“After Greydusk administered the antidote, almost a full day.”
“And how long did it take him to find it?”
“Eight hours.”
So it had been over twenty-four hours, in demon time, since we found her pack. Damn it. My injury had cost us a day we might not have to spare. Angry with myself, I strangled a curse.
Gathering my resolve, I tried to sit up and failed. Still too weak. “How long will it take me to recover?”
“Do you not understand you almost died?” His features were tight with exhaustion and worry.
“I get it,” I said. “I also know that Shannon may not have much time left.”
If she has any at all.
“Corine,” he said. “I know you love her. But I don’t. You’re the one I care about, and it kills me to see you go down this road.” He stroked a hand through my tangled hair. “You’re ready to sacrifice anything for her.”
“Yeah. But I’d do it for you too.” That shut him up, as I’d known it would. “Where are we?”
“Greydusk’s place.”
“Wow, he took us home with him?” Talk about going above and beyond the call of duty. Suddenly, it didn’t feel right to think of the Imaron as “it” as if he wasn’t a person. “Sybella must be furious.”
Chance shrugged. “I haven’t been out of this room.”
“I’m sorry I scared you,” I said quietly.
“It wasn’t the first time. I doubt it’ll be the last.” A ghost of a smile chased across his face.
“I didn’t do it on purpose.” In fact, just the opposite. I had been trying to get out of the way, but in the confusion of combat, shit happened. Chance knew it as well as I did. “You didn’t answer my question.”
“Soon,” Greydusk answered from the doorway.
“Seriously—” Chance began, but the demon didn’t give him an opportunity to complete the objection.
“I can give you a tisane to hasten your recovery if you wish.”
“If? Why would you even ask? Let me guess—there’s some hideous side effect, like I grow horns or bark like a dog for the rest of my life.” Butch raised his head from the pillow on a nearby chair and gave me a look. “Sorry, bud. No offense.”
He heaved a particularly eloquent sigh.
“There are consequences for every action,” the demon said. “As you well know, Binder.”
“Lay it on me.”
“The cost for a swift recovery of your strength is a year of your life, should you ingest this potion.” The demon held a slim vial in one long-fingered hand. When he held it to the light, it swirled in shades of red.
Chance tensed. “How long will it take her to heal naturally?”
“Nine of your months.”
I pushed out a slow breath, thinking. It made sense. If I used sufficient energy in one pass to heal that much damage, there had to be a cost. Nine months’ time couldn’t just magickally disappear; it had to come from somewhere. Whatever. In the end, I could make only one choice. The same one I’d been making all along, no matter how shitty the path before me. But…
“What’s the catch?” I asked. “What you said doesn’t guarantee I knock a year off my life span. It could also mean that I lose a year of my past—when something important happens—or I might wind up in indentured servitude.”
“I cannot offer any warranty,” Greydusk said. “All of the above are possible side effects. The ultimate payment results from the will of the potion’s creator.”
Which I have to deal with later. I often took actions that would cost me down the line in order to survive present circumstances. So be it.
“I understand.” I reached for the tisane.
Chance caught my hand. “Are you crazy? Isn’t there any way to narrow down the potential costs?”
“He’s right,” the demon said. “You should give this more consideration.”
Implacably, I turned my arm so my palm faced up. Silently demanding. There was no merit in arguing with either of them. Words were no use after a certain point. I would not be gainsaid or advised by my men when I had not sought their counsel. Greydusk yielded to my stare without further objection, delivering the vial. Chance turned his face away as I broke the wax seal and downed it. It tasted of blood and heartbreak, burning all the way down my throat. My stomach roiled as the demon magick streamed into my veins, lacing my system with black wildfire.
At first it hurt, and then it spun me around, almost as powerful as the Nephilim blood, only instead of colors I saw darkness. Shadows and layers and whispers of gray, marking the demon, and Chance’s hair, which had once only been raven black to my human eyes. Now I saw the hidden glimmer, like the sheen of oil in the sunlight, too subtle and deep for my formerly limited senses to discern.
I felt strong and fast and damn near invincible. Laughing, giddy, I leapt from the bed and demanded, “Where the hell are my clothes?”
Wordless, almost subservient, Greydusk fetched them for me. It was only afterward that I caught myself, a long way past the euphoria, and some part of me shook her head and worried and choked on words of caution. This isn’t you. You don’t think of people as your servants. You don’t give orders. You grew up poor, and you’re not the queen of anything. But that voice was small and boring, and I squashed it. Chance had a grave look about him, and I thought I might need a new consort if he couldn’t learn to be more obedient.
That was a difficult and thorny issue, however, as I didn’t want to ally with any one caste. I would raise no demon higher than another. That way led to unrest and eventual civil war. No, I would be better off with Chance beside me, even if his behavior became tiresome. He offered precisely the measure of presence and charisma I required in a mate. On my arm, he added consequence, as others would certainly know he was no mere human. I liked the fact that I had ensnared a godling; I dropped a careless kiss on his quiet mouth and dressed quickly.
“Bring me her bag.”
“She’s not herself,” Chance said sharply to Greydusk.
“It was a risk of the tisane.”
“What was?”
Outrage built inside me. Were they talking about me like I wasn’t here? Do they not know who I am?
“What’s happening to her?”
In another minute, I was going to blast one of them. The power gathered, and it didn’t feel wrong anymore. It was dark and luscious in my bloodstream, like a black velvet throw, just the right weight to show I meant business. Magick flowed to my fingertips as my rage burned as bright as a falling star.
“She’s starting to ascend.”
Good. All this fucking around made no sense. Skulking? Hiding? I’d level this city, find Shannon, and then run the place properly. These demons knew nothing about fear as of yet, but so help me, I would teach them.
“What does that mean?”
I held the black fire, burning in the palm of my hand. Enough curiosity stirred that I wanted to hear the answer before I smote them for their impertinence. Greydusk turned to watch me, expression unreadable. And then he sank to his knees. Chance turned his head, his brow furrowed in disbelief. The demon used his unnatural strength to drag my consort down into a reluctant obeisance.
“It means the demonic part of her soul is on the rise.”
“Explain,” I demanded, letting the fire die. This seemed like something the Once and Future Queen should know. And since they’d abased themselves before me, my ire was appeased. After I heard the explanation, I would dispense an appropriate punishment for their defiance.
“You have doubtless been told that the Old King’s power over demons came as a gift from the archangels,” Greydusk said softly.
I inclined my head.
“What your source did not reveal, I suspect, is how they imbued the first Binder with that power.”