I found the plan exhausting. Intuiting this, my mom gathered my dishes and said, “There’s no rush. You’re on vacation. But for your dad’s lunch break, you know, we have to time it right.”
So I showered and dressed — without my mother’s help, I’m proud to say — and joined her in the driveway.
We waited for twenty minutes in a long line of cars inching to the intersection at Sierra Highway and K, expecting to find an accident or construction at the light. But when we finally passed through, I couldn’t spot signs of either. Outside the Starbucks, the drive-through line looped around the building, all the way out into the parking lot designated for Target garden center customers. Inside, however, the coffee shop was empty. “Don’t they know it takes longer in the drive-through?” my mom said once we’d gone back outside, triumphantly sipping caramel Frappuccinos and peering at the line of drivers waiting beside us. “Nobody wants to leave the car anymore,” she said, “not even for a minute.”
In an act of defiance, we decided to walk the three-quarters of a mile across the enormous parking lot separating us from our next destination, the shoe store. The weather reports might’ve called the temperature in the low 90s, but between the unobstructed sun and the asphalt, surrounded by the gleaming bodies of minivans and SUVs, and equipped with nothing but a melting milk shake to press against our foreheads, the heat was unbearable. We got maybe a fifth of the way to Payless before my mom stopped, shielded her eyes with a flattened hand, and asked if we could go back to get the car.
* * *
I was trying on my third pair of flip-flops when a woman who wasn’t my mother called my name. I recognized the accent, but didn’t realize who she was until she brought me in for a hug. Mrs. Watts — née Teresa Estrada — moved her long braid from one shoulder to the other and stood back to see me in full.
“Your skin looks good,” she said. “You look younger now than you did in high school.”
“Thanks,” I said, feeling a zit form on my nose. We talked about college and how I was enjoying the Bay Area, where she had some family, actually, in Richmond.
“How’s business?” my mom asked, a clumsy attempt to join the conversation. The extent of their relationship was that they’d met a handful of times over the years. They were both immigrants, loved their God and their families, and were notoriously good cooks. But these not-insubstantial overlaps hadn’t been able to spark a friendship, for whatever reason. I doubted Teresa would’ve approached my mother if I hadn’t been there.
“Business is wonderful,” Teresa said, though the way she stuffed her hands into the front pockets of her jeans hinted that she’d rather not talk about work. She and her husband ran a landscaping company, whose blue-and-white trucks I’d seen around town since before I knew Watts. “I’m on my way out,” she said, citing the curled receipt drooping from the plastic bag at her feet, “but I wanted to say hello.”
“Well,” my mom said. “Hello.”
“Hey,” Teresa said, “I want to have you over for dinner. The whole family.”
“Oh,” my mom said, putting on a ridiculous performance of gratitude. “I wanted to have your family over for dinner!”
“No, no — I offered first!”
“Well, Daley’s only here a couple more days,” my mom said, “so maybe the next time he’s home—”
“Hey, this is actually perfect,” Teresa said. “Daley and Daniel probably want to spend some time together this trip, right? This way they can do that without you having to sacrifice any time with your son, no?”
I couldn’t pin down why Teresa was being so pushy. Did she want to have dinner with us, or was she simply competing in a mom-off, where the object of the game was to embarrass the other mother with sweet, undying insistence? Had Watts put her up to this?
“Oh,” Teresa went on, affecting a pained sympathy. “Tomorrow night’s probably too short notice for you.”
“You know,” my mom said, planting her feet. “Tomorrow night should be perfect.”
“Okay, great,” Teresa said. “I’ll make sure my son will be available. He’s in school, too, I’m sure you know. Summer school, even, for the emergency medical training.”
“That’s right,” my mom said, seeing an opening. “And I’m sure he’s saving a lot of money by staying home and going to the junior college.”
“He is,” Teresa said. She widened her stance and shifted her braid to the other side. “It’s a good thing he doesn’t have to take out all those loans you see in the news, crippling loans students can never pay back.”
“I look at it this way,” my mom said. “A loan is just a bet we place on ourselves.”
“True,” said Teresa, “but gambling can be a vice.”
The conversation went on this way for a few minutes, during which I found a suitable pair of flip-flops. After Teresa left, my mom pretended to look at the small selection of jewelry at the front counter, giving her enough time so that we didn’t run into Teresa again in the parking lot. When the coast was clear, we got back in the car.
* * *
At lunch, my dad had some bad news for my mom, who was in the middle of an enthusiastic pitch for the next night’s dinner plans: He wouldn’t be able to make it. “Tomorrow,” he said, “there’s supposed to be some kind of rally on the Boulevard. Apparently, tons of people are going to be in town all weekend, so we’re being asked to work late. I guess my boss thinks the protesters will finish marching, turn to each other, and in one passionate voice declare, ‘Now let’s buy some furniture!’”
My mom didn’t laugh or even seem to hear him, clearly plotting what she was going to say to Teresa about her missing husband. Would appearing without him prove that she was somehow an inferior wife? Could she tactfully back out of the plans?
While my mom’s machinery was at work, I asked my dad about the rally on the Boulevard.
“I heard it has something to do with zoning issues,” he said, his confidence waning with every word, “or a new business park development? The environment? I don’t really know, to be frank.” He resumed chewing the last of his burger. As a kid in Michigan, he’d been hit by a car while riding his bike, and had to have his jaw reset. Now every time he bit down, I could hear a snap. After the last snap, we got up and said good-bye.
My mom and I were stuck at another achingly long red light on the drive home. As casually as I could, I asked why she didn’t seem to like Teresa Watts.
“What?” She turned in the driver’s seat to face me, genuinely wounded. “I have nothing but respect for Teresa.”
I said I didn’t mean any harm. From the outside, I explained, the two of them seemed to give off a kind of competitive, unfriendly vibe.
“We’re mothers,” she said. “We believe our sons are the best. And we know there can only be one best.” After we traveled a few feet closer to the stalled intersection, she put the car in park — good for the brakes, she claimed — and pulled her short legs beneath her on the seat. “Stop acting like your father,” she said. “All these questions. You’re integrating me.”
“I don’t mean to interrogate you,” I said.
At home, I changed into my trunks and glided splashlessly back into the pool. I could hear my mother in the driveway out front, hosing down the car. Not just the desert, but all of California was in a severe drought, and as I lay floating on my back, I felt immensely guilty, remembering an old teacher of mine, a farmer, who’d once made us draw bar codes on our faucets to remember that water wasn’t free. But the guilt, as always, passed. I hoped tomorrow’s rally was in the spirit of environmentalism, but soon the hope passed, too, and I simply floated, focusing on nothing at all but my own breathing.