"Killa, can we let bygones be and cooperate duo on this?" he asked in a quiet voice so that only she could hear him.
She was unnerved to have the regard of those intense and brilliant blue eyes focused on her alone.That was one difference between Shad and Lars Dahl-Shad's eyes were kinder, milder, undemanding.She turned her face away.
Damn that Biyanco!She shouldn't have let herself be persuaded out of a good partner by sentiment.True, even if she had brought Shad back with her, he wouldn't have been ready for a massive search this soon, even if had he been lucky enough to have a Milekey Transition.But she would have had such fun shepherding him, deftly guiding him to learn the intricacies of a new trade, watching his sensitive face perceiving new and marvelous things… and especially hearing the dawn song of crystal with someone as gentle and loving as Shad Tucker.And how he would have enjoyed the seas of Ballybran.What sort of a ship would he have bought with his first big cut?
"Killa!"
Someone had her by the shoulders, firm hands giving her a shake to focus her attention.
"Killa?"
"What?"
The Guild Master frowned at her with concern."One thing is sure, Killashandra Ree, you've got to get back to the Ranges whether you sing black, green or pink!You left your return mighty late.How do you stand the itch?"The sudden tender concern in his voice startled her, but she gave no hint of that surprise.
"I'll be all right as soon as I make the Ranges," she said wearily, her spine twisting with crystal hunger.
"If you can in this condition.So I'm not asking permission now.I am coming with you.It'd be outright murder to send you out solo in your present state.I'll meet you at the Hangar.Donalla…"
Killa peered at the woman who stepped forward.Her face was vaguely familiar, and although her smile was warm and friendly, Killa felt a flash of anxiety.
"Glad to see you safely back, Killashandra."When Killa recoiled slightly, the woman smiled reassuringly."We're only going straight to the Hangar.You really can trust me that far, you know."
"I'll need…" Killa pulled at the clothes she was wearing-they wouldn't last an hour in the Ranges."I've no boots…"
"Let Donalla take care of the details, Sunny, will you?"The loving tone of the Guild Master was gently supportive.
Some part of Killa was unconvinced, but the other, more dominant need for a respite from the crystal itch made that hesitation short.The hands that replaced Lars's were gentle, warm and subtly persuasive.It was easier to submit and be guided.
Killa rubbed at her forehead.How could she have let herself get in such a state?She ought not to be led about like a child.Surely, she wasn't that bad, that decrepit?She had walked off the transport ship on her own, hadn't she?Found the shuttle bay with no trouble!Why was she suddenly incapable of managing something as simple as getting to the Hangar?Her feet ought to know the way even if her head didn't.
But she let herself be taken.She really couldn't think straight with all that noise in her head and that buzz along her veins, spiking into her heart and lungs-a crystal shiver that no amount of radiant fluid would reduce, only cutting crystal.
She hated to admit it, even to herself, but the Guild Master had been correct.She had cut it fine.She ought to have started back to Ballybran the day she had felt the first shock of crystal deprivation.And that was what was shorting out her decision-making faculty, too.
Now that she put a reason to her mazedness, she also knew how to cure it: cut crystal!Let it sing through her body, bones, and blood.Let it clear the confusion in her mind and strengthen her flagging energies.Crystal!The worst addiction in the galaxy: difficult to live with and impossible to live without.
She stumbled and Donalla's helping hand steadied her.
Then the noise and ordered confusion of the Hangar swirled about her.Faces peered at her; large blurred objects moved slowly past.She was gently propelled into a space that shut out much of the noise.Hands turned her body this way and that as she was inserted into a shipsuit; her feet were pushed into the familiar restriction of boots.
"My cutter…"
Her right hand was pressed against a hard, cold surface, and her fingers, of their own accord, fitted themselves around the grip, slipping into grooves exactly carved to fit her grasp.The tension within her eased further.
She was settled into the appropriate contour chair, and the harness was buckled about her.Passive now, because she didn't have to make any movement or decision, she waited.The air around her smelled familiar-and new, of paint and oil with enough of the pungent fuel odor to be acrid-and somehow comforting.
A sudden burst of noise, and a wave of fuel- and grease-laden air whooshed across the sensitive skin of her face.Someone had entered the sled, not so much noisily as confidently.She felt the throb of engines revving up, increasing the stink of fuel in the air, which also oddly reassured her.The sled moved forward, and she sighed with relief.Slowly she was pushed back against the seat cushions as the sled gathered speed.Sunlight pierced the windows, too brilliant for her tired eyes, and she made a protest as she closed them against the glare.Had she remembered to put in the refractive lenses?She blinked.She had, but it always took a few seconds for them to alter to the necessary refractory index.The blaze diminished, the backward pressure of takeoff eased, and she opened her eyes, suddenly more aware of her surroundings.Lars's lithe figure occupied the pilot's chair.
"Get some rest, Sunny," he said as he had so often said as they departed the Guild for the Ranges.
Because it was easier to obey than resist, she wriggled into the cushions, dropped her head back against the rest, and let herself slip into sleep.
"Eeny meeny, pitsa teeny…" The old choosing phrase roused her.
"Muhlah!Any time I need to blackmail the Guild Master…" she murmured.
Lars laughed, the infectious laugh that had been one of his most endearing traits, and despite herself, she felt her mouth curving up in a grin.
"Works every time," he replied, and when she gargled a denial at him, he amended it."Well, sooner or later, it works."
She struggled upright in the seat, biting her lip as the movement stirred up the crystal sting that pinched at blood and bone.She was in the Ranges and it would ease soon… ease when she finally cut again.She released the harness and peered out at the steeples and ridges of deep Range.
"Where are we?"
"Scouring the parameters of an old claim."
She frowned, stared at him until recent memory returned."Oh?Whose?"
Lars grinned."Such details are irrelevant.The marker's on the list: that's enough."
"Where did you find a statute of limitation in Rules and Regs?"
"In the Guild Master's prerogatives."Lars grinned at her.When she snorted derisively, he added, "Why have the rule and not put it into effect?The Guild has to supply legitimate demands.Like Lanzecki, I use every trick I'm allowed-"
"You're not Lanzecki!"
"Thank you for that vote of confidence," he replied, and the buoyancy had gone out of his voice.After a long silence while she rubbed surreptitiously to ease the crystal sting, he asked,"Is it bad?"His tone held genuine concern.
"I've been worse," she said diffidently-though, candidly, she doubted that.She would have remembered it-and tried to avoid a repetition.
"Ha!Try that on someone who doesn't know you as well as I do, Sunny.Take heart.We're nearly there."
"Where?"Her voice had an edge on it."Oh, quick!Mark there!"And she pointed imperiously to starboard.The evening sunlight had just briefly glinted off crystal shard.
Lars gave an appreciative chuckle."You may be writhing with crystal itch, but your eye's as keen as ever."He veered to the right, slowing the sled and neatly landing it on the bottom of the ravine."You're one of the best in the Guild," he murmured as they saw the unmistakable evidence of a cutter's discards.