“What else can you do with your teeth?” she asked, looking at him. “I had a friend who could do that thing where you knot a cherry stem with your tongue. She tried to teach me, but I sucked at it.” She was squinting, her face angled up toward the sun. “I want to see your tattoo.”
“I don’t have any tattoos.”
“The one that says BORN TO LOSE, where is it?” She raised his shirt, revealing his torso, halfheartedly trying to turn him around. “On your shoulders?”
“Hey,” he said, not persuasively.
Her hands stayed on his hard chest, flat but tender, a cross between a tickle and a caress. “This thing you have for me, Gridley. It’s not just a freshman hard-on, is it?”
“What thing?”
She grinned and pressed up against him, hands sliding down to his hips, just above the waistband of his cargo shorts. “You still think I’m something, don’t you?”
“I... Jesus... I know you are.”
His shirt was still up around his armpits, and she was brushing her clothed chest against his bare torso. He was getting hard against her hip. “What about your girlfriend? What would she say if she saw—”
“Don’t talk about her.”
Danielle’s mouth came up to his neck. She nuzzled his throat, whispering, “You ever think about me when you’re with her?”
He hadn’t done anything yet. His hands were still down at his sides. He was trying to think about Royce. Trying to remind himself of all the things the man had done for him. But it wasn’t going well.
He said into her ear, “You know I do.”
She kissed him on the mouth. Firm, yet yielding. Tasting, wanting to be tasted.
He was right up at that line. That line he would not cross. Because once across it, he was all in.
She tugged on the front of his shorts. She was undoing his belt. Unbuttoning the top button.
He touched her arms. Didn’t grab or hold them. A halfhearted protest at best.
“What?” She had his shorts open. She wasn’t stopping.
“Just... not here... not this way.”
She said, “Don’t you know by now that nothing ever happens the way you think it will?”
She untied her blouse and pulled it off her shoulders, hooking her thumbs into the straps of her bra and bringing them down so that her breasts fell over the band.
He was on overload. He was so hard, he could barely feel her hand gripping him.
“Jesus,” she said.
If only he had known, he would have jerked off that morning. He told her, “We might have to go twice.”
At some point, a midafternoon train raced past, Maven vaguely aware of the warning horn, the boulder vibrating beneath them. The rest was all a collision of past and present, of desire and attainment.
Then the drive home.
Maven started twenty different conversations in his head, none of which made it out of his mouth. Danielle sat with her eyes closed, probably not sleeping. Dreaming, maybe, but not sleeping.
Her smell was all over him. He didn’t regret this yet, if he would at all. He only wanted to know, what next? What do we do now? Will this ever happen again?
He backed into the alley garage, killed the engine, pressed the steering-wheel button to lower the garage door.
She turned to him and kissed him before he could speak, long but not deep. A shut-up kiss. She got out of the car, and he did the same.
Royce was coming downstairs with Termino as they went up. Maven was a few steps behind Danielle.
“Everything okay?” Royce asked, stopping.
Danielle shrugged and said, “Ask Gridley,” walking past him to the third floor.
Royce watched her go a moment, then turned to Maven. Maven gripped the handrail tightly, transferring all his panic there, so that the rest of him looked relaxed.
Royce said, “That bad, huh? You look like you’ve been through the wringer.”
Maven felt Termino eyeing him more than Royce. “She, uh... we split a six-pack.”
Royce nodded and continued down the stairs, patting Maven lightly on the shoulder. “You could have said no, you know.”
Maven didn’t like the grin Termino gave him as he went past.
Gyroscope
Maven heard the blow-dryer turn off. he rolled over, sunlight slanting across the rumpled white comforter. The bathroom door opened and Samara came out dressed in a tan and brown suit.
Maven pushed up a bit, his bare shoulders and his head visible. “Another interview?”
“For a job I don’t even really want. With a company that probably won’t hire me. My career counselor suggested a few test interviews to warm up.” She found her wristwatch on the nightstand, next to his. “Wish I had your life.”
“No.” Maven picked up the toy gyroscope next to the alarm clock. A physics course requirement her sophomore year. “Just my hours.”
He wound the string through the eyehole and got it spinning on the pad of his finger, the rotor tumbling inside the whirring gimbals while the exterior remained fixed.
She put in earrings. “Trouble at home?”
“Huh?” he said, unable to look up from the inner workings of the device.
“I like you spending time here, don’t get me wrong. I just can’t tell if it’s me or that you need a place to chill.”
He transferred the gyroscope to the middle finger of his opposite hand so that he could reach for her leg where her skirt stopped below her knee. “Why don’t you stay awhile if the interview is a nothing?”
She batted away his hand. “You’re a bad influence.” She walked away into the kitchen. “Now — out of my bed.”
She was gone by the time he emerged from the shower. He tossed his things into his backpack, finding his MP3 player on her laptop — Samara was a Freestyle music freak, late-1980s and early-1990s dance tunes, which she loaded onto his player while he slept — and headed out the door with his pack slung over one shoulder, munching toast.
As he turned off the stoop toward Cambridge Street, a body exited a parked car across the street. Maven did not turn to look. He kept on walking toward the busy intersection, listening to the shoes scuffing the sidewalk behind him. If it was a gunman, this was going to be bad. He made ready to throw off his backpack, stopping and turning fast.
“Easy there, tiger.” It was the DEA agent, Lash, wearing a long, asphalt-colored raincoat, a pen and a small notebook in his hand like a reporter.
Maven looked around for more agents. Lash was alone.
“You should really go down to the registry, update your license. Seems you no longer live in Quincy. In fact, it seems you have no known address. Got your motorcycle regged here, yet you’re not on the lease and the landlord doesn’t know you.”
Maven nodded, but inside he was cursing himself. Still — better to do this here than outside Marlborough Street.
“I got some bill collectors on me, I’m saving up to pay them off.”
“Must be some heavy bills. You’re living here now?”
“Kind of bouncing around with friends. Getting back on my feet.”
Lash smiled. “You look pretty solid on your feet, you ask me.” Lash put away the pen and notebook. “I wonder what it is you’re up to.”
Maven gave him his best shrug. “Just trying to live my life, man.”
“I was going to ask your girlfriend when she came out, but I thought I’d give you a shot at explaining yourself first.”
Maven bristled at the thought of Samara being buttonholed by a federal agent.
“Now, I did you a solid there,” said Lash. “Least you can do is answer a couple of questions.”
Maven turned his hands up in a gesture of Go ahead.
“Had any more time to think about that girl you were fighting over?”