“What are you looking for?” Claire asked again, a little more forcefully.
“I’m not sure yet.”
“We can go back inside if you think there’s a problem.”
“The wards protect the porch as well as the house. It’s no safer inside.”
“It’s no safer anywhere,” she said bitterly.
“Careful. You’re starting to sound like me.” I paused, listening, but my ears failed me, too. I could hear the wind snapping the tarp we’d put over a hole in the roof, the squeak of the weather vane and the creak of the porch swing’s chains. But nothing else.
Claire hugged her arms around herself. “You scare me sometimes.”
“This from the woman who just handed me my ass in there.”
“I didn’t mean I’m afraid of you,” she said impatiently. “I’m afraid for you. You look like you’re planning to take on an army all by yourself.”
“Are you expecting one?”
“Not yet,” she muttered.
“Well, that’s something.” I decided to let the wards do their job and concentrated on setting up the porch for civilized living.
It had been furnished more with comfort in mind than style. An old porch swing, with flaking white paint and rusty chains, sat on the left. A sagging love seat that Claire had brought with her from her old apartment, and which the house wouldn’t permit past the front door, sat on the right. And a potting bench nestled up against the back of the house, next to the door.
I put the bottles and glasses on the bench and went back for the takeout. I returned to find Claire frowning at a small blue bottle and the boys hunched over a chess set my roommates had left out. They were sprawled on their stomachs near the stairs, happily watching the tiny pieces beat the crap out of one another.
The board was Olga’s. The pieces were trolls on one side and ogres on the other, all equipped with miniature weapons—swords, axes and what appeared to be a small catapult half hidden behind some trees. The game was played on an elaborate board complete with forests, caves and waterfalls, and it bore, as far as I’d been able to tell, no relationship to human chess whatsoever. Olga maintained that I only said that because I always lost.
“I could make us some tea,” Claire offered, as I put the bags on the makeshift bar. “I saw some in the cupboard.”
“I don’t like tea.”
“But you do like this stuff?” She held up the rotund bottle containing her uncle’s bootleg brew.
“I like some of the things it does for me,” I told her, plucking it out of her fingers and pouring a generous measure into my glass.
“I thought you were supposed to be on some task force to keep that kind of thing off the streets,” she said accusingly.
I smiled. “I assure you, I’ve been keeping off all I can.”
“I don’t think the idea was to stockpile it for your own use. It’s illegal because it drives people crazy, Dory!”
“And it makes those of us who already are a little more sane.”
She blinked. “What?”
I held up the glass. The crystal clear contents reflected the lights from the hall, shooting rays around the porch and making Stinky cover his eyes. “Here’s to the best antidote for my fits I’ve ever found.”
One of the fun facts of my life is frequent rage-induced blackouts. They can last from a few minutes to a few days, but the results are always the same: blood, destruction and, usually, a high body count. They are what passes for normal with my kind—the result of a human metabolism crossed with a vampire’s killing instinct—and they are one of the main reasons why there are so few of us. And, because the problem is genetic, there is no cure.
Not that anyone has looked very hard. Like most human drug companies, the magical families who specialized in healing liked to make a profit. And there was little money to be made in devising something to help a scant handful of people.
Claire’s eyes widened as she stared at my glass. “That really helps your attacks?”
“Stops them cold. And unlike human drugs, it works every time.”
She picked up the bottle and took a cautious sniff. She made a face. “It’s worse than I remembered.”
“It’s pretty strong,” I said as her eyes started watering. In fact, it could double as paint thinner, which was probably why it was usually used as a mixer. But I wasn’t drinking it for the taste.
“It isn’t really wine,” she told me, setting it down. “It’s a distillation of dozens of herbs, berries and flowers, most of which have never been tested in any scientific way. And I don’t like the idea of you as the guinea pig.”
“I thought I volunteered.” Claire was a scion of one of the oldest magical houses on Earth, one that specialized in the healing arts. She’d been working at the auction house only because of a dispute over her inheritance, which had left her on the run from a greedy cousin. Before then, research had been her specialty, and lately, she’d been experimenting on fey plants, hoping to find something that would help my condition.
“That’s different! I know what went into everything I sent you. It was safe—”
“And ineffective.”
She frowned. “Anything could be in there. I have no idea what ingredients Pip used. The recipes differ widely from family to family, which is why you get so many varieties of this stuff. And Pip never left any notes lying around.”
“More’s the pity.”
“You don’t get it, Dory. Drugs—and this can definitely be classified that way—often have a cumulative effect. Even the fey experience some mild side effects over time—”
I laughed. “Mild for them, maybe. I’m not a fey.”
“That’s my point! This is a controlled substance on Earth because it brings out latent magical abilities in humans. Before it addicts them and drives them insane!”
“I’m not human, either.”
“You’re half.”
“Which is why I’m careful.”
Claire’s eyes narrowed; something must have come through in my tone. “What have you been experiencing?”
“As you said, some mild side effects.”
“Like what?”
“Heightened memories, mostly. With sharper sensations, Dolby surround sound, the works.”
“Like hallucinations?”
“Like heightened memories, Claire. It’s no big deal.”
She didn’t look convinced. “And you can control them? You can snap out of these memories whenever you want?”
“Yes,” I said easily. “Now, do you want to eat, or do you want to lecture me some more?”
The look on her face said this wasn’t over. But her stomach growled, momentarily overruling her head. I flopped onto the love seat, passed around oyster pails, paper plates and chopsticks and we dug in.
“God, I missed this,” she told me a few minutes later, her mouth full of chow mein.
“What?”
“Greasy human takeout.”
“They don’t have the equivalent in Faerie?”
“No. They also don’t have TV, movies, iPods or jeans.” Her hand ran over the threadbare denim covering her knee. “Damn, I missed jeans.”
I laughed. “I thought you’d like being waited on hand and foot—”
“And having servants follow me everywhere, and having to dress up every damn day and having everybody defer to me but nobody talk to me?” She rolled her eyes. “Oh, yeah. It’s been great.”
“Heidar talks to you, doesn’t he? And Caedmon?” Heidar was Claire’s big blond fiancé. Caedmon was his father, the king of one branch of the Light Fey.
“Yes, but Heidar’s gone half the time, patrolling the border, and Caedmon’s holed up in high-level meetings deciding God knows what while I’m supposed to hang around and, I don’t know, knit or something!”
“You don’t knit.”
“I’ve been so bored, I’ve been thinking of learning.”
“Sounds like you need a vacation.”
She chewed noodles and didn’t say anything.
I tugged off my boots and chucked them by the door, enjoying the feel of the smooth old boards under my feet. They’d absorbed a lot of heat through the day, and were giving it off in steady warmth that contrasted nicely with the cooler air. A few moths fluttered around the old ship’s lantern overhead, which was swinging slightly in the breeze.