"I'm so sorry, T-Grace, Ovide," she whispered, tears rising automatically. She had been schooled from childhood to keep her emotions politely concealed. Even at her father's funeral, Vivian had admonished her and Savannah to cry softly into their handkerchiefs so as not to make spectacles of themselves. But the day had been too long, and she was too tired and keyed-up for anything but a modicum of restraint.
T-Grace looked down on her, valiantly trying to smile, her thin mouth twisting and trembling with the effort. "Merci, Laurel. You're all the time so good to us."
Laurel squeezed the hand in hers and pressed back the emotions crowding her throat. "I wish I could do more," she whispered, feeling impotent.
She turned to Ovide, trying to think of something to say to him, but his eyes were on his daughter's casket, glazed with a kind of numb shock, as if he had only just realized how permanent Annie's absence would be.
As Mrs. Meyette began another decade of the rosary, Laurel rose and moved off toward the back of the room, restless and uncomfortable as she always had been with the rituals of death. She scanned the crowd, looking for Jack, but not finding him. She didn't know if she was more disappointed for T-Grace and Ovide or for herself. Stupid. How many times had he told her she couldn't count on him?
How many times had he made a lie of his own words?
He was a con man in his own right, playing a shell game with his personality. Distract the mark with the appearance of a rogue, while under one shell hid a heart filled with compassion and under another one compressed with grief and guilt. The shells swept and danced beneath his clever hands. Now you see it, now you don't. Which one held the real Jack? Would he ever let her close enough to find out?
She felt a little guilty, thinking about him during a wake, but in that moment she would have given just about anything to feel his arms slip around her, to hear his smoky voice murmur something irreverent in her ear. She was tired and worried, and she wanted very badly to share those fears with someone.
A call to Maison de Ville in New Orleans had assured her Savannah wasn't staying there. A call to Le Mascarade had gotten her nothing but a derisive laugh. Patrons names were confidential. She had tracked down Ronnie Peltier, who was hefting sacks at Collins Feed and Seed. He hadn't seen Savannah since Tuesday night. She had come to his trailer in a temper and left an hour or two later. He claimed he hadn't seen her since.
Laurel spotted him standing with a group of cronies across the room-Taureau Hebert and several other regulars from the bar. They looked young and uncomfortable in neckties. Their eyes avoided the casket at the front of the room.
"It's fascinating, isn't it?"
She jumped as Danjermond's voice sounded low and soft in her ear. He stood beside her, looking as perfectly pressed as he had that morning, his suit immaculate, tie neat. Laurel felt wilted and rumpled beside him even though she had showered and changed into a skirt and fresh blouse before coming. That effect alone was enough reason to avoid him, as far as she was concerned.
"All the different defense mechanisms people develop to deal with death," he said, frowning slightly as his gaze moved over the gathering of the faithful and the bereaved. "A dose of religion, gossip, and jokes served up with coffee and a slice of pie afterward."
"People take comfort in ritual," Laurel said, trying to sidle away from him, but he had her neatly trapped between himself and a potted palm.
"Yes, that's true," he murmured, his sharp green gaze taking in the tableau of grief at the front of the room. T-Grace had begun to sob again, and her children gathered around her. Mrs. Meyette raised her voice, but never broke cadence in the recitation of the Hail Marys.
"Are you here in an official capacity or just out of morbid curiosity?"
He arched a brow at her sarcasm. "Would you rather Kenner had come to represent Partout Parish?"
"Not even he would be that callous."
T-Grace let out a series of soul-raking, ear-piercing wails, and one of her sons and Leonce Comeau half dragged her from the room. They were followed by old Doc Broussard, toting his black bag, and Father Antaya, each of them ready to dispense his own brand of medicine.
"Any sign of your sister, yet?" Danjermond asked.
"No, but if you'll excuse me, I see someone who may be able to help me."
Calling on skills honed at countless cocktail parties, Laurel slipped away from him before he could voice a protest and worked her way through the crowd to the front of the room. The final amen was uttered, and those who had been praying rose stiffly, beads clacking as they stored their rosaries in purses, pouches, pockets.
Leonce came back into the room, his marred face grim, his bald spot shining with sweat. He pulled a red handkerchief out of his hip pocket and dabbed at the moisture. He had thrown a black jacket on over his black T-shirt and jeans, and shoved the sleeves to his elbows, making him look more like an artist or a rock star than a mourner.
"Hey, chère, where y'at?" he said, managing a weary smile as he settled a hand on Laurel's arm. "Jack here?"
"No."
His gaze cut away so she couldn't see the hope that sparked in his eyes. He looked to the coffin, gleaming polished oak beneath its drape of waxy gardenias and frayed mums. "I shoulda guessed not. Jack, he don' do funerals. Been to one too many, I guess."
Laurel made a noncommittal sound. "How's T-Grace?"
"She's laying down in old man Prejean's office." He shook his head, still amazed. "Dat's some kinda scream she got, no?"
"I imagine losing a child tears loose a lot of things inside."
"Yeah, I guess." His dark gaze settled on the casket again because he was a little superstitious about turning his back on it. "Poor Annie," he murmured. "Teased one dick too many. All she wanted was to pass a good time. Look what it got her."
The implication made Laurel frown. No one asked to be tortured and killed. No woman deserved the kind of end Annie had met, regardless of what kind of life she had led. That thought bled into thoughts of Savannah, and Laurel's heart thumped at the base of her throat.
"Leonce, have you seen Savannah lately?"
He jerked around toward her, his brows slashing down over his eyes in a way that made his scar seem longer and more prominent. "Hey, yeah, I gotta talk to you 'bout dat one," he said ominously.
Taking her by the arm again, he led her out the door and into the shadows of the hall that led to the room where Prejean practiced his craft of readying people for the great beyond. The skin prickled at the base of Laurel's neck, and she cast a nervous glance back toward the Serenity room.
Leonce let go of her and stepped back, one hand propped at his waist, the other unconsciously touching his cheek, fingertips rubbing at the scar as if it might be erased. "Tuesday night I'm comin' back from Loreauville-me, I sing with a band down there sometimes, you know?-and I'm drivin' down Tchoupitoulas 'bout a block from St. Joe's home. Here comes Savannah runnin' 'cross the grass, 'cross the street right in front of me. I damn near hit her. I lean out the window and I yell, 'Hey, what's a matter wit' you, chère? You gone crazy or somethin'?' "
Laurel felt as if an anvil had dropped on her from a great height. This wasn't the story she had wanted to hear. She wanted him to tell her he'd seen her sister driving off to Lafayette to visit friends or leaving with a lover for a tryst in New Orleans. She didn't want confirmation of a suspicion that made her weak with dread.
Leonce was watching her, waiting for some kind of response. She somehow managed to open her mouth and make words come out. "Did she answer you?"
"Oh, yeah," he snorted. "She comes around the side window and tells me why don't I go fuck myself. How you like dat?"
"I don't," Laurel murmured. She blew out a breath and combed her fingers back through her hair, walking in a slow circle around Leonce, her mind working automatically to assimilate the story into the other facts and pieces she'd stored away. Tears rose in her eyes as the nerves in her stomach twisted tight around a hot lump of fear.
"Hey," Leonce drawled, spreading his hands wide. "I didn' mean to upset you, chère. I just thought you oughta know." He reached out to her, offering comfort and concern. Curling his fingers over her shoulder, he let his thumb brush against the pulse point in her throat. "You wanna go get a drink or somethin' and talk about it? Me, I'm a pretty good listener."