Faustus looked at me as if he knew what I was thinking about those buttock-loving Virgins.
‘Tiberius! I have been about your business.’
‘Any luck?’
‘Lots.’
‘Brilliant. Lunch?’
‘Lovely.’
We started to walk. Then my good spirits died on me. Faustus had been with Vibius and other people when he had seen me and come over. Now he was heading back to them. Vibius was talking to his colleague, Salvius Gratus, whose horrible sister accompanied him as stubbornly as a bailiff. I was starting to feel sorry for her brother.
Laia Gratiana glared. She did not want me besmirching his campaign. I restrained my aggravation. While I would have liked to apply strong kitchen implements to delicate parts of her, the gadget had not yet been invented that would grate up that woman finely enough for me.
For a grim moment I thought Manlius Faustus intended we would all go to lunch as one large party. I was bound to get stuck next to Laia, who would blank me, and I knew the men would drink all the wine they ordered, ignoring us women.
Vibius appeared to think a big sociable lunch was on: he invited everyone home to his parents’ house; those parents were quiet elderly people who had come to support him and were now waiting nearby in a litter. Happily Faustus excused us. ‘You go ahead. Albia and I need a strategy meeting. I’ll come along to the house later.’
The Grati were promised elsewhere. As they left, I heard Laia ask, ‘When shall we be seeing your wife, Sextus Vibius?’
‘Ah, please excuse her. The poor girl really cannot abide crowds.’
I wondered if, like me, she could not abide Laia Gratiana.
‘Darling Julia!’ Laia cooed, so I wanted to vomit – and I did not even know Vibius’ wife.
Faustus wheeled me away in his brisk manner. The others were all walking one way around the Flavian Amphitheatre, past the Sweating Fountain, but he headed around the ellipse in the other direction. Once we shed them, he let out an oddly triumphant whistle between his teeth. (He had teeth a dentist would curse, none in need of extraction.) ‘Smart getaway!’
He grinned. I hid my surprise. Still, if Manlius Faustus thought I had news, he would want to assess it with me in private. Vibius was impetuous; Faustus liked to prepare a plan thoroughly before talking to him about it.
We were at the south end of the Forum. On the far side of the amphitheatre, Faustus muttered with mild annoyance. He had spotted a senator he needed to beard while he had an opportunity: the man was, for once, unencumbered by mistresses or hustlers trying to sell him things. With a quick apology Faustus left me for a moment while he darted over to canvass the senator’s vote.
I watched him go, a relaxed figure in the formal dress he was obliged to wear for business. Many men found it hard to endure a toga, but Faustus shouldered the heavy folds easily. He refused to let it interfere with whatever he wanted to do. He looked the perfect campaign manager, efficient and intent.
I waited in the shade. For personal reasons I rarely came here, or rarely stopped to look around. The great, glorious drum of Vespasian’s triumphal arena rolled away on both sides, clad with Travertine marble from its specially opened quarry and decorated with statues that my father and grandfather had helped source. From street level nobody noticed that some were substandard: legs, spears, even heads had been missing, but the damage was expertly repaired for my naughty grandpa.
I felt slightly daunted. Three monumental levels of the great arena towered above me, each ringed with one of the classical orders of columns, then above them soared the topmost level with its huge flashing bronze shields; even that was crowned with yet another feature, the awning that shaded spectators. It was the highest building in Rome. With the sun at full strength, I felt heat throbbing off the gleaming marble.
Standing there below the grand entrance, I let myself gaze up at the big bronze four-horse chariot that dominates the imperial archway. This is what you are supposed to notice. I should never have looked: I was overwhelmed by a great gust of melancholy.
Faustus returned. I brightened my expression. He paused. ‘Was I too long?’
‘No, no.’
‘You look subdued.’ He, too, glanced up, a little surprised. ‘Do you have an aversion to the Victory quadriga?’
I don’t know why. He cannot have expected it, but I blurted out why I was sad. ‘This is the spot where my husband was killed.’
‘Here?’
‘Right here.’
He was shocked. ‘Oh, my dear, I am so sorry. I would never have left you anywhere so painful … Quickly, let’s go somewhere else.’ When I stayed put, Faustus grew still. ‘I never liked to ask you what happened, but do you want to talk about it?’
‘That’s brave! Don’t worry, I won’t cry.’
‘Cry all you want. Share your trouble.’
He had done quite enough for me, but maybe I was still so weak I needed his offer. That was unusual for me. My husband and I had kept our joys private; after he died I clutched my bereavement to myself in the same way. People had worried over me, but I never let any of them come close. All my life I had managed grief by myself.
‘Tell me,’ urged Faustus. ‘You and I can tell each other anything, you know that.’
That was news to me. Still, for once breaking my silence seemed right.
‘Well Lentullus, my husband, had a badly damaged leg. He had been wounded, defending Uncle Quintus in a fight. He could walk and do most things, but he often struggled and his movement was hampered. If he attempted sudden turns, he would even fall down.’
Faustus listened.
‘There was a freak accident. You are allowed to see this as a funny story,’ I assured him, smiling wanly. ‘Lentullus would have found it hilarious. It was grim for me, being left behind so unexpectedly. But the accident could only have happened to him and I am easy with it nowadays …’
I pointed. Faustus and I stared up again at the vivid sculpture placed above the main gate. The four enormous reproductions of galloping horses, heads up, straining, manes flying, as Victory urged them on. The fabulously decorated chariot with its rapt driver. Each horse with one proud hoof raised, to give an impression of furious galloping movement forward.
‘What happened, Albia?’
‘Farm Boy, as I called him, was watching the sculptor’s men erect the four horses. He would have been fascinated. Lentullus had a childlike personality. We used to say, if ever there was a hole in the road with a notice saying, “Danger, keep out”, he would go straight over to see what the danger was, and fall in …’
His personality would never have altered, but I had changed in the intervening years. Although we were close to begin with, I would have grown out of him. It would have been a tragedy. He would never have understood why, and would have been heartbroken.
‘Go on,’ Faustus persuaded me gently, as I faltered.
‘Everybody laughed about him, but he loved me and I needed that.’ Faustus nodded. ‘To him, everything in the world seemed wondrous. He was always thrilled to watch things happening. He would have been completely absorbed here …’ I hesitated, then carried on unprompted. ‘The bronze horses’ legs had been cast as separate pieces, I presume because of their weight. They were being fixed to the bodies, which had already been winched up there. Something went wrong.’
I saw Faustus breathe, anticipating.
‘A leg fell. Witnesses said my poor daft boy made no attempt to move – he just stood with his mouth open, watching, while the enormous piece came down. If I had been there, he would have squealed, “Coo, look at this, chick! They’ve dropped a bit.” Marvelling. Unaware of his danger. Unable to move, anyway. So the bronze smashed down right on him. He was killed outright.’