Patrick Jensen encountered that side when Cynthia next saw him, after cautiously avoiding him for several months.
2
For Cynthia's next meeting with Jensen she chose the Cayman Islands, the ultimate discreet destination where total privacy is possible if that is what you want. Cynthia did.
They traveled separately and stayed at different hotels. Cynthia's reservation at Grand Cayman's Hyatt Regency was in the name of Hilda Shawl To avoid using an identifying credit card, she sent a cash deposit via Western Union and added more cash on arrival. At the check-in desk, no one raised an eyebrow.
Jensen, obeying phoned instructions from Cynthia, made his own separate reservation at the nearby, more modest Sleep Inn. But for most of the three days and nights in Grand Cayman, he stayed in Cynthia's room, which overlooked sculptured gardens.
When they first met there, having been apart for three months, they seized each other, hurriedly tore off their clothes, and made violent love so violent that when Cynthia climaxed she pounded both clenched fists on Jensen's shoulders.
He protested, "Jesus Christ, that hurts!"
When they were lying calmly amid the rumpled sheets, Patrick said, "So much happened that last night we were together, I never got around to thanking you for what you did for me. So I thank you now."
"Thanks aren't important." Cynthia's voice was deliberately offhand. "I simply paid a purchase price."
Patrick laughed. "What does that mean?"
"It means I own you."
There was a silence. Patrick said slowly, "I suppose you're talking about that box of tricks? You've got it hidden away somewhere."
She nodded. "Naturally."
"And you think that if I disobey you somehow, or offend you, you can open it up and say, 'Hey, guys! look at all this evidence. Now you can nail that bastard Jensen.' "
"You write good dialogue." Cynthia gave a small, tight smile. "I couldn't have said it better."
Patrick's face had the ghost of a smile, too. "But there's a detail or two you've overlooked. Even you. Like your handwriting on those labels. And some fingerprints. . ."
"All of that's gone," she lied, reminding herself that it was a detail she must attend to soon. "I labeled the bags so you'd remember what I was doing. Now only your fingerprints are on everything. And, oh yes, there's an audiotape."
Cynthia described how everything Jensen had said in her apartment that night his admission of having killed Naomi and her friend Kilburn Holmes had been recorded. "I brought a copy of the tape with me. Want to hear it?"
He gestured dismissively. "Never mind; I believe you. But I could still rope you in by explaining how you helped me hide the evidence. So if they found me guilty, you'd be fucked an accessory at least."
Cynthia shook her head. "No one would believe you.
I'd deny everything and would be believed. And something else." Her voice hardened. "The evidence would be found in some place where you could have hidden it. Unfortunately, you wouldn't know where that was until an anonymous tip-off caused the police to find it."
They faced each other fully then, each calculating. Paradoxically, Jensen leaned back and laughed. With apparent good nature he lifted both hands in a signal of surrender. "Darling Cynthia, you're really a skewed genius. Well, you said you own me. I now admit you do."
"You don't seem to mind."
"This may be some kind of perversion, but the funny thing is, I rather like it." He added thoughtfully, "It would make a great story."
"Which you will never write."
"Then what will I do since I'm to be some kind of pet you're holding on a leash?"
The moment had come. Cynthia's eyes riveted him. "You will help me kill my parents."
* * *
"Listen to me," Cynthia ordered. "Listen very carefully."
Moments earlier, when Jensen had tried to talk to reason with her, as he saw it, after her shattering statement she'd silenced him. He sat quietly waiting.
Now, taking her time, drawing on earliest childhood memories plus details she had coaxed from her mother, Cynthia laid before him, graphically and persuasively, the whole story, sparing him and herself nothing.
As a newborn . . . Custav's sick sexual obsession with Cynthia. . . his obscene probing. . . her own innocent terror, growing each day until, at the age of three, even the sight of her father approaching made her hide under the covers, sobbing, shrinking away. . .
Eleanor did nothing, thinking of herself only of her own potential shame and disgrace if Gustav's perversion was revealed. . .
Meanwhile, Cynthia's young mind was developing, even while Gustav persisted in abusing her. . . Her memories, now crystallizing, would be carried with her down the years, along with fear and rage. . .
The memories were monstrous of Gustav's everincreasing sexual interest in his daughter, stimulated now by beatings. . . hard, stinging slaps and blows for trivial ''offenses,'' their nature neither explained nor understood . . . And more, still more "punishment" for what?. . . The bruises, the burned legs. . . the endless lies her mother told . . .
When Cynthia was six, her father first rubbed himself against her. . . And later, as her body grew the ultimate perversion and humiliation he began raping her, an act so disgusting and painful that she screamed. .. Gustav, obsessed with his own satisfaction, took no notice, perhaps even enjoying his daughter's despair. . . Still Eleanor did nothing . . .
Thus, with the stage set finally, inevitably Cynthia's pregnancy happened at age twelve. . . The horror for a child now hidden away, shielded from outsiders' view, knowing she was ungainly, her body expanding amid strange sensations and movement inside her. . . Aware, too, she was in deep disgrace, made to feel guilty, yet helpless to help herself, and with no one to talk with, to lean on, or to trust. . . And at the degrading, secret, painful birthing, the baby she never saw whisked away. . .
The sole consolation: The sexual assaults by Gustav, which had continued through her pregnancy, somehow ceased, for reasons she never knew until much later, when her mother reluctantly revealed their lawyer's threat to expose Gustav if he didn't stop . . .
Then, like some evil postscript, Eleanor and her statement to the welfare woman that official person who accepted the glib lies and never insisted on hearing Cynthia's story . . .
Eventually, and despite everything, Cynthia's coldly pragmatic calculation . . . her decision to bide her time, to use her parents until her independence was assured, and then to exercise her long-festering hatred and to kill them as they had killed so much in her. . .
That retribution time was nearer now, as she began to plan . . . And she had her instrument. . .
* * *
Throughout the entire recital, Patrick Jensen scarcely moved. But his face was a mirror of successive emotions incredulity at first, then disgust, anger, horror, and concern. At one point his eyes even brimmed with tears. At another he reached out as if to take Cynthia's hand, but she withdrew it.
At the end he shook his head in anguish. "Unbelievable." His voice was barely audible. "I can hardly believe - "
"Goddam! You'd better believe it," Cynthia cut in sharply, combatively.
"I didn't mean that . . . Give me a minute." After a pause, "I do believe you. Every single thing. But it's so - '
Impatiently, "So what?"
"So hard to find words to fit. In my life I've done bad things, but this kind of sick "
"Oh, Patrick, get off it. You murdered two people."
"Yeah, I know." He grimaced. "I'm a shit, okay. Yes, I did kill out of passion, or impulse, or whatever. But what I'm saying is that your parents, over a long period, with lots of time to think about what they were doing. . . well, the way I see it, your parents are the stinking scum of the earth."