She kept making detours till she felt like it in blindman’s buff. She’d been spun around too many times to know which way was which. She desperately needed someone to tell her if she was getting warmer.
Right now she was getting colder. And hungrier. And more frightened.
The simple rocking motion of putting one foot before the other lulled Joelle back to sleep. Joanna was tempted to join her. In the morning she’d at least be able to see—survey her surroundings and make an educated guess where she was.
She was worried someone would peek in the room—Tomás or Puento. That they’d send out searchers who knew the jungle and, more important, knew how to track someone in it. She had to keep moving.
She stumbled into a large clearing.
It was as if someone had flicked on the room lights. She could suddenly see her legs, Joelle’s sleeping face, the sky. She hadn’t seen the sky since . . . well, she couldn’t remember. She was momentarily stunned at the tapestry of glittering stars—so many of them that it seemed artificial, like an enormous disco ball. She stood there and caught her breath.
Odd. Here she was in the middle of a jungle, but if she didn’t know any better, she would’ve sworn she was standing before a field. Something cultivated, regular, attended to. There was a dank but distinct odor in the air. What?
She stepped forward till she stood on its very edge.
Of course.
Coca. She’d stumbled across an illegal cocaine field, the kind they grew deep in the jungle to shield from government patrols.
Joanna felt a surge of—what? Hope?
She was trespassing on dangerous ground. But at least it was ground trod by humans.
If she waited till morning, someone might come—the farmer who tended it. But what if it wasn’t a campesino looking for a little supplemental income? What if it was one of—them? Maybe they grew their own fields—maybe this was one of them. She felt caught between competing and equally compelling inclinations. She would do anything not to go back into the jungle. If she stayed, if she lay down and curled up till morning, she might end up having waited for the wrong people.
Go or stay?
Then it was decided for her.
The field itself was an indistinct blanket of mostly black. Even as her eyes grew accustomed to her moonlit surroundings, it stayed that way. Black.
It had an odor with an almost physical dimension—wet, pasty, and bitter.
Then she understood. The field looked black because that’s what it was.
Black as ash.
It’d been burned to the ground. She could see it now—a tangle of five-foot coca plants reduced to shattered, twisted stumps.
A government patrol had discovered and torched it. Or the USDF. Or the farmer who grew it. Maybe they practiced a kind of slash-and-burn agriculture.
Anyway, it was abandoned. No one would be coming in the morning.
She had to keep moving.
Which way?
It seemed like you should be able to tell from the stars. How? Paul knew this kind of stuff—she’d bought him a telescope for his thirty-fifth birthday that proved virtually useless on the roof of their apartment building. The bright lights of New York City didn’t just blind starry-eyed newcomers—they did a pretty good job on amateur astronomers. Still, more than once Paul had tried to point out one constellation or another to her. She wished she’d paid more attention.
Okay, which direction?
She swung her arm in an arc and decided she’d stop it when it felt right. Like throwing darts blindfolded.
When her arm stopped moving, it was pointing left.
She kissed Joelle on the top of her head and moved back into the jungle.
MORNING WAS COMING FAST.
The light had changed from deep black to charcoal gray. She stopped having to worry that each footstep might land her in quicksand, or into a hole, or on top of some animal’s head.
That was the good part.
The bad part was that she could see some of the screeching, growling, slithering things that she’d only heard up to now. Imagination might be scarier than reality, she decided, but not by much.
What looked like a kind of baboon swung past her by inches, emitting a threatening screech that almost shattered her eardrums. It landed in the crook of a tree branch four feet above her head and shook a vine in her direction. It displayed its teeth—they looked large and frighteningly sharp.
Joanna turned to her right and stumbled through the underbrush, hoping the monkey wouldn’t come after them.
It didn’t.
Later, she saw a tree branch suddenly move right in front of her. Literally get up and begin detaching itself from the trunk of an enormous tree dripping lacy veils of green moss.
Of course it wasn’t a tree branch. It was a snake—clearly enormous and clearly alerted to her presence. It was as thick as her arm, with dead yellow eyes and a black flickering tongue. Scared stiff and trying not to scream, she watched it uncoil for what seemed like minutes.
It slid off into a thick patch of ferns.
With the growing light came the heat. It covered them like a wet towel and left her drenched in sweat. The insects seemed attracted to perspiration; clouds of white gnats descended on her from all directions. She tried swatting them away, but they were as oblivious as New York City pigeons—short of actual gunfire, they weren’t budging.
Then there were the mosquitoes—or their very large cousins. She was a movable feast for them—her bitten arms were covered in red bumps, as if she’d broken out in hives.
Joelle had started crying again and didn’t seem in any mood to stop.
Even to someone unschooled in the lingo of infants, it was obvious that while Joelle might be hot and uncomfortable, it was all about hunger now. For the first time, Joanna wondered if she’d done the right thing. She should’ve planned—stockpiled baby formula. She was guilty of criminal lack of foresight.
Nothing seemed to calm Joelle down; soon Joanna needed calming as well. Fear lodged somewhere in the pit of her stomach and physically constricted her, as if her legs were bound by rubber bands. She was living through one of those dreams of being chased, where you can’t, for the life of you, move.
They were as lost as lost can be.
The jungle had swallowed them whole—eaten them alive. They weren’t going to get out.
She kept walking anyway—something inside her ordering her to lift one leg, then the other. Sheer stubbornness maybe.
Walking songs—front and center.
I’m walking, yes indeed, I’m talking, yes indeed . . .
These boots are made for walking . . .
Walk like a man . . .
She decided she’d keep walking till she couldn’t. That was fair. Go as long as she could and then drop. Fight the good fight.
It was early morning—save for the brief respite by the abandoned coca field, she’d been walking six straight hours.
Then she smelled it.
She stopped dead, closed her eyes, crossed her fingers.
Sniff.
She smelled it again.
Sausage.
Was that possible?
Hot, sizzling, aromatic sausage?
Maybe it was some kind of plant? An animal? A jungle smell she was simply unfamiliar with?