'It's already too late,' Crokus muttered, but he clambered to his feet nonetheless.
'There is too much mystery in this path to be certain of anything,' Icarium replied. 'Twice we have travelled warrens — their aspects I cannot say. They felt ancient and fragmented, woven into the very rock of Raraku. At one point I smelled the sea…'
'As did I,' Mappo said, shrugging his broad shoulders.
'More and more,' Crokus said, 'her journey takes a tack where such things as rebirth become more probable. I am right in that, aren't I?'
'Perhaps,' Icarium conceded. 'Yet, this pensive air hints at uncertainty as well, Crokus. Be mindful of that.'
'Apsalar is not seeking to flee us,' Mappo said. 'She is lead' ing us. What significance should we place in that? With her godly gifts she could easily mask her trail — that shadow-wrought residue that, to Icarium and to myself, is as plain and undisguised as an Imperial road.'
'There might be something else besides,' Fiddler muttered. Faces swung his way. He drew a deep breath, let it out slowly. 'The lass knows our intent, Crokus — what Kalam and I had planned and what is still — as far as I know — being followed. She could well have taken the notion that by assuming the guise of Sha'ik, she can… indirectly… support our efforts. In a manner wholly her own rather than that of the god who once possessed her.'
Mappo smiled wryly. 'There is much you've held from myself and Icarium, soldier.'
'An Imperial matter,' the sapper said, not meeting the Trell's eyes.
'Yet one that sees advantage in this land's rebellion.'
'Only in the short run, Mappo.'
'In becoming Sha'ik reborn, Apsalar will not simply be engaging in a change of costume, Fiddler. The cause of the goddess will take hold of Apsalar's mind, her soul. Such visions and visitations will change her.'
'She may not realize that particular possibility, I'm afraid.'
'She's not a fool,' Crokus snapped.
'I'm not saying she is,' Fiddler replied. 'Like it or not, Apsalar possesses something of a god's arrogance — I was witness to the full force of that back on Genabackis, and I can see that its stain still resides within her. Consider her present decision to leave Iskaral's temple, alone, in pursuit of her father.'
'In other words,' Mappo said, 'you think she might believe she can withstand the influence of the goddess, even as she assumes the role of prophetess and warleader.'
Crokus scowled. 'My mind's tumbling from one thing to the next. What if the patron god of assassins has reclaimed her? What will it mean if the rebellion is suddenly led by Cotillion — and, by extension, Ammanas? The dead Emperor returns to wreak vengeance.'
There was silence. Fiddler had been gnawing on that possibility like an obsessed hound since it had occurred to him days earlier. The notion of a murdered Emperor turned Ascendant suddenly reaching out from the shadows to reclaim the Imperial throne was anything but a pleasant prospect. It was one thing seeking to assassinate Laseen — that was, in the end, a mortal affair. Gods ruling a mortal Empire, on the other hand, would draw other Ascendants, and in such a contest entire civilizations would be destroyed.
They finished their meal without another word spoken.
The dust filling the air refused to settle; it simply hung motionless, hot and lifeless. Icarium repacked the supplies. Fiddler strode over to Crokus.
'No value in fretting, lad. She's found her father, after all these years — there's something to be said for that, don't you think?'
The Daru's smile was wry. 'Oh, I've thought on that, Fid. And yes, I am happy for her, yet mistrustful. What should have been a wondrous reunion has been compromised. By Iskaral Pust. By Shadow's manipulation. It's soured everything-'
'However you may have envisioned it, Crokus, it belongs to Apsalar.'
The lad was silent for a long minute, then he nodded.
Fiddler retrieved his crossbow and slung it over one shoulder. 'At the very least, we've had a respite from Sha'ik's soldiers and the D'ivers and Soletaken.'
'Where is she leading us, Fid?'
The sapper shrugged. 'I suspect we'll find that out soon enough.'
The weathered man stood on the hump of rock, facing Raraku. The shroud of silence was absolute; he could hear his own heart, a steady, mindless rhythm in his chest. It had begun to haunt him.
Rocks skittered at his back, and a moment later the Toblakai appeared, dropping a brace of arm-long lizards onto the bleached bedrock. 'Everything's come out for a look around,' the giant youth rumbled. 'For once, a meal worth eating.'
The Toblakai was gaunt. His rages of impatience were gone, and Leoman was thankful for that, though he well knew that a withering of strength was the cause. We wait until Hood comes to take us, the huge barbarian had whispered a few days back, when the Whirlwind had burgeoned in renewed frenzy.
Leoman had had no answer to that. His faith was in tatters. Sha'ik's wrapped corpse still lay between the wind-sculpted stone gateposts. It had shrunk. The tent-cloth shroud had frayed in the ceaseless, clawing wind. The dry knobs of her joints protruded through the worn weave. Her hair, which had continued to grow for weeks, had been pulled free and whipped endlessly in the storm.
Yet now a change had come. The Whirlwind held its immortal breath. The desert, which had been lifted entire from its bones of rock, filling the air, refused to settle.
The Toblakai saw this as the Whirlwind's death. Sha'ik's murder had triggered a prolonged tantrum, a defeated goddess rampaging in frustration and fury. Even as the rebellion spread its bloody cloak over Seven Cities, its heart was dead. The armies of the Apocalypse were the still-twitching limbs on a corpse.
Leoman, plagued with hunger-born visions and fevers, had begun a slow stumbling towards the same belief.
Yet..
'This meal,' the Toblakai said, 'will give us the strength needed, Leoman.'
For leaving. And where do we go? To the oasis in the centre of Raraku, where a dead woman's army still waits? Are we the chosen deliverers of the news of tragic failure? Or do we abandon them? Set off for Pan'potsun, then on to Ehrlitan, a flight into anonymity?
The warrior turned. His gaze travelled over the ground and came to rest on the Book of Dryjhna where it waited, unmarred by the Whirlwind, immune even to the dust that found its way into everything. The power abides. Unquenched. When I look upon that tome, I know I cannot let go. .
'Blades in hand and unhanded in wisdom. Young, yet old, one life whole, another incomplete — she shall emerge renewed…' Did still-hidden truths remain within those words? Had his imagination — his wilful yearning — betrayed him?
The Toblakai squatted before the dead lizards, flipped the first one onto its back and set a knifeblade to its belly. 'I would go west,' he said. 'Into the Jhag 'Odhan …'
Leoman glanced over. The jhag Odhan, there to come face to face with other giants. The Jhag themselves. The Trell. More savages. The lad will feel right at home in that wasteland. 'This is not over,' the warrior said.
The Toblakai bared his teeth, a hand plunging through the slit in the lizard's belly to re-emerge with slick entrails. 'This one's female. It's said the roe is good for fevers, isn't it?'
'I am not fevered.'
The giant said nothing, but Leoman saw a new set to his shoulders. The Toblakai had made a decision.
'Take what's left of your kill,' the warrior said. 'You'll need it more than I.'