“Now look up there.”
Kid focused outside the dirty window on the second story of the department store.
“You lookin’ good?”
—was a window where gold letters arched: New Fashions. And behind them, a man, with a rifle in one hand, scratched his thin neck under the too large collar of his blue sports shirt, then ambled on.
“Now what”—with sweetness—“the hell are you doing here?” Nightmare yanked Kid’s head back from the window before he let go. “Come on.” He sucked his teeth. “Tell me now.”
“I just—” Pain subsided.
“I should break your head open, you know?”
“Hey, man, you—”
“Shut up, Copperhead,” Nightmare said.
The big, bearded, redheaded spade leaned in the corner. “—you don’t have to do that,” he finished. “I’ll do it for you, if you want.” He nodded at Kid in damped recognition. “Give ’im to me.”
“Fuck off.” Nightmare waved a peremptory fist. “You just come by, huh? We been planning this three months and you just come by?”
“Well, Pepper told me you guys were maybe down here—”
Nightmare sucked some more. “We been planning—”
“I got him,” Denny said. “Let him go with us. He won’t hurt nothing. I’ll tell him what to do.”
Nightmare glanced questioningly over his shoulder.
“Sure,” Denny insisted.
In his corner, Copperhead turned his stick up behind his arm.
“He can go with my group,” Denny repeated. “He won’t get in the way.”
Kid thought, unsure: Three against two.
Once more Nightmare flung round his fist; and growled.
“Come on,” Denny said. “You come with me.”
“You don’t let him mess up anything!” Nightmare admonished with his chin.
“Yeah. The Kid’ll be okay.”
“He’d better be.”
“He’s a good guy, Nightmare. Come on, you said he was a good guy yourself.”
Nightmare growled once more.
Kid stepped by him, tried and failed not to look at Copperhead. Copperhead blinked and started to smile. Kid decided it was worth his life to fail at anything among them again.
Denny clapped Kid’s arm. “Let’s go.” He looked around and, louder: “You guys, let’s go.”
Some dozen (safer…) clustered; and they were walking through another door, following Denny. The hall of some sort of warehouse? Maybe the back corridor of another store? He looked at the faces around him. The real black guy in vinyl looked up from Kid’s orchid, blinked, looked away; he wore one too, but in a leather strap.
“Here,” Denny said, primarily to Kid. “We just wait here. You follow us when we go. Don’t worry.”
They stopped before another door. A window on one side showed the Emboriky’s sandy wall.
Denny looked over the scorpions with him.
Kid thought: They top Pepper, I guess.
Denny folded his arms, leaned beside the window, occasionally looked out.
Like Copperhead’s little blond brother.
They have a plan, Kid thought, caught in it.
I am not thinking of Lanya.
One on wet leather, one on grit, his feet tingled. How did I get here? Did I choose to come? I want to control these people. (The tingling reached his head, subsided.) I chose. Observe and go, easy with them. He would ask Denny the details of the plan—began to tingle; so didn’t. Observe? But his mind twisted in. Well. What did he think? Nightmare, with all his unreciprocity, he liked. Copperhead was efficient and detestable, a combination intriguing because, in his experience, it was unusual. Denny? Astounded, he realized: Denny had given him the clothes he wore, had first lopped the obtrusive d from his name, and now had him in custody. He squinted at two of the black guys leaning by the window (Denny glanced at Kid, at the floor, out the window) in webbed shadow. Nightmare’s lieutenant…He tried to review the faces left at the hall’s end; there were more than three women in the group. Prompted by the bus ride, he mused on Fenster’s population percentages: What percentage were black? George? Waiting, chained and flowered (he’d seen half a dozen knives), I don’t want to individualize them. Rather deal in their mass than texture. (Priest, Anthrax, Lady of Spain—these names had already been whispered around him: Devastation, Glass [the black in vinyl], California, Filament, Revelation [blond as Bunny but with brutally red skin], Angel, Dollar, D-t.) Fight that. Some two dozen strung down this grey in grey, waiting: there are probably more here who have killed by accident than by intent. That makes them dangerous. What do they become?
“That thing work?” Denny pointed to Kid’s shield.
“No battery.”
Denny shook his head, aping Nightmare’s disgust. “You stay with me, then.”
Either the people or the situation is boring. But either the situation or the people are intriguing. I cannot fix the distinction. Nor, having chosen, would it be useful. Again, I am somewhere where the waiting is more instructive than initial or terminal action. Not thinking of Lanya entails: Her green blinking when something I do surprises her, her expression (it always seems sad) seconds before laughter when something I do amuses. Is this like forgetting a name? I want to be among these people. (Where would she have gone?) It is difficult, because it grosses so little, to consider that I don’t want to be with her. But these, who chew their teeth and shuffle, and engage in interesting waiting: what is their plan? Not so much afraid of what I don’t know about what they do; the cool, absorptive fear I used to feel before stealing books and comics from corner kiosks, shoplifting small compasses and ornamental bullets from army-navy surplus stores.
A long time later, a long way away, someone whistled.
While Denny said, “Come on,” everybody moved.
The doors flapped.
They ran across the street; scorpions were running up the alley. “In here!” was steps down and a metal door in the Emboriky’s side. Kid thought: Grains struggling through the stricture of an hour-glass. He watched Denny three steps before him, paused when Denny paused (at the bottom of more steps), quickened after him. (Worlds within worlds: I am in a different world.) At the first landing, Denny motioned the others ahead, glanced to make sure Kid was still behind him (Plans, completed and synchronized, sketched floor layouts, schedules for the changing guard—he hadn’t seen anyone who looked that intelligent), then pulled a heavier chain from his neck and wound two lengths around his fist. “This way.” The others’ footsteps faded above them as they went from the army drab stairwell through a doorway.
Kid pulled his orchid from his belt loop (the loop, worn from the blade, snapped) and fitted his wrist into the harness. “What’s in here?”
“Nothin’,” Denny said. “I hope.”
The short hall ended on a room full of cardboard boxes. (The wrapping paper in Apartment 19-A. Why?) They had fallen from half-stacked shelves, they covered the floor; they had been pushed into piles and had fallen again.
“What are we doing, huh?” Kid asked.
“Keeping our asses out of trouble,” Denny said. “They wanna run around and get shot at, okay; you got more brains than that. The store’s eight stories high. Covers the whole block. We figure there’s maybe ten, fifteen people in here. I think we’re on the mezzanine.” He glanced back again. “I hope.”
They stepped out into darkness that became three-quarter dark. Kid sniffed. Something had burned in here too. His arm brushed hanging plastic. They snuck through racks of shower curtains, into bath mats and accessories.