‘Come on in, Joe.’ Burton’s voice was businesslike. ‘Grab a seat.’
Neither of them mentioned that Lynch was late. Burton himself guessed why, but knew it was a bad place to start and would guarantee he’d not get anywhere. Why slam shut what was already a pretty closed book. He’d been surprised when Dr MacSorley had phoned and requested another appointment. He could see, looking at Lynch’s face, it had been touch and go whether he would actually come.
Lynch sat in the seat he’d occupied the week before. Burton closed the door and sat opposite. His chair was offset slightly, so that he didn’t face his clients directly.
‘So?’ Burton said.
‘So.’
Silence.
‘You came to see me, Joe.’
‘They teach you how to set these chairs up, don’t they?’
Burton looked at the furniture.
Lynch continued. ‘You don’t face people. Too intimidating. Too much confrontation. Like an interrogation.’
‘For some people, yes.’
‘But that’s what it is though, isn’t it? You want to know what’s going on with folk. What makes them tick. They sit down and you ask the questions. Examine them. Their secrets. It’s like going to Confession.’
‘Maybe. Except we don’t offer forgiveness.’
‘That’s fine,’ Lynch snapped back. ‘No one’s asking for it.’
Burton sighed. He knew Lynch would want to spar with him. To feel him out. Decide whether he was going to say anything. Still, Lynch had come back, which meant something. Burton knew that was his leverage.
‘Get out, Joe.’
‘What?’
‘I said get out.’ Burton paused. ‘If you want to talk about furniture, then take yourself to MFI. I don’t have time for it.’ The psychologist leaned forward to stand up and go back to his desk.
‘You didn’t know, did you?’ Lynch said, halting the other man’s movement.
Burton paused before sitting back in his seat. ‘Know what?’
‘About the Brits. Being put against a wall. About them putting a gun in my mouth.’
Burton looked at Lynch and shook his head.
‘No, I didn’t. But there had to be something. I went fishing, that was all.’
‘So that’s it. There’s some theory out there, some textbook. How people get “involved”. What makes them say they’ve had enough of doing nothing. Makes them decide to do something about it.’
‘Radicalization. It varies from person to person. It’s all about Muslims these days. September Eleventh. Those planes and the Twin Towers. Iraq. Afghanistan. Ireland’s yesterday’s news. Nobody wants to hear about us any more. The peace deal’s been done. It’s time to move on.’
‘Suppose there’s a theory about that and all?’
Burton raised his eyebrows and nodded. If there was an A-Z of conflict resolution, he was yet to be convinced by it.
‘Thing is, Doc, the guys who write these theories, that’s all they do — write them. They don’t fucking live them.’
The conversation had found its rhythm from the previous week. Back and forth. Lynch wanting to square up. Confrontation was where he was most comfortable. Burton wondered if he always needed to be on the offensive.
The two men stopped talking. Burton’s eyes fell and he gazed at the table, deliberately ignoring the other man. Finally Lynch spoke again.
‘So what are we supposed to talk about?’
‘You tell me, Joe.’
‘You’ve read the books, Doc. Surely there’s a list. Seven Steps or something. Is that not how it works?’
‘What do you think, Joe?’
‘Hey, it’s your patch. How am I supposed to know how it works?’
Burton’s eyes fell back to the table. Lynch watched him disengage.
‘So we just sit here?’
‘You can leave if you want.’
Lynch looked round the room, glancing from the bookcase to the desk to the window. Beyond the green domes of City Hall the yellow arm of a crane slowly swung across the rooftops of the city centre. They were building a new shopping centre round the back of Corn Market. He’d stopped on the way over to look at the gaping hole, the size of a football pitch. A huge billboard announced: Victoria Square. Two women passed behind him.
‘It’s going to have a House of Fraser and all, so it is?’
The other woman gasped, confessing that she couldn’t wait.
Lynch looked back at Burton. ‘There’s some changes going on round here, eh?’
‘What do you mean?’ Burton asked.
‘Around the town. I mean, I went the other day to put a line on at a bookies I used to go to down Smithfield. I turned the corner and it’s one of them frigging coffee places. It’s like every time you walk round the corner, someone’s building something. And shops — I mean, how many frigging shops do people need? It’s getting as bad as London.’
‘You lived in London?’
‘Just for a while.’
Lynch remembered the stories his Aunt Annie told about the seventies. She used to come home talking about signs outside boarding houses. No Blacks. No Irish. As soon as they heard your accent, they treated you like something the dog dragged in.
Burton knew that Lynch was avoiding any real engagement. Still, at least he was speaking. If he kept him talking there was a chance they’d end up somewhere by the end of the session.
‘Know anything about Buddhists?’ he asked.
‘Hari Krishnas. Enlightenment and all. You going to start chanting, Doc?’
‘I wouldn’t get your hopes up. Buddhists reckon everything is always changing. All the time. The thing is, we just don’t see it. Living and dying. Growing and rotting. Our problem is that we don’t get it. We expect things to stay the same. And they don’t. They can’t. Nothing can.’
‘That’s deep,’ Lynch said dismissively. ‘Pass the spliff, man, would you?’
Burton tried to mask a sigh. He knew Lynch could oscillate all day between aggressive question and cynical put-down. He was clever. Disciplined. He gave nothing away, not unless he wanted to. And he didn’t let you in, not for a second. He had been involved, but Burton could tell he wasn’t the kind of person who blindly followed orders. He thought about other ex-prisoners he had worked with. Ninety per cent of the time it was about ego, vanity, self-worth. Being involved gave them something to do, someone to be. They were the star in the film of their own lives. At least that was how it felt. And there was always a father figure, someone senior, someone to tell them who they were. Tell them that they were part of something. An heroic struggle. A great cause. That history would remember them.
Lynch was different. Too practical. Too deliberate. Burton couldn’t imagine him buying the romance. That was for followers, for those who needed pulling along. Burton looked at the clock. Lynch had been late and the session was almost over.
The other man spoke, interrupting Burton’s thoughts.
‘So what about people?’
‘What do you mean?’
‘What do your Buddhists say about people? Do people change?’
Burton paused.
‘What do you think, Joe?’
Lynch knew what Burton was up to, deliberately turning the question back on him.
‘Maybe they do. Maybe they don’t. Maybe there comes a point when it’s too late. When somebody has been someone or something for so long, they’ve gone past the point where it’s possible to change, and maybe they don’t realize it. They walk round, thinking they’re someone new, only they’re not. All the time though, lurking below the surface, the real them is waiting. Just waiting for a chance to stick his head out of the water.’
Lynch’s eyes narrowed and he went back to looking out the window. Burton wanted to let him run but he had closed down, just as quickly as he had opened up. Lynch snorted a quiet laugh to himself.
‘So the other day, I’m walking round to the shop to get a pint of milk. It’s eleven o’clock in the morning, and round the back of the Spar there’s these two young ones, sitting among the bins. Glue sniffing. Twelve, maybe thirteen. They’re passing this plastic bag between them, taking turns to put their faces into it. They have that red rash round their mouth like you see. They look up for a second, almost look through me, and go back at it. It’s their eyes. Empty. The lights are on but there’s nobody home. Like they’re completely dead on the inside. They’d pull a knife on you as soon as look at you. They don’t give a shit. Don’t care about getting caught, getting a beating, getting locked up. Because nothing can happen to them that will make their lives worse than they already are. I mean, how the fuck do you hit rock bottom by the time you’re twelve? So that there is nothing to be done. Except you stick your head in a bag so you can forget about everything, even if it’s only for thirty seconds. What I want to know is this, Doc: if your Buddhists know so much, then are things going to start changing for these two?’