on the cigar, filling the air with a rich aroma. "I wouldn't worry overmuch, Laurel," he said, his handsome head wreathed in fragrant, cherry-tinted smoke. "She may well have gone to N'Awlins, as her lover suggested. Or perhaps she's enjoying the charms of another man. She'll turn up."
But what condition would she be in when she did? The question lodged like a knot in Laurel's chest. If Savannah had gone off some inner precipice, what would be left to find? The possibilities sickened her. One thing was certain-Savannah wouldn't be the sister Laurel had always leaned on. The child within her wept at the thought.
Prejean's Funeral Home was typical in Acadiana. Built in the sixties, it was a low brick building with a profusion of flower beds outside and a strange mix of sterility, tranquillity, and grief within. The floors were carpeted in flat, industrial-grade, dirt brown nylon, made to last and to deaden the sounds of dress shoes pounding across it. The ceilings were low-hung acoustical panels that had absorbed countless cries and murmured condolences.
Prejean's had two parlors for times that were regrettably busy, and a large kitchen that, if people had known how closely it resembled the embalming room, may well have gone unused. But, as with every social situation in South Louisiana, food was served for comfort and for affirmation of life. Women friends of T-Grace's, neighbors, fellow parishioners from Our Lady of the Seven Sorrows Catholic church would be in the kitchen brewing strong coffee and making sandwiches. Laurel knew Mama Pearl had brought a coconut cake.
Those who had come to pay respects to the Delahoussayes gathered in the Serenity room. The casket was positioned at the front of the room beneath a polished oak cross. Closed, the lid was piled high with white mums and gardenias, as if to discourage anyone from trying to lift it. Candles flickered at either end in tall brass candelabras.
People stood in knots of three and four at the back of the room, distancing themselves from death as much as they could while still supporting the family with their presence. Up front, more serious mourners sat in rows of chrome-and-plastic chairs that interlocked like Lego toys. Enola Meyette led the chanting of the rosary, a low murmur of French that underscored whispered conversations and muffled sobs.
T-Grace sat front and center in an ill-fitting black dress, her face swollen, her red hair standing out from her head as if she had been given an electric shock, her eyes huge and bloodshot. She was supported on one side by a burly son. To her right, Ovide sat in a catatonic state, his mouth slack, shoulders drooping beneath the weight of his grief.
Laurel's heart ached for them as she made her way through the throng to pay her respects. She knelt before T-Grace and took hold of a bony hand that had to be at least as cold as that of the daughter lying dead in the casket.