“Then—” She looked back at the Marshal. Was it for Ambros, who had trusted her with his fears and died beyond her help? Was it for Canna, who had left her the medallion? Or for something else, something she felt dimly and could not define? “I would be glad, sir, of your recommendation,” she said formally. The Marshal shot a triumphant glance at the Kuakgan; Paks nearly took her words back. But the Kuakgan’s smile was open and friendly. He spoke to her alone.
“Paksenarrion, the Kuakkganni treasure all life created in the first song. We study, we learn, but we do not order a creature from its own way. And the creature itself knows its own way best, unless it is sorely hurt. If the other way had been best for you, you would have known.” He turned back to the Marshal. “Marshal Cedfer, we are no more rivals than two men who plant a seed neither of them knows, and argue until it sprouts whether it will be fireoak or yellowwood. The seed knows itself; it will grow as its nature demands, and when the first leaves open, all arguments are over.”
To Paks’s surprise, the Marshal looked shamefaced. “You’re right, Master Oakhallow. I have no right—but I was hoping so, for some good to come of Ambros’s death.”
The Kuakgan nodded gravely. “And yet you know that good has come of it. The webspinner’s priest is gone, and you will clean that filthy place from end to end. Ambros has shown that your training prepares untried lads for the worst of wars, and the best of ends. You live in constant combat, Marshal, and it makes you alert to each advantage—but the gods move in longer cycles, as well. Be at peace, honest warrior.” He rose and left the room. For a long silent time, Paks and Marshal Cedfer sat in quiet, contented. Then the Marshal shook himself like a wet puppy and snorted.
“Gird’s grace, that fellow could cast a spell on stone. He may have time enough, but I live a normal span, like any man. Paksenarrion, I will write my letter this afternoon. When will you be fit for travel?”
“In a day or so. I’d like to get everything cleaned up.”
“Good. I think you should not linger; winter will close some roads soon, and it makes bitter traveling to the northwest. About Suli—do you want me to talk to her?”
“I told her she should talk to you, but she—”
“She doesn’t want it; she knows what I’ll say. I’ve said it before. All right. I’ll say it again. I can send her to another grange—a larger one—with more women training. Let her know what she can work toward—yeoman-marshal, or something like that. Tell her to come, if you see her.” Paks wondered if it would help, but said she would.
18
As autumn darkened into winter, Paks rode north and west, into Vérella of the Bells, and west along the Honnorgat, through one town after another, as the river narrowed. She passed from grange to grange, enjoying the hospitality of each, as the Marshal’s letter opened the doors. She thought of turning aside at Whitemeadow, and following a branch of the river north to Rocky Ford, and then on to Three Firs. But had her dowry arrived yet? Would she be welcome? She decided to wait until she had her knighthood, and ride home with Gird’s crescent on her arm. As she neared Fintha, she tried to think of a more elegant name for the black horse, something suitable for a warhorse, but she had thought of him as Socks from the first, and it stuck in her mind.
Frost whitened the ground the morning she first caught sight of Fin Panir. She had been on the road before dawn, the saddle cold as iron beneath her, and her breath pluming out before. When the sun rose into a clear cold sky, the ground sparkled in rose and gold; the tree branches interlacing overhead glittered with frost. It was like riding inside a pearl. A little wind blew the sparkling frost in swirls before her. Paks found herself grinning, and nudged the black horse into a trot. He squealed and kicked out before settling down. She laughed aloud.
Then the forest broke apart, and she saw across a bend of the river the spires of the High Lord’s Hall, gleaming in silver and gold against the blue sky. Beneath lay a tangle of roofs and walls, multi-colored stone, tiles, sliced into fantastic shapes by the sharp shadows of a winter sun. She rode toward it, yearning.
Within an hour she could pick out the gates. Between her and the walls, a small company of horsemen rode, armor glittering and banners dancing above. When she was near enough, they hailed her.
“Ho! Traveler! Where are you bound?” The leader was deep-voiced, a man of middle height in chain mail with a blue mantle bearing Gird’s crescent.
“To the Hall in Fin Panir,” said Paks. “I have a letter from Marshal Cedfer of Brewersbridge.”
“For the Marshal-General?” he seemed surprised.
“Yes, sir. Can you direct me?”
“Yes, of course. But you might ask at the gates; she may be abroad this morning. You will have left Tor’s Crossing early—or did you camp out last night?”
“I left early, sir.”
“Well, the Marshal-General’s quarters are in the Hall Courts. Take the first left, after the gate, and then a right—go straight past two turns, and then left again under the arch. Someone will take your horse there, and guide you. But, as I said, ask at the city gates if your message is urgent; they will know if she’s ridden out somewhere.”
“Thank you, sir.” Paks lifted her reins and started forward. One of the other riders spoke to the leader, and he lifted a hand.
“Wait a moment—” He looked closely at her. “Are you a Girdsman?”
“No, sir.”
He looked puzzled. “You are carrying something of great worth—is it a gift from the Marshal?”
“Gift? No, sir.” Paks thought of the jewels she still had, and wondered if that was what he meant. Somehow she didn’t think so.
At the city gates, a neatly uniformed guard waved her through after she explained her errand. When she asked, he said that the Marshal-General had gone to the practice fields west of the city, but that she might wait at the Hall if she chose. Paks followed the directions through stone-paved streets of middle width, and arrived at an arched entrance through a wall. Far above she could see the towers of the Lord’s Hall. A grizzled older man stepped out of an alcove in the arch and asked her business.
“Marshal-General, eh? She’ll be out until noon; can you wait?” At her nod, he stepped forward. “Good, then. I’ll get someone to take your horse—”
“I can take him,” Paks interrupted. “If you’ll tell me where.”
His bushy eyebrows rose. “A guest take her own horse to stable? What do you think we are, ruffians?” He turned and bellowed through the archway. “Seli! Seliam!” Paks heard the clatter of running feet, and a boy raced up, panting. “Take this horse to the guest stables, Seli. Have the stableboys see to him.” The boy laid his hand on the rein, and Paks dismounted. She rummaged in her saddlebags for Cedfer’s letter to the Marshal-General. “Seli will take your saddlebags to the guest house in a few minutes,” the man said. “Would you prefer to wait there, or in the Marshal-General’s study?”
“Could I—” Paks suddenly felt shy. “I—I haven’t been in Fin Panir before,” she began again. “Could I see the High Lord’s Hall? Is it permitted?”
His face split in a grin. “Permitted! Of course it’s permitted. Let me find someone for the entrance, and I’ll take you in myself. Haven’t been here before, eh? I daresay you’ve heard tales, though, haven’t you?” He turned away without waiting for an answer, and yelled again through the arch. This time another older man answered the summons.
“What is it, Argalt? An invasion of orcs?”
“No. A newcomer, who wants to see the Hall while waiting for the Marshal-General.”
“And you want to show him—her, excuse me.” The man smiled at Paks. “Gird’s grace, lady, you’ve made Argalt’s day. He loves to show off the Hall. And you’ve bright sun for it, too.” He waved them away, and Paks followed the man through the arch and across a cobbled courtyard to the entrance of the High Lord’s Hall of Fin Panir.