Reseune Administrative Territory
Postal District 3
Cyteen Station
She wanted to put her own name on the letter, but uncle Denys said she would have to wait until she was grown up and had her own address. Besides, he said, if it was from the Administrator of Reseune to the Director of RESEUNESPACE it looked like business and it would get right to maman's desk without anybody waiting.
She was in favor of that.
She asked why their address was Cyteen Station when they lived on Cyteen, and he said mail didn't go to planets without going through stations; and if you wanted to write to somebody on Earth the address was always Sol Station, but because there was Mars and the Moon you had to put Earth, then the name of the country.
Uncle Denys tried to explain what a country was and how they started.
That was why he got her the History of Earthtape. She wanted to do that one again. It had a lot of really strange pictures. Some were scary. But she knew it was just tape.
She went to tapestudy. She studied biology and botany, and penmanship and history and civics this week. She got Excellent on her exams and uncle Denys gave her a nice holo that was a Terran bird. You turned it and the bird flapped his wings and flew. It came all the way from Earth. Uncle Giraud had got it in Novgorod.
But there was only Nelly for playschool. And it was boring doing the swings and the puzzlebars with just Nelly. So she didn't go every day anymore. She got tired of going everywhere with Nelly, because Nelly worried about everything and Nelly was always worrying about her. So she told uncle Denys she could go to tapestudy by herself, and she could go to library by herself, because people knew her, and she was all right.
She took a lot of time getting back from tapestudy. Sometimes she stopped and fed the fish, because there was a Security guard right at the door and uncle Denys had said she could do that. Today she went down the tunnel because there had been a storm last night and you had to stay indoors for a few days.
So she got to thinking how she and maman had come this way once when she went to see ser Peterson. You took the elevator. Dr. Peterson was boring as Seely was; but that hall was where Justin's office was.
Justin would be interesting, she thought. Maybe he would at least say hello. And so many people had Disappeared that she liked to check now and again to see if people were still there. It always made her feel safer when she found they were. So if she got a chance to see an old place, she liked to.
She took the lift up to the upstairs hall, and she walked the metal strips she remembered: that was nice too, like once upon a time, when maman had been down the hall in that very office; but it made her sad, too, and she stopped it and walked the center of the hall.
Justin's office door was open. It was messy as the last time. And she was happy of a sudden, because Justin and Grant were both there.
"Hello," she said.
They both looked at her. It was good to see someone she knew. She really hoped they would be glad to see her. There weren't many people who would talk to her that weren't uncle Denys's.
But they didn't say hello. Justin got up and looked unfriendly.
She felt lonely all of a sudden. She felt awfully lonely. "How are you?" she asked, because that was what you were supposed to say.
"Where's your nurse?"
"Nelly's home." She could say that now about uncle Denys's place without it hurting. "Can I come in?"
"We're working, Ari. Grant and I have business to do."
"Everybody's working," she complained. "Hello, Grant."
"Hello, Ari," Grant said.
"Maman went to Fargone," she said. In case they hadn't heard.
"I'm sorry," Justin said.
"I'm going to go there and live with her."
Justin got a funny look. A real funny look. Grant looked at her. And she was scared because they were upset, but she didn't know why. She sat there looking up and wishing she knew what was wrong. Of a sudden she was real scared.
"Ari," Justin said, "you know you're not supposed to be here."
"I can be here if I want. Uncle Denys doesn't mind."
"Did uncle Denys say that?"
"Justin," Grant said. And gently: "Ari, who brought you here?"
"Nobody. I brought myself." She pointed. "I came from tapestudy. I'm taking a shortcut."
"That's nice," Justin said. "Look, Ari. I'll bet you're supposed to go straight home."
She shook her head. "No. I don't have to. Uncle Denys is always late and Nelly won't tell him." She kept getting this upset-feeling, no matter how she tried to be cheerful. It was not them being bad to her. It was not a mad either. She tried to figure out what it was, but Grant was worried about Justin and Justin was worried about her being there.
Hell with Them, maman would say. Meaning the Them that kept things messed up.
"I'm going," she said.
But she did it again the next day, sneaked up and popped sideways around the doorframe and said: "Hello."
That scared them good. She laughed. And came out and was nice then. "Hello."
"Ari, for God's sake, go home!"
She liked that better. Justin was mad like maman's mad. She liked that a lot better. He wasn't being mean. Neither was Grant. She had got them and they were going to yell at her.
"I did Computers today," she said. "I can write a program."
"That's nice, Ari. Go home!"
She laughed. And tucked her hands behind her and rocked and remembered not to. "Uncle Denys got me a fish tank. I've got guppies. One of them is pregnant."
"That's awfully nice, Ari. Go home."
"I could bring you some of the babies."
"Ari, just go home."
"I have a hologram. It's a bird. It flies." She pulled it out of her pocket and showed how it turned, and came inside to do it. "See?"
"That's fascinating. Please. Go home."
"I'll bet you haven't got one."
"I know I don't. Please, Ari, —"
"Why don't you want me here?"
"Because your uncle is going to get mad."
"He won't. He never knows."
"Ari," Grant said. She looked at him.
"You don't want us to callyour uncle, do you?" She didn't. It wasn't very nice. She frowned at Grant. "Please," Justin said. "Ari."
He was halfway nice. And she was out of tricks. So she went outside, and looked back and smiled at him.
He was sort of a friend. He was her secret friend. She wasn't going to make him mad. Or Grant. She would come by just a second every day. But they were gone the next day: the door was shut and locked. That worried her. She figured they had either figured out she was coming at the same time every day or they were truly Disappeared.
So she sneaked over on her way to tape the next morning and caught them. "Hello!" she said. And scared them.
She saw they were mad, so she didn't laugh at them too much. And she just waved them goodbye and went on.
She caught them now and again. When her guppy had babies she brought them some in a jar she had. Justin looked like that made him feel better about her. He said he would take care of them.
But when she took the lid off they were dead. She felt awful. "I guess they were in there too long," she said. "I guess they were," Justin said. He smelled nice when she leaned on the desk near him. A lot like Ollie. "I'm sorry, Ari."
That was nice anyway. It was the first time he had really been just Justin with her. Grant came and looked and he was sorry too.
Grant took the jar away. And Justin said, well, sometimes things died.
"I'll bring you more," she said. She liked coming by the office. She thought about it a lot. She was leaning up by Justin's desk now and he had stopped having that bad feeling. He was just Justin. And he patted her on the shoulder and said she had better go.